As the COV19 pandemic takes its course and tolls around the world, I cannot help but ask myself if I created this mess myself. Yes I have had often enough wished that a global pandemic of one kind or another would wake humanity up from its slumber of ignorance. Now God has pulled the handbrake and all is in lock down, stay home and be happy orders have been given by most governments around the world. Sad and tragic as it is, I feel like it is entirely my fault or those with like minded people as me who has become so sick and tired of the negative state we are in as a specie. I had wished for a miracle as only a miracle can help us to change our course of collective consciousness towards a more positive and loving one, however i found that miracles are a rare commodity at this stage of our human history and so I had silently wished for shit to happen instead and looks like shit is happening.
Careful what you wish for, it is said and it is my bad that I have created Karma to destroy Karma. I have brought upon myself a big time karmic consequence in order that humanity will come to grips with its karmic evolution. In the Hindu calendar of Ages, we are running into the end of the Kali Yuga or sometimes known as the Age of Destruction, or as the Buddhist calls it the Dharma Ending Age or as the Judeo- Christian- Islamic tradition would call it the End of Times, which off course modern day man and especially the skeptics and the scientist would scoff at as bogus, we as a specie are going through rapid changes often beyond our control. Hen ce we say the world is spinning out of control, perhaps it is us who are spinning out of control and just refuse to acknowledge our state of being as a specie. To put it mildly, we are shitting on the very plate we use to eat from as we go about living worse than animals while calling ourselves created in the image of Gods, the civilized ones on this face of the earth. There is a verse in the Quran that says something to the effect that man was created to become the Keeper or Warden of this Planet. Look at us!
If we were to look at ourselves through the Biblical eyes of our Creator, Satan has practically own his bet that man will become self destructive and he will bring mayhem and bloodshed upon himself and the Planet, Then again perhaps this is what being human is all about what with free will and the ability to think and make choices has placed us in such a predicament; we have become more beastly than the Beast. The virus is here to tip the scale of our evolution towards making us realize how fragile we really are and with the hope that this will wake us up from this slumber we have been in sleep walking in a dream that is slowly but surely turning into a nightmare. Shamefully I admit that this is not the legacy that i hand in mind to leave behind me for posterity, to my children and grandchildren if I were to have any.
The Virus in indeed a wake up call for humanity and hopefully it will last long enough and has enough impact to shake our minds into seeing the reality that we have created for ourselves. Then again two World Wars has not done much in the past and it seems we are bound and determined to evoke the Third as our option. Perhaps it is meant to be so, that we will eventually become victims of our own free will, only instead of evolving towards, Harmony, Love and Compassion, we are still led by Greed, Hate and Ignorance. Hence today we have become prisoners of our own making, we are living in a locked down state whereby not allowed to leave our homes for fear of spreading the pandemic even further. We are becoming familiar now with such new terms as 'Social Distancing,' In my country, Malaysia, they are even suggesting calling for a military intervention to carry out Marshal Law just to make sure people do not leave their homes.How distance can that be?
Friday, March 20, 2020
Saturday, March 14, 2020
If it takes a virus to end my life I welcome it.
As the world and humanity in general is being brought to a slow grinding halt by what is getting to be a virus pandemic I am down with a lower back ache! I am positive there is no connection whatsoever as for one thing I have not left the house much and as a matter of fact am enjoying the solitary existence as days goes by. Perhaps the mind knew what was coming and had been preparing for the scenario or it is simply not much fun out there anymore, or it is again part and parcel of ageing. I miss doing things though especially travelling, being on the road and getting into other people's lives and drifting out when the time was ripe. It used to be travelling whether locally or globally was smooth and fun, however now just clearing through an airport is a nightmare and any new face walking through the neighborhood is a threat, a potential drug addict scoping or a human trafficker looking for a potential victim. It is getting to become pretty depressing as my daughter pointed out when we talked about it.
