Thursday, December 01, 2016

The 'Unity of One'

In the Heart Sutra of the Buddha, the Maha prjna paramita Hridaya Sutra, the Buddha expounded the whole state of our human existence as being empty. Form is emptiness and emptiness is form and that which is form, is emptiness and that which is emptiness, is form and the same is true of feelings, impulses, consciousness and so forth...all the five skandas, (senses) are empty of their own being...no eyes no nose no ears and so on. Science today has proven the same truth in the fact that all matter is made up of atoms and molecules held together according to their rate of vibrations and the influences of gravity around it. 
"This is a state of bringing oneself to nothingness, of disappearing in the Essence of Allah. It is to empty one's being of everything which is for one's being and to empty one's heart of everything but His Love. Then theat heart becomes worthy to receive the promise of Allah, "I do not fit intoMy heavens nor my earths, but i fit into the heart of my faithful servant.'" from The Secret of Screts by Sheikh Qadir Al-Jilani.
In Islam to bring one's self in a state of emptiness is called 'Fana' the annihilation of one's state of being-ness, the removal of the ego from one's being at a lower level and to attain to self annihilation at the highest level and thus become one with the ONE. Tor return to the source what belongs to the source all has cease to exist as forms or emptiness, matter or antimatter. As the collision of matter and antimatter results in a tremendous expulsion or force or energy, so does the final attainment to Fana' releases the Divine light within, the Light that returns to its original nature of being One with the Divine.
"When all ego and its wishes,when all personal will is left behind through the blessing of HAQQ, the Truth, and when they submit their wills to the will of Allah and are pleased with all that comes from Allah, their color turns to white light... but the ones who the limits of this path has neither form nor shape nor color. He becomes as fi a ray of sunshine.The sunshine is colorless... the dervish who has reached the highest level has no being to reflect light or color. If anything, his color would be black, which absorbs all light. This is the sign of the state of annihilation." ...Describing the final stages of attainment in Sufism. 
What happened to the historical Buddha or Gautama after he attained 'Pari Nirvana' or the final stage of enlightenment? Did he simply vanish from existence into emptiness or void? When asked of God and the afterlife, the Buddha was said to have merely smiled the 'half smile', of which it was interpreted as giving no answer in the most polite way of understanding the Truth. The Buddha's teachings were for this worldly life based on His first declare that 'Life is Suffering' of the the Four Noble Truth. He did not declare the Gods or God created life as suffering, but simply being born as a human is the cause for suffering. For so long as there is an"I' in our consciousness, we will suffer. In another saying He was said to have uttered. " Suffering Is, None who suffers!, and Nirvana Is, and none who attains it." The Way of the Buddha as i understand it to be does not negats God nor does he affirm the existence of one. "God has no problem, it is human who has the problem of being born in this world." The Buddha was born in a society where there existed thousands of Gods and Goddesses as practiced in Hinduism and He set out to find the Truth about human existence and overcome the bonds of suffering that we are dealt with in this life.
Islam as the final of the the major religions of humanity, through the revelations of the Quran and the teachings of the last Prophet to walk the earth, caps up all our faith and belief systems Uniting together all the faith and teachings throughout human history into One. 
"The beloved Messenger of Allah is the light of the Truth, for Allah says, We sent thee not but as a mercy to the whole creation..."
(Sura Anbia,107)





Wednesday, November 30, 2016

Lessons from the Bamboo Hut.

