When None Desires
Today, I cracked a tooth.
The culprit? Salted peanuts — hard, crunchy, irresistible.
At my age, I should’ve known better.
Self-inflicted suffering.
It made me think about how we endure pain — not always because of fate, but often by choice, by habit, by desire.
I dreaded the dentist, as usual.
There is no such thing as a “good” dentist, only the roulette of rusted luck.
Yet I smiled through the dull ache,
a small training in the Buddhist way of embracing suffering,
not with resignation, but with awareness.
Then my son came out of his room.
“Are you using the Spotify music link?” he asked.
I wasn’t too lazy to learn something new, perhaps.
He gave me a quick lesson.
And just like that, ambient music of a higher quality flowed into my ears.
I sat still, and a quiet radiance spread within.
I felt I was in Brahma Loka,
seated among Buddhas, Deities, and invisible Teachers,
not to attain anything, not to seek, but just to say:
Thank you, and goodbye.
Knowing fully well — this moment too shall pass.
And then the thought returned:
Desire.
Not all desire is wrong.
Desire is neither good nor evil in itself.
It is in the understanding of desire, and in the consciousness of how I act upon it,
That freedom is either found or lost.
The key, I feel, lies in knowing the difference between wanting and needing.
Greed begins when “enough” is never enough.
But what of the one who desires?
What if —
There is no one left who desires.
When the "I" loosens, when the ego softens,
when even the observer is not clinging to being the observer —
Then desire has no hook to land on.
It comes and it goes,
like wind brushing across an open field.
No one to claim it.
No one is to suffer because of it.
What remains is peace.
Not dramatic.
Not final.
Just — presence.
And in that, I rest.
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