But for one who has live seventy odd years now and still think like a seventeen year old I should not complain for I have seen the worse and the best the life has to offer and survived a few major life threats along the way. I survived a total car wreck of an accident, a few motorcycle mishaps that would have cost me a broken arm or leg at the very least. survived falling from a cascading waterfall from one level to the next that had hardly any water to break my fall head first and could have by right broken my neck, survived being attacked and bitten by a German sheppard that has left a gash two inches from my nuts, survived the Loma Pierta San Francisco Earthquake of 1989, survived the Sarin Gas attack in the Tokyo subway of 1995, survived 10 days of commercial fishing in the Bering Sea off the Pacific North West among other life threatening situations. I had experienced three strokes that wiped me off my feet and two of them while I was driving, I knew back then that I was supposed to have ended my life there and then, but I survived and not too many people knew of my condition then. My worse and most painful experience was when I had my pleurisy or liquid in the lungs attack from a Yoga exercise accident. I have related this incident that took place in Corte Madeira, Marin County, California, a few times in this Blog and so will skip the details. However this experience shook me up pretty bad and it later changed my life.
I would choose a virus rather than a bullet or a knife in my back, and God I hope i do not leave with a messy diaper wrapped around my groin. However , shit happens and who knows where or how or when but it happens and when it happens I hope to be fully conscious rather than drugged with tubes sticking out of me left and right out of every orifices of my body. How would I die? A very intriguing question to say the least. Most people fear not death itself but how their death would happen. Would it be in the comfort of your home with our loved ones holding your hands or would you meet your death falling off stool while trying to fix a bulb, or maybe you are simply infected by a virus just like most, a virus said to have been originated from a place called Wu Han in China. Why not? In all my seventy years I have been into and seen more than I can bargain for in human history, these past seventy years of my life has been filled with all kinds of scenarios and some major changes, the rise and fall of governments, appearance and disappearance of cultures, the radical rise in animal extinction, the radical change in climatic conditions and so forth; I am a part of all these as they are a part of me.
But for one who has live seventy odd years now and still think like a seventeen year old I should not complain for I have seen the worse and the best the life has to offer and survived a few major life threats along the way. I survived a total car wreck of an accident, a few motorcycle mishaps that would have cost me a broken arm or leg at the very least. survived falling from a cascading waterfall from one level to the next that had hardly any water to break my fall head first and could have by right broken my neck, survived being attacked and bitten by a German sheppard that has left a gash two inches from my nuts, survived the Loma Pierta San Francisco Earthquake of 1989, survived the Sarin Gas attack in the Tokyo subway of 1995, survived 10 days of commercial fishing in the Bering Sea off the Pacific North West among other life threatening situations. I had experienced three strokes that wiped me off my feet and two of them while I was driving, I knew back then that I was supposed to have ended my life there and then, but I survived and not too many people knew of my condition then. My worse and most painful experience was when I had my pleurisy or liquid in the lungs attack from a Yoga exercise accident. I have related this incident that took place in Corte Madeira, Marin County, California, a few times in this Blog and so will skip the details. However this experience shook me up pretty bad and it later changed my life.
I would choose a virus rather than a bullet or a knife in my back, and God I hope i do not leave with a messy diaper wrapped around my groin. However , shit happens and who knows where or how or when but it happens and when it happens I hope to be fully conscious rather than drugged with tubes sticking out of me left and right out of every orifices of my body. How would I die? A very intriguing question to say the least. Most people fear not death itself but how their death would happen. Would it be in the comfort of your home with our loved ones holding your hands or would you meet your death falling off stool while trying to fix a bulb, or maybe you are simply infected by a virus just like most, a virus said to have been originated from a place called Wu Han in China. Why not? In all my seventy years I have been into and seen more than I can bargain for in human history, these past seventy years of my life has been filled with all kinds of scenarios and some major changes, the rise and fall of governments, appearance and disappearance of cultures, the radical rise in animal extinction, the radical change in climatic conditions and so forth; I am a part of all these as they are a part of me.
Tuesday, March 10, 2020
What can I do?- But breath...
" Mother do you think they will try to break my balls...Mother should i run for President, Mother should i trust the government...Mama will they put me in the firing line! Ooh Wah is it just a waste of time.. Mama did it need to be so high?."