Throughout my nights of Virgil,(actually hard to sleep), I sat and meditate in my bamboo hut and contemplated upon my past and present status of being who i am. The bamboo floor makes it most uncomfortable to sleep and this actually forced me to stay awake despite my being so tired and worn out from the physical labor that i did during the day time clearing the whole area of the organic farm. The words of The sheikh, Qadir Al-Jilani came to mind as i sat there tossing and turning in my mind, "Secluson and solitude should be viewed as states of both exterior and interior withdrawal. The exterior state of seclusion is when a man decide to withdraw himself from the world, imprisoning himself in a space away from other people, so that people in the world are saved from his undesirable character and existence. he also hopes that in so doing the source of his undesirable existence, his ego and the base desire of his flesh , will be separated from their daily nourishment and the satisfaction of things they are used to. Further he hopes that this isolation will educate his ego and his appetites, permitting the development of his inner spiritual being." These words reminded me of why or what i was attempting to do being where i was. The prophet of Allah was quoted as saying," The faithful is he from whose hand and tongue the other faithful are safe."... FromThe Secret of Secrets, by Hadrat Sheikh Qadir Al-JIlani.
 I finally decided to pray the 'tahajub' or night prayer of two rakaats. After this i found my self in a state of bliss and quietude and my thoughts became more lucid and clear revealing some answers to my inquiries about myself. it came in the form of how Islam and Buddhism has so many connections when one connects the dotted lines. Most significant of all was the fact that in Islam one has to end in a state of emptiness of being in order to unite with Al-Hak, or the Owner, the One that all things return to.
In Buddhism the Buddha expounded the cessation of all, including the idea of having a 'self'. he was said to have uttered" I, Am No More." when He departed this life. The Buddha's teachings was for this Life and how to navigate oneself free from its bondage of ignorance to Liberation from its cycle of life and death. Islam is a religion of Unity of The One, none truly exist but Allah hence one has to become empty or nothing before one can become united with the Creator. 
To be contd;   

Tuesday, November 29, 2016

A rwetreat to where the Roosters still Crows at Dawn.

I am back at my retreat at SRI LOVELY, the organic farm for the last few days and have been working my body till I came down with a fever upon waking up this morning. Why I keep coming here and suffer all kinds of physical discomfort is beyond me, but suffice to say that it is much more pleasant to wake up to the call of the creatures of the forest than to the siren of an ambulance or the police making a delivery of the convicts like they always do. I sit a whole lot more here in the middle of the night listening to the frogs and the night birds calling out to whatever that they call out to. I am out in the boonies and it is a pleasant change that I much needed. The air is a whole lot more fresher in comparison to what I left behind and the water allot more natural as it comes right out of the ground except when it rains. The meals comes in from outside through the Captain's wife or brought in bought from local food stalls.
My job primarily is as the grounds keeper and what i do mostly is to chop down and clear all the overgrown weeds and is essence make the place more presentable. Hard sweaty work and my body is being put through the grind and what with sleeping on bamboo floor with a just a thin layer of futon cover for bedding. My physical form went through a tremendous screaming aching pain every time i wake up in the morning or the middle of the night. I sit, and i meditate on my aches and pains until i was able to or forced to lay down due to lower back pain from sitting too long and my mind went for a spin with question and answers wondering what in heaven's name was i doing there in the first place. Sitting in the semi darkness of the hut i contemplate my status in life, i was accompanied by "The Secret of Secrets," a book on the works by the Greatest Sufi mystique of all times, The sheikh, Hadrat Abdul Qadir Al Jilani, ( May Allah Sanctify his secret.)
Ever since I was introduced to His works by my teacher and friend, the late Yusof Ali, I have been brought closer to Islam in its deeper meanings beyond just rituals and blind faith. I do not intend to spend too much time relating his life story here although it makes for one very interesting reading for those interested in Islamic mysticism or Sufism. There is a a great many selection of writers and commentaries on his works on the Internet and it will be an enlightening experience no doubt for those who are seeking the truth in themselves or in their belief and faith. For those who are seeking to understand Islam itself better, the works of Sheikh Qadir Jilani will lift up some veils about the religion that is not found elsewhere and perhaps will shed a new light on the meaning of the word Unity in the religious context of World Religions.  



" When the light from Allah(Who) is the light of the heavens and the earth...begins to shine upon the regions of your heart. the lamp of the heart will be lit...."

I am woken up by the crowing of roosters that were perched on the branches of the trees all over the compound starting with one and answered by the rest announcing the arrival of another new day. This I have heard very rarely if ever living in the city like Georgetown where i would be woken up by the sound of traffic and people preparing food for the restaurant below my window at Sungai Pinang. Not a thing wrong with waking up to the sound of sirens and honking of cars and motorcycles, but waking up to the sounds of roosters and birds seems much more healthier.












