There are days like these, my mother used to tell me and so learn to live with it, it's not your fault just accept, understand and let it ago. Let the present moment become more real than what it is seeing the truth instead of what is false. The more you accumulate the bogus redundant dramas that you think are significant towards your growth externally as well as internal the more you are weighed down towards your grave. Letting it all drift, letting it all float away on this river of believe the lighter would your mind become; letting go is an Art that must be exercised. 

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It does get lonely when you decide to walk the road towards self liberation and often most give up and sought the old road of  seeking companionship and the comfort of being recognized and accepted. This external predilections in life is one of the roadside attractions that tends to draw one away from the main highway that leads you towards self liberation. In order that your mind becomes quiet it needs to be vacuumed clean and all the dirt and dust removed so as to accommodate a more original and pure consciousness that is the main ingredient for spiritual development. In order for pure consciousness to express itself the path must be cleared of all debris and flotsam, from all left over habits and preoccupations; you need a an empty space.

This external world is an illusion, Maya, most wise men of old and even present ones would attest to it as nothing is eternal or permanent and all are subjected to change and demise. It is entirely up to you to discover the truth to this factor for your own salvation. It takes a life time work or no time at all to discover this fact of our existence depending on how receptive or perceptive you are or awakened to see the truth as it is or when it is presented to you. If you have been sleep walking most of your life than it is a long and tedious journey for you to reach the truth but if you had been exposed to the reality of the truth of the matter at one time or another you are on the road to find out; stay awake and be ever aware of the journey that has been exposed before you and don't look back, the truth is out there.

With a single stroke of your Sword of Wisdom you can cut through the knot of delusion that binds you to this Maya. However you have to have hone your Sword through the right understanding of what Wisdom truly is.