Pink Floyd,,,
What happens when have found that you are not truly breathing as you should after all these years you assume you have been breathing through your nose, as they are there for that purpose, but no! Research has found out the nasal breathing of breathing through the nose is what we should be doing and not breathing through the mouth. Off course this is true to a certain degree as it is not all cut and dry, either this way or that, no breathing is as complex as the whole human system is; what makes a human body suck in air and let it out throughout its entire lifetime, not a minute off to be without breathing can be fatal or at the very least you could be looking for the panic button to push, or reach for the drug of your choice to help create a balance again throughout the system through alignment of body, mind and spirit.
Every breath we take is the prime mover of the energy that is flowing throughout the human form, this circulation of energy, or Ki or Chi as commonly known in the East is dependent upon the balanced motion and movement of the air that you suck into the your form and exhale it back out into space after it has made its impact. This is simply put breathing, when done with awareness and as a practice, breathing you will find is the "Master Key,"
towards opening up the windows of consciousness in your daily life through intuition and revelations and visions and all it takes is just breathing in the most comfortable way you have been doing, except making sure that you breath through your nose and not your mouth, (according to research). One of the simple reasons you don't breath through your mouth is that you will catch a bug in your throat or you will choke from the hot spicy food you just ate, Nothing more terrifying than choking and coughing not being able to breath through both you nose and mouth, this si when your understanding and practice of breathing can save you life even to very point of shutting down from a stroke or heart attack. Mindful of your breathing no matter how desperate circumstances may seem, seek out your breath and breath or let it come into you effortlessly.
For those who have grown into a of adulthood in the era of Pink Floyd and Cat Stevens, Bob Dylan and CCR, well you know the feeling of how words thoughts and ideas become infused with those of others much larger is size, shape and status then you and you had the intuition to follow these dreams and visions into the later years of your life to become today who you are; you thoughts and ideas are never yours they have always been a part of the whole, collective unconscious of which you are but a part of willingly or otherwise of, playing your role as who you think you are.Often loaded with trials and tribulations, vexations and distractions, pleasure and pain, you have survived thus far although still bound by the grief and suffering of the world around you. You ask and keep on asking what can i do to help ease the pain of others and the answer is still the same coming back at you, you are the change, change your perspective, your view of life,your, mental formations, your take of life. Who are you? Are even aware that you have been breathing like a fish out of water, through your mouth? Or are you moved on into the higher level be becoming more aware of how your breathing helps to make every decision that comes to you by eliminating all your thoughts simply by totally to stop breathing. No thought is strong enough to manifest itself while you are not breathing, no all your mind and body actions are arrested and you are put on panic hold and all that you can think about is to suck in the next breath or sail away into the sunset like those gone before you...end of story and out of the game.
Pink Floyd,,,
What happens when have found that you are not truly breathing as you should after all these years you assume you have been breathing through your nose, as they are there for that purpose, but no! Research has found out the nasal breathing of breathing through the nose is what we should be doing and not breathing through the mouth. Off course this is true to a certain degree as it is not all cut and dry, either this way or that, no breathing is as complex as the whole human system is; what makes a human body suck in air and let it out throughout its entire lifetime, not a minute off to be without breathing can be fatal or at the very least you could be looking for the panic button to push, or reach for the drug of your choice to help create a balance again throughout the system through alignment of body, mind and spirit.
Every breath we take is the prime mover of the energy that is flowing throughout the human form, this circulation of energy, or Ki or Chi as commonly known in the East is dependent upon the balanced motion and movement of the air that you suck into the your form and exhale it back out into space after it has made its impact. This is simply put breathing, when done with awareness and as a practice, breathing you will find is the "Master Key,"
towards opening up the windows of consciousness in your daily life through intuition and revelations and visions and all it takes is just breathing in the most comfortable way you have been doing, except making sure that you breath through your nose and not your mouth, (according to research). One of the simple reasons you don't breath through your mouth is that you will catch a bug in your throat or you will choke from the hot spicy food you just ate, Nothing more terrifying than choking and coughing not being able to breath through both you nose and mouth, this si when your understanding and practice of breathing can save you life even to very point of shutting down from a stroke or heart attack. Mindful of your breathing no matter how desperate circumstances may seem, seek out your breath and breath or let it come into you effortlessly.