Monday, November 07, 2016

Time to take a break.

The subject of human consciousness is now an ever growing subject across the globe and in all walks of life at the very least among those who can excess the Internet and capable of putting together their own thought process. I find it for myself over the years that most of what i thought were just my own fumbling around about this issues that I had over simplified; just abstractions. Today as i view and listen to various thoughts and ideas made available by the Internet via You Tube and so forth, i find the i was not that far off the target and these thoughts and ideas albeit spiritual or scientific echos my very own thoughts and feelings all along, so much so that i feel like i am echoing them. I am glad that this Blog has such a long span of life, more than 10 years of my life since i first began to lay my thoughts down in writing as it proves to me that i was already on the path towards digging for truth before You Tube has been inundated by these very same issues.
I am glad that i had stumbled upon the thoughts and ideas of the likes of Alan Watts and J.Krishnamurti way back since the late 1970s and that i had kept up to date with my own personal life as i get older now reflecting more and more upon what is the nature of Truth. Today with the touch of my finger tip i can excess all that i wish to understand of Einstein's theories of Bohm's, listen to Sad Guru Jagi Dev or Mooji, it is all out there put in myriads of ways. I am very fortunate to have come such a long way in living my life as Mahatma Gandhi had suggested; a life is lived like an experiment. I have put myself through the test tubes and Bunsen burners and i have tasted all that life had to offer from the most expensive restaurants to being a homeless, a good Samaritan to being a charlatan, a charitable person to being a thief; in short i have committed the worse and the best all along and these are my grist for the mill. my motive has always been to discover who I am and what is it all about, this existence and how i fit in with the scheme of things with the whole Universe. 
What I had started off a a form of sharing with my loved ones, my children and theirs has now become an almost worldwide reading for those who have the time and interest. I am still on the road to find out and far from reaching my final destination, perhaps i never will, suffice to say that I have learned a great deal by exposing myself and how i can easily be looked upon as a copy cat or having plagiarized thoughts and ideas from others via the Internet and so forth. Yes i have and no i have not, nothing i can think of is of my own, nor is there anything that i have written comes from what is out there or written by someone else, even as i am typing out these words like i am right now, there is now references in front of me and I can keep on writing for as long as i want to till they closes the office of the Internet shuts down. Yes i wish I had been writing some fantasy novel instead and make myself a fortune. But it was not my intention, i started this process in order that i may learn to heal my splintered soul; know who i truly am. The thought and ideas plagiarized or otherwise are all there buried in my mind just like files to be excess to at my will. I find the only problem I have in writing is to write or not to, is it worth my time anymore sitting here and letting my mind run itself through my fingertips.
Perhaps it is time to wind down and put it all to rest as i have said more than care to of my search for answers; there is no more to share except the final cut when it comes. Hence i will retreat from making any more entries until there is something worth to write about comes along. Time to move no and explore new horizons or different dimensions of my existence. It has been a great experience in sharing with all those who have been reading my blog thus far and I feel honored that you have cared to take the trouble to and i hope it has been helpful in some small ways for you and your search. My love goes out to all of you till then.

Wednesday, November 02, 2016

Tabula Rasa...

Talk is cheap, bu to put all that I have learned and understood is a whole different game altogether. Hurdles upon hurdles lay in my path especially those that were from the past. Funny how the wrongs that I committed stands out like sore thumbs and comes to surface so readily at the slightest trigger by an image or a thought. We all carry our own crosses whether we believe in crucifixes or not, or better yet we all carry our own baggage on our backs till we bend over in our old age. So how do we unload these burden that has been clinging on to us from the moment of their inception into our consciousness. What is even more tragic is that we carry the burden of others often against our very own will out of love, out of compassion which is not too bad in itself, but out of guilt? How do we liberate our consciousness from these loads of karmic crap?
How do we live day to day moment to moment with a 'tabula rasa' or a clean slate?
ta·bu·la ra·sa
ˈtäbyo͝olə ˈräsə,ˈräzə/
noun
  1. an absence of preconceived ideas or predetermined goals; a clean slate.
    "the team did not have complete freedom and a tabula rasa from which to work"
    • the human mind, especially at birth, viewed as having no innate ideas.

