"From Gaza to God: A Cry Spanning Years (2009–2025)"

 "From Gaza to God: A Cry Spanning Years (2009–2025)"

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In light of what is happening in Gaza today—another round of slaughter, of silence, of twisted justifications—I revisited something I wrote in January 2009. I was younger, more confused perhaps, but no less sincere in my desire to understand the Divine will behind human madness. I share it here, unedited but lightly formatted, in memory of all the victims—past and present—and as a witness to my own spiritual journey.

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🔹 A Reminder from the Ayatollah (2009)

"O you vile self of the writer, who made much pretence..."
— From 40 Hadiths by Imam Ruhullah Al Musawi Al Khumayni

After reflecting deeply on an earlier blog post, I deleted it. It was raw, self-punishing, and maybe too revealing. But the chastising words of the great teachers hit me hard. So here I am—still flawed, still questioning. Not a saint, not a prophet. Just the Cheeseburger Buddha, stumbling along.

Lusts and contradictions—I own them. I've loved, lost, sinned, repented, cleaned up after cats, shouted at God, and whispered regrets into the darkness. And still I live. Still, I ask.

I struggle with the image of a vengeful God. I don't understand why Gaza bleeds endlessly. Why do those called the “chosen” unleash such suffering? Why do children throw stones and get bullets in return? Who is David? Who is Goliath?

Why do some glide through life with money, fame, and trips to Mecca, while others rot in refugee camps?

Where is Your mercy, Lord?

You and I—we have a long conversation coming.

I don't ask for prophets. Just a crack in the sky. A whisper of grace. A flicker of compassion in this storm.

Enough is enough. We ask for peace.

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🔹 Now, in 2025

I read this now, sixteen years later, and I do not recant a word. If anything, I feel the anguish more sharply. The war continues. The rubble piles higher. The children’s names keep growing.

And yet, the silence of those in power is just as deafening.
The hypocrisy is just as thick.
The grief is just as real.

But I am no longer shouting in despair. I am praying through clarity. Asking not for divine punishment, but divine awakening—in every heart, whether Palestinian or Israeli, Jewish or Muslim, rich or poor.

Let those with power grow a conscience. Let those without a voice be heard.
Let this not be in vain.

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🕊 Dear Lord, Ya Allah—Enough. Let it stop. Let there be peace.

Let it be Your mercy—not our madness—that writes the final verse of this story.

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