For those who have grown into a of adulthood in the era of Pink Floyd and Cat Stevens, Bob Dylan and CCR, well you know the feeling of how words thoughts and ideas become infused with those of others much larger is size, shape and status then you and you had the intuition to follow these dreams and visions into the later years of your life to become today who you are; you thoughts and ideas are never yours they have always been a part of the whole, collective unconscious of which you are but a part of willingly or otherwise of, playing your role as who you think you are.Often loaded with trials and tribulations, vexations and distractions, pleasure and pain, you have survived thus far although still bound by the grief and suffering of the world around you. You ask and keep on asking what can i do to help ease the pain of others and the answer is still the same coming back at you, you are the change, change your perspective, your view of life,your, mental formations, your take of life. Who are you? Are even aware that you have been breathing like a fish out of water, through your mouth? Or are you moved on into the higher level be becoming more aware of how your breathing helps to make every decision that comes to you by eliminating all your thoughts simply by totally to stop breathing. No thought is strong enough to manifest itself while you are not breathing, no all your mind and body actions are arrested and you are put on panic hold and all that you can think about is to suck in the next breath or sail away into the sunset like those gone before you...end of story and out of the game.
Monday, March 09, 2020
You Looked Wonderful Tonight...
There is a saying that after you have left your home you arrive at the front gate in a full circle called the "Circle of Life,"the journey is but a short moment in time to find out what is out there and what goes on in here at the same moment, the mind and the heart which is the Master and Ruler and which is the servant. There is two kinds of minds basically in Buddhist thoughts especially in the Zen tradition of Japan and they being,Big Mind and small mind.Big Mind thinks- if it thinks at all, of high lofty thoughts of Consciousness and Enlightenment like the Divinity and Deities and Gods, and Buddhas and The Great Father - The great Spirit, while the small mind is pretty much being sucked into the physical realm of attractions and distractions, trapped pretty much in this realm of what the Buddhist and Hindu call Maya- in Sanskrit- the Realm of Karmic Illusion. Nothing is what it seems and nothing has its whole truth attached to it, all is mental formations, conjured by the human mind through eons of spiritual and emotional and psychological =physical evolution. Only Man can tell that he is going to die to himself. The small mind or commonly known as the 'Monkey Mind,' The mask I wear as who I am while living out my life -span of seventy years and writing down what i have learned for myself and being able to share in this manner with others, what more can I ask for. But for the Grace of God or the Buddhas, by the Grace of Lord Shiva or Krishna, but for the Grace of Allah, I could be growing old in Lebanon, or Syria or worse yet Palestine; I thank You my Lord for the saving Grace and Mercy that You have showered upon me in my times of need whether I realize it then or not. I have lived a blessed life and for this I am eternally grateful and what is to come, pleasure or pain I will endure with patience and perseverance, Insha'Allah- God Willing.
I have arrived home at becoming a Born Again Muslim, not that I ever gave it up willingly despite my myriads of transgressions, committed throughout my adult life, I have arrived home. I am standing in the back door of His Kingdom; I stand before the Gate of No Gate. I stand on my knees in His Presence humbled and alone.,,I knelt before myself in Emptiness. I accepted my scroll of life and I proceeded to move on to the next level as prescribed within the scroll. What lies ahead is yet another journey perhaps, perhaps the journey has ended and I am merely asking to be reposted back into this realm of existence as I have a vow to fulfill, and that is to awaken with the rest of humanity before I become a Buddha, or enter the Kingdom of Heaven, or merge myself with the Source of the Universe.
I keep telling myself these things, i might end up believing in them myself!I might forget that I am living in a world of delusions and illusions. Nothing is what it seems and one has to remain fully awake to realize what is and what is not real.
Stepped outside for a smoke and looking up the moon was like a large eye in the sky right over the Hills. I did an oil painting of this once and it is hanging on the wall of my nephew's office in KL it was called the Nebula or something. It was like the yellow of an egg surrounded by luminous bluish color and all this encircled by a ring of amber glow against the darkness of the skies. I was looking into the eye, the All Seeing Eye like looking into a tunnel of bluish light into the unknown. I bowed to the Moon and thanked Her for being there for me all through my life. I told Her that She Looked Wonderful Tonight!