How do we free our mind from being embroiled with past experiences or how do we remain like an empty sky instead of littered with drifting clouds, how do we remain calm as the ocean instead of being thrashed about by waves. In short how do we remain in the here and now, in some form of meditative state that is free from intrusions by external vexations. The simplest response that comes to my mind is to breath and be aware of every single breath that I take, breathing in and breathing out. When asked most individuals would admit that in the course of a day most are not aware that they are breathing; the most crucial activity in our lives we take for granted. The breath is our connection to or the bridge between our consciousness and the rest of the Universe of not our fellow sentient beings.
I have made it an effort to keep in touch with my breathing as much as I possibly can throughout my day and especially when i have an issue to deal with. Most often than not i have come to notice that whenever i take a deep breath while in a state of agitation or confusion my mind will switch from chaotic state to a more calm state of clarity. I call this a step back or a retreat from what is before me. This inadvertently leads on to the practice of patience which often gives one a second look at what is truly present. A clouded mind is the result of not breathing properly which in simple term means there is too much carbon dioxide and less oxygen in your body. Proper breathing also allows for the body to gain proper alignment like sitting up straight instead of slouching, gaining proper weight distribution which makes the body weightless with no pressure being imposed upon one part to compensate for another. The human form is so perfectly constructed that if and when properly utilized it becomes light; the lightness of being.
Pranayama Yoga or the Yoga of breath management is one form of practice that can help to ensure that out breathing process becomes a healing process to the body, mind and spirit. It is the very key to our existence. We function a whole lot better when our breath is in rhythm with that of the Universe and the rest of humanity. It helps to remind us that we breath the same air as much as we drink the same water and feel the heat of the same sun upon our bodies as we consume the same food produced from the very same earth that we live on; in essence we are One.
When all our minds are centered upon this single realization, we can heal the world, we can change the chaotic confusion into an ordered more productive and creative existence. Breathing in unison helps for us to remain focused into the here and now, however it will take conscious practice and awareness for this to happen and as more of us becomes aware the stronger our bonds would be in our effort to heal this troubled Planet. When the individual mental thought processes are being dropped off, the Mind that is present is united with the Whole and become and instrument of Collective Consciousness capable of making great changes in our lives. We were not born politicians, soldiers, scientists and so forth; we were born with a clean slate. We become what we are today through a long process of conditioning, but we can act as born again beings with no preconditions if we only learn to awaken to this reality; this is a part of Liberation of being Free. Only with this state of consciousness can we act Collectively.


   

Take care of number one.

