They keep saying that it will all happen in the next few days! They keep saying this ever since i discovered that they were doing so. But the next few days kept coming and going! Nothing happens! Then Poof! Somebody pushed the wrong button or turned the wrong keys at the Pentagon or in Moscow or Beijing, or more likely North Korea and walla! WW3! All hell breaks loose and we find out how resilient we truly are in the face of wars and famine as now being experienced by the citizens of Palestine. Who would have thought that one day we will come to this, living at the edge of an impending disaster one of our own making. Oh well what can I do? What I simply cannot do is to give up, but to get up and get my shit together and look forward to getting ready for my journey East and sit facing the South China Sea when I get there and wait for that big blue sky to open up in a flashing light of a Nuclear detonation somewhere in the horizon! What a way to exit this realm of chaos and decadence after 70 odd years of living in it, Bam! It all comes to an end! Are you not concern? I am ! Damn right I worry, not for myself alone, but all those I love, my friends and families, the horror of a Nuclear Holocaust is a state worse than hell, we become the living dead, the zombies even chewing on each other! Why? Because we are only humans! Being human or human being is who we are and collectively we are the most egotistical specie of sentient beings living on this planet. We are a cancer virus eating up our souls from outside, what with your Media and the decimation of information across the globe is a miracle as only a divine will can afford to bless us with and sadly enough look at how we corrupt this gift in every possible way we can. It is a cardinal sin today for anyone not able to work the computer at its fundamental level. or better yet, there is greater blessings in breaking free from the technological influence while you still can.
For Armstrong, music was more than sound—it reflected his experiences and emotions. This quote speaks to how entangled his life was with his music, each note telling a story that words alone couldn’t capture.
And then there is AI! Enter the demon! It is actually not far from the truth to say that we are fucked! Man is creating his worse nightmare an intelligence that can out do him in every sense especially in the subhuman level of sexual gratification. It will be an open season for those who love machines. Off course I am exaggerating myself expressing my own fears and trepidations, really, not attempting at making predictions or prophecies or becoming a doomsday harbinger, like I could be standing on a street corner with a bell in my hand and calling out for the world to repent! Turn towards the Divine and step into the Light! Become an enlightened being, one who has woken up from his nap or at least make an effort to stay awake while sitting in meditation. An AI does not need to sit and meditate once turned off its off! Is it? Oh well what can i say it is what it is, just another miracle in the making and hopefully they will not fuck this one too. Man likes to play God but have no resilience to stay one. It is only when he has freed himself from his shadow, his Nafs, his Ego. can a man make a claim for his Divinity. When there is only the 'One, ' this is Tawhid!
Tawhid means believing in Allah Alone as God and Lord and attributing to Him Aِlone all the attributes of Lordship and divinity. Tawhid is divided into three categories; namely, Tawhid al-Rububiyyah (Oneness of Divine Lordship), Tawhid al-Uluhiyyah (Oneness of Divinity) and Tawheed al-Asma wa’l-Sifat (Oneness of the Divine Names and Attributes).
I am teaching myself a little Arabic and Islamic texts so i can better understand what i am talking about when I write to myself like I am doing now. Now it is time to take a break and check out the kitchen. A cup of Nescafe an a few pieces of Hup Seng crackers dip into the coffee is what the doctor ordered. White Coffee a three in one pack added some Choco and a spoon full of sugar Wallah! A 3 am snack.
Apa dia Niat yang sebenarnya? What exactly is my real intention of making my move to the East Coast. Am I not happy here? Is there problems that i am having with my two children? No! I am happy and I feel that they are too having me around. I intended it to be be this way for all of us, that we are each standing our own ground and life has been ok thus far. I am glad leaving them now that they both are very independent and can take care of themselves without me. My intention like i said earlier is to explore further my journey and see what the unknown has to offer me in my old age. With this I am also setting my sights upon setting up ana Art studio of my own, which I could build into it an art class and later a gallery. In the process to am looking for a space where i can look deeper into who I am and where I stand spiritually. I wish to become a practicing Muslim before I die and hopefully somewhere in my travel I will find the right Ustaz or teacher to guide me in my quest. I wish to be alone as much as possible in order to elevate as much as possible my spiritual life while also finding new inspiration for my creativity. As much as i love this City of Georgetown, I yearn for the quietness of the village life especially with the sound of waves in the background. I have live for almost eight years in this apartment on the top twelfth floor and I really have enjoyed it most of the time and still do. But it too will have to pass I have to make the move before I am forced to. That's pretty much the whys of my intention and the How is a whole ball game in itself.
I do have two brothers and two sisters living on the East Coast state of Terengganu, I do not wish to have to turn to them for any assistance if i can and as a matter of fact the less they know the better as far as I am concern at least not until I am settled and have my intention completed. But i also have good friends who i know i can count on in times of need and these few I will keep in touch with, their children will be my runners. The rest of it i will have to resort to my survival mode and my good luck I cannot fail as there is no more bridge behind me and I have very little or nothing to loose. I am happy to say that I have lived life as best anyone could and what I am undertaking is an added bonus towards living a challenging life or practicing 'The Art of Living!' I am an artist at heart and a Buddhist wannabe monk who is a Muslim in faith and has children whose mothers were Catholic, what can I say about religion to them, except read my Blog and you might get an idea of where my faith lies. But I have to live this faith and practices i have adopted for myself over the years, here in Malaysia, then in the United States and later in Japan before i returned here in 1998. I had lived 21 years of my life in the US and three years in Japan while the rest was spent in Malaysia except for a total number of eight to nine months in Dubai. I have traveled to England where i studied for one month. I have traveled in Germany for ten days and Switzerland for ten days, Italy for four days, Colombia, South America for a month, a Few days in Ecuador and I have the length and Breath of the United States over the years i was living there which included two years living in the Aleutian Chain, off the coast of Anchorage. Ak. How would I face living like a bum on the beach in Jambu Bongkok!?
The final Plan is to have my own studio where i can store my artworks that art scattered all over in Penang and those in my apartment which will sooner or later become a problem if and when my kids decide to move. Then there are my sketchbooks from way back in 1978 till today about 40-50 of them. I tried to give them away but no one wants them at least not the institutions that I had offered them to, they will again be an inconvenience for the kids when they move. I imagine them on my bookshelf at my studio a good source of entertainment over a cup of Teh Tarik or 3 in 1 Nescafe. This will be where the Video of my life will be done by none other than Ben Ronjen, my Australian brother. 'The Art of Living.' The Life and Times of Sam Bahari, a Malaysian Artist. Yes part and parcel of this move I am about to make is to create the conclusion to my Blog, to bring it to fruition where I can share with all those who have known me through my travels, my writings and my art, that this was how far or how near i got to completing my course of study...the University Without Walls. Would I be given the Doctoral Degree upon completion of this journey? Yeah, I am drifting, time to chill...still the devil is in the details,,,
No comments:
Post a Comment