I have arrived home at becoming a Born Again Muslim, not that I ever gave it up willingly despite my myriads of transgressions, committed throughout my adult life, I have arrived home. I am standing in the back door of His Kingdom; I stand before the Gate of No Gate. I stand on my knees in His Presence humbled and alone.,,I knelt before myself in Emptiness. I accepted my scroll of life and I proceeded to move on to the next level as prescribed within the scroll. What lies ahead is yet another journey perhaps, perhaps the journey has ended and I am merely asking to be reposted back into this realm of existence as I have a vow to fulfill, and that is to awaken with the rest of humanity before I become a Buddha, or enter the Kingdom of Heaven, or merge myself with the Source of the Universe.
I keep telling myself these things, i might end up believing in them myself!I might forget that I am living in a world of delusions and illusions. Nothing is what it seems and one has to remain fully awake to realize what is and what is not real.
Stepped outside for a smoke and looking up the moon was like a large eye in the sky right over the Hills. I did an oil painting of this once and it is hanging on the wall of my nephew's office in KL it was called the Nebula or something. It was like the yellow of an egg surrounded by luminous bluish color and all this encircled by a ring of amber glow against the darkness of the skies. I was looking into the eye, the All Seeing Eye like looking into a tunnel of bluish light into the unknown. I bowed to the Moon and thanked Her for being there for me all through my life. I told Her that She Looked Wonderful Tonight!
Sunday, March 08, 2020
Together we stand.- The Corona -virus
"The Last of the Mohicans", will always be one of my most favorite tune of all time.It took an effort to weven write that first sentence and not to mention weeks of making no entry, debating, procrastinating,, or simply getting the wind of it, simply tired.
Breath! Catch your breath! Become aware that you are breathing the air...in when you are breathing in...out when you are breathing out. Remind yourself that you are simply breathing, it will return you to yourself, or at least brings you closer who you truly are. The theme song, that brings forth call of the wild, of the struggle to stay alive in order to bring forth your children and theirs; you are the Last of the Mohicans, when they took your life your whole tribe became extinct; it was genocide. To me the tune played over and over again in my head is very meditative, if not relaxing and brings me back to my contemplative mood; a time to taker a closer look at what the mind has been up to. Big Mind small mind, enlightened mind- monkey mind, all is mind; I am Not the mind. Mind is my tool of expression in relationship to the rest of the Universe - out there. I treat it with Love and respect will always be in awe in what it can do to me if not fully understood of its workings.
To understand the mind I feel. one has to understand the art of Breathing, the most primordial of all element of one's physical existence. To care or not to care, to feel or not to feel, to trust or not to trust, to belong or not to belong; I am Humanity itself. I am that I am...I vowed to carry out the task of a Bodhisattva and this shall be done in one form or another as time rises. I cannot escape my calling. Breathing in Love...I breath out Compassion, may all sentient beings benefit from this my simple practice. As I meditate to the rythm of the drum and Native acoustics I am settled into a state of a Peaceful Mind ... knowing that this too, shall pass...
I feel that the ongoing coronavirus pandemic has a silver lining in disguise for Mother nature and the Planet itself. It makes people stop and think fo one thing; life is short and impermanent, make full good use of it, squander not what has been awarded you, this human form...awesome yet so fragile, all it takes is a virus, forget bullets. This pandemic has greatly hampered travels from one country to another, this has lowered the pollution level in the atmosphere, scientists says. Wild animals have a breath of fresh air for their survival as less people would be in the mood to indulge in the menu with exotic animals at least till all this blow over as it too shall pass... The Wu Han virus is a blessing in disguise for man to slow down with their personal agendas and focus on a common enemy that if not contained can will rip the human population apart worse, much worse than climate change would. The enemy has no face, no color, no creed, has no religion nor system to follow, it has only one intention and that is to thrive like a cancer throughout the face of the earth, it has no personal motive whatsoever.
If there is any silver lining behind the pandemic we are facing it would be in the awakening of the Masses of humanity to every corner of the Planet. It is our responsibility as the citizen of this planet to come together and practice unconditional Love nad Compassion towards our fellow man no matter his or her color or of origin. This is an opportunity to take upon ourselves to work collectively as one spirit, as a whole. Through prayers, meditation, chants, through whatever consciousness that we project into the Universe, towards the Divine, or the Source; we are all being tested to look at ourselves more closely and see our own connectivity, our interdependence.