The Buddha expounded some two thousand five hundred years ago the importance of being born in this life as a human being, for it is in this form of existence that sentient beings have the greater opportunity to be liberated from this circle of life, death and rebirth, "So in this human form do not waste time." These may not be his exact words but safe to say that this was what he meant. Human beings however are today blind to this warning and most live in the so called pursuit of happiness in the material realm of existence thus neglecting the quest for truth and reality as it truly is. Most of us become so entrapped in our quest for wealth and fame and a other forms of creature comforts that we mostly live like the three blind mice. We become so engrossed in our belief that our existence is purely survival of the fittest that we fail to feel the sorrows of those who are not as fortunate, the downtrodden and the destitute. We are so jaded in our ways that we ignore what happens to the environment around us; yes are led by Greed , Hate and Delusions like cattle to the slaughter house.
Liberation does not happen just because we die or cease to exist, liberation is a lifetime process of awakening moment to moment from the deep sleep that most of us are presently encountering. We are most of us in deep slumber and every now and then we awaken when something out of the ordinary hits us in the head for better or worse. A natural disaster, an economic melt down, a death in the family and so forth, then we are rudely awakened to have a glimpse of reality and realize how fragile we all are. Till this moment in time , while everything is moving along as we pretty much expected, there is food on the table, roof on top of our head and a steady income, we are a satisfied lot. Life boils down to the fulfillment of these simple needs, however there are many who are never satisfied with what is enough and crave for more believing that it is their birthright. When enough is never enough, this is when the trouble with humanity begins and it start with each and everyone of us. We are each and everyone of us a member of humanity and we are personally responsible for the making or breaking up of this world of ours. 
Hence when each and everyone of us make it an effort and practice to discover what is the truth for ourselves,all the unanswered questions that has been plaguing us throughout our lives then we will inevitably help to heal the planet and humanity itself. Then we are broken free from the conditioning that the powers that be has imposed upon us, the conditioning that has led us to become like cattle headed for the slaughter house. This is simply because knowing the truth for yourself  shatters all the delusions that has been created around you and in doing so you will view the plight of mankind and the Planet itself as needing the same kind of regenerating form of healing; a revival of the Human Spirit.. "And the Truth shall set you Free!" And the truth is not out there, it resides within and it is for you to awaken to its presence and manifest it in the lives of others as a collective healing process. 
This life of ours does not belong to you and i alone, it belongs to Humanity, to the Universe, it is answerable to the One and the One only by whatever name you may call  It or Him or Her. It is only by the presence of a higher power that that our collective ego will know restrain, until we have come to be able to act or manifest without a hint of our personal ego being involved, we will serve the highest order and heaven and hell becomes reward and punishment, fear and comfort becomes our daily choices. To know who we are is to be free of our egotistical tendencies, our claim of a birthright over others, our lordship in the scheme of things. This is why the Buddha also expounded that in the end there is really no 'Self', When there is no self, there is none to suffer. For so long as there is a you and an i, we will exist like in a dream, or unconsciousness, we become victims of our own ignorance. We become insensitive to the ties we have with the rest of the Universe and we live to merely take care of who we think we are; taking care of number one. 

Tuesday, November 01, 2016

Another Death in the family.

One of my cousin's wife passed away yesterday or brain hemorrhage and I went to Sitiawan, a small town on the west coast al area of the State of Perak where they were living. She was according to the note by her bad 61 years of age or 6 years younger than I am and it made me reflect about my status having lived for the past 67 years, what is it all about? My cousin her husband was devastated by the loss and when i first sat beside him on the floor where he was moaning about being lonely without her and so forth, i told of how i felt having lost my wife and not being able to be by her side when it happened and how I have for the past few years been living and accepting the loss hoping that it help him to feel not so alone. I reminded him of his children and grandchildren who will need him for so long and he is alive, telling him more or less to accept and move on. He is "The Pilot of Lumut" an entry I made in my blog a year or two ago when i followed him on board a Russian vessel "The Eagle", which he piloted out of the Lumut Harbor. 
Witnessing the process of death and dying has always moved me at my deeper levels and still having unanswered questions about who i am or where i am  at this moment in time, my belief, my faith and most of all my understanding about life itself. As i listened to the sermon read by the grave reminding the deceased of what lies ahead no that she is laid in the grave and giving her instructions on how to face the two angels who will question her as soon as everyone has left the cemetery and so forth, I asked myself the same questions. If one needs a miracle in life this is the moment  when one needs it most. If there is any mystery about death and what happens after this is the moment when truth can never be known except by those who have died. Here logic comes into confrontation with faith, fear and confusion is overcome by one's complete surrender to Allah's Will, if one is a True Muslim. My cousin's wife died while still coma or under sedation and thus by all counts she died unconsciously or did she?
Most religions have some form of guidance as to how to face the after death moments or while in transition in the grave from one state into another and Islam has a very thorough revelation on this matter. The Quran and the teachings of the Prophet of Allah has included this instructions for all Muslims. The Tibetan Book of the Dead and the Egyptian Book of the Dead provides similar instructions for their departed souls. For those who holds no belief whatsoever like the Atheist, this would not be problem as for them death is just another passing phase in life. For those who practice the belief in Incarnation or life after life evolution the matter is different from those who accept the reality of Heaven and Hell. The question is still unanswered for most of us especially now that  scientific studies are making discoveries that adds to more questions unanswered.
Whatever the case may be, death is still a dark mystery to most and likewise most of us lives in denial that death will one day put all the questions before us and it is a matter of time. The acknowledgment of the inevitability of death for me is a reality check that makes me feel like i am not altogether in charge of my own existence. That i am here on loan, to serve my time as best i can and be of service to all sentient beings around me, help to ease the burden of others and not add on to the misery that comes with ignorance. As nothing is permanent in this life, death reminds me not to be greedy or cling on to what i have, death reminds me of my own fragility and helplessness. It helps to keep my arrogance and heedlessness in check, it reminds me the true meaning of the idiom... and this too will pass.