#Last of the Mohicans,#Coronavirus,
If there is any silver lining behind the pandemic we are facing it would be in the awakening of the Masses of humanity to every corner of the Planet. It is our responsibility as the citizen of this planet to come together and practice unconditional Love nad Compassion towards our fellow man no matter his or her color or of origin. This is an opportunity to take upon ourselves to work collectively as one spirit, as a whole. Through prayers, meditation, chants, through whatever consciousness that we project into the Universe, towards the Divine, or the Source; we are all being tested to look at ourselves more closely and see our own connectivity, our interdependence.
#Last of the Mohicans,#Coronavirus,
Gloomy! Maybe not, maybe what the doctor ordered for the better health of humanity today. Maybe we all need to go through some form of awakening within each and everyone of us to look at all the options we have and how we fare thus far as far as our very survival goes. Nah! Too bleak to look that far, too early to cry wolf. Will wait till shit hits the fan perhaps then we will consider the need for an immediate collective action.
Sunday, March 01, 2020
The Lunatics are on the grass...Pink.
It is getting harder getting into making these posts as there is so much to say but they seem to matter so little it seems like I m loosing the zest for writing What more can i talk of that I have not already, all the concerns I have of what humanity as a whole is going through out there and what I am going through in here. I feel like I am lost in a limbo between light an darkness, right and wrong, good and evil, happiness and sadness; my emotional mental state is perturbed. I feel sometimes like I am fighting a loosing battle keeping my mind from running awry with so much compulsive thoughts over matters that i have very little or no control over. I am struggling to maintain a spiritual practice while facing all the issues I allow myself to be exposed to, of the problems that I feel accountable to personally as citizen of this Planet. A part of me says fuck it there is only so much one take or do that would make much difference, just accept with right understanding and let them go as inevitable, such Is, meant to be, as is written in the Good Book; empathize with detachment.
I feel like I am watching an epic movie of my own making that is slowly rolling down to a grinding halt, like the Juggernaut. It is like I am watching seventy years of humanity's evolution towards its grand finale minus the pop corn.Is this yet another indication of the process of one's aging? Is this truly the manifestation of my own making if I were to understand the workings of the human mind, mine at least. If I were to accept with right understanding the teachings of Non-Duality of the Advaitam school like that of Sri Ramana Maharshi and Papaji, of Swami Vivekananda and that of Swami Yogananda, then I am doing a very poor job indeed; there is just too much suffering all around me. Closer to home, yesterday Yoda my kitten was found dead twelve floors down the building and I watched my daughter's tears popping out of her eyes as she sat on the sofa clutching a pillow, I have grown attached to this kitten like she was a a part of the family but I reminded myself of letting go, or having to let go.
"Us, us, us...and them, them them..Black, black, black and Blue, blue blue blur...who knows who is who is who...Down down down and out...it cant't be helped that there's allot to hate about, with with and without, it can't be denied what the fighting is all about..." from the Dark side of the Moon- Pink Floyd. Wanton inhumane if not brutal acts of aggression is spreading like the Coronavirus as India and Grmany sees violence towards the generally Muslim population on the rise. The death toll in Syria and Yemen has become a normalcy in hearts and minds of the global mass we call humanity and what the Jews are doing to the Palestinians is tantamount a barbaric genocide of the specie, need I feed my consciousness with more? Om Shanti, shanti, Om Peace, peace, Shalom, Peace, Asalammualaikum. Peace be with you, we greet one another in our own ways as our faith religions dictates, imagine if we have no religion to remind us this and that we are all brothers and sisters on this planet...is this my own mental projections? Am i responsible for all these suffering the result of my own Greed, Hate and Delusions that I know not of? Are these the manifestations of my own subconscious like some would say? Perhaps collectively it is, it is the collective human consciousness- unconscious that we all are a part and parcel to.
We may not be able to change the world but we can change ourselves as J.Krishnamurti expounded. How do we do this when the vast percentage of humanity lives in absolute blindness and total ignorance? We have gone beyond the principle of survival of the fittest and are in the grips of killing for killing's sake- a life for every bullet we manufacture. How do I remove these thoughts of doom and gloom from my conscious mind? I fear not only for myself but for my children and theirs as the future looks bleak and foreboding. China is said to have landed an unmanned craft on the dark side of the moon and it is considered a triumph for mankind as it is the first of its kind. How can I feel triumphant when China arrests and torture Muslims in their so called re-educational camps of the ethnic minority Muslims just as they did to Tibet? Is there anything that is left in my subconscious that is not as destructive in nature that I can project into this my self created delusion I call my life? Is this why the Hindu sages encourage renunciation or letting go. Detachment from this realm of Maya or illusion. Am I living in an illusion of my own making...where is God in all this?
"And if the dam breaks loose too soon and if there no room up on the hilll... there's someone in my head and it's not me...and if the band you're in plays a different tune, I'll see on the Dark side of the Moon" Pink.
#The Dark Side of the Moon,#Pink Floyd,
I feel like I am watching an epic movie of my own making that is slowly rolling down to a grinding halt, like the Juggernaut. It is like I am watching seventy years of humanity's evolution towards its grand finale minus the pop corn.Is this yet another indication of the process of one's aging? Is this truly the manifestation of my own making if I were to understand the workings of the human mind, mine at least. If I were to accept with right understanding the teachings of Non-Duality of the Advaitam school like that of Sri Ramana Maharshi and Papaji, of Swami Vivekananda and that of Swami Yogananda, then I am doing a very poor job indeed; there is just too much suffering all around me. Closer to home, yesterday Yoda my kitten was found dead twelve floors down the building and I watched my daughter's tears popping out of her eyes as she sat on the sofa clutching a pillow, I have grown attached to this kitten like she was a a part of the family but I reminded myself of letting go, or having to let go.
"Us, us, us...and them, them them..Black, black, black and Blue, blue blue blur...who knows who is who is who...Down down down and out...it cant't be helped that there's allot to hate about, with with and without, it can't be denied what the fighting is all about..." from the Dark side of the Moon- Pink Floyd. Wanton inhumane if not brutal acts of aggression is spreading like the Coronavirus as India and Grmany sees violence towards the generally Muslim population on the rise. The death toll in Syria and Yemen has become a normalcy in hearts and minds of the global mass we call humanity and what the Jews are doing to the Palestinians is tantamount a barbaric genocide of the specie, need I feed my consciousness with more? Om Shanti, shanti, Om Peace, peace, Shalom, Peace, Asalammualaikum. Peace be with you, we greet one another in our own ways as our faith religions dictates, imagine if we have no religion to remind us this and that we are all brothers and sisters on this planet...is this my own mental projections? Am i responsible for all these suffering the result of my own Greed, Hate and Delusions that I know not of? Are these the manifestations of my own subconscious like some would say? Perhaps collectively it is, it is the collective human consciousness- unconscious that we all are a part and parcel to.
We may not be able to change the world but we can change ourselves as J.Krishnamurti expounded. How do we do this when the vast percentage of humanity lives in absolute blindness and total ignorance? We have gone beyond the principle of survival of the fittest and are in the grips of killing for killing's sake- a life for every bullet we manufacture. How do I remove these thoughts of doom and gloom from my conscious mind? I fear not only for myself but for my children and theirs as the future looks bleak and foreboding. China is said to have landed an unmanned craft on the dark side of the moon and it is considered a triumph for mankind as it is the first of its kind. How can I feel triumphant when China arrests and torture Muslims in their so called re-educational camps of the ethnic minority Muslims just as they did to Tibet? Is there anything that is left in my subconscious that is not as destructive in nature that I can project into this my self created delusion I call my life? Is this why the Hindu sages encourage renunciation or letting go. Detachment from this realm of Maya or illusion. Am I living in an illusion of my own making...where is God in all this?
"And if the dam breaks loose too soon and if there no room up on the hilll... there's someone in my head and it's not me...and if the band you're in plays a different tune, I'll see on the Dark side of the Moon" Pink.
#The Dark Side of the Moon,#Pink Floyd,
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