Thursday, October 27, 2016

My first Awakening Moment.

To un-educate myself from all forms of former education in this life is primarily what I have been doing as one who is looking for answers in life albeit, spiritual or material/physical realm. What i have been educated with from my early year in school and at home has been mostly a very restrictive and conditioning form of mind controlling such that i was mostly afraid to confront my fears and doubts. I was mostly loaded with information that made me subservient to my so called superiors, to follow orders and not free to transcend beyond the norm. It was like living in the matrix or someone else's making and i had very little to say for myself; either follow of be punished. I chose to break away from this norm at a very early years of my young adult life by leaving my restricted environment and headed for the United States. In the US after having gone through my initial trials and tribulations, i broke free from yet another form of conscription, that of being a family man when I was hardly ready to bear the role especially in a country where i had to battle for my own identity as a colored foreigner in a 'Red neck' neighborhood.
After working for three and half years in the meat packing plants of Wisconsin, I told myself that enough was enough and I was not cut to become like the cattle that i was butchering day in day out in the cold Wisconsin winters. It was by divine miracle that i was offered to study at the University of Wisconsin in Green Bay where i spent five years of my life self discovering. it was the best or the worse times of my life but I learned what it takes to survive on my own in someone else's backyard. I learned what my mind was capable of when allowed free reign and how it can not only get myself to where i wanted to be but also put me where i should not have been in terms of relationships and self preservation. I not only survived the cold Wisconsin weather but i also freed myself from self bondage. it was in green bay that i truly had my first epiphany, my awakening to who i I am.
I remember sitting in front of the television one afternoon watching Giligan's Island sometime in 1973 and it was fall with the trees leafless and the skies grey outside the bay window of my mother in law's house. I was clad in my 'sarong' and a white T-Shirt because it was very warm in the house thanks to my thoughtful mother in law who turned the heat on high so his Malaysian son in law would not freeze his buns. My wife and son and i had just arrived from Malaysia after a very long and tedious flight and were quarantined for being infected by shillelagh worm on the flight , so said the doctors. No one leaves the house including my sister in law until we were all cleared of the infection. It was like being trapped in a cabin and for me it was the worse agony as my four month old son was constantly in pain and screaming. I had my emotional breakdown which almost cost my son's life and mine at one point, as things got worse.
As i sat there in front of the TV I looked from the corner of my eyes out of the window and noticed that large cotton balls were floating down from the silent grey sky and the contrast was so drastic that i felt the world around had gone silent including the TV that was a few feet away from me. I was stunned by the phenomena and rose form my seat and dashed out of the house through the backdoor and as i passed the kitchen i could barely hear my wife screaming after me something and wham! i was outside. I was on the lawn and with my arms out stretched and my head looking up and tongue sticking out; I was trying to catch the snow flakes in my mouth; my first snow. I came to when i heard my mother in law screaming at me to get my butt inside before i freeze them. Then I realized how ridiculous i must have looked twirling like a dervish out there in the cold winter day in my 'skirt' or sarong and T'shirt with nothing else on. My feet were the first to send the message to my brain to get out of the cold and I dashed back into the house and as i was climbing the small steps into the kitchen a voice in my head started talking to me in Bahasa Malaysia or Malay. "You are now in a foreign land where no one really knows you and you hardly know anyone. You have the choice to become who you wish to be, a coward or a hero, a shy and frightened soul or one who is free from fears and doubts and no one can tell the difference; your choice now! "tepok dada, tanya selera", beat your chest (like the gorillas do) and go for the gusto! I did.
This was how my life began in the United States where i lived my life for 21 years and this was my first awakening experience that had carried me through thick and thin; the rest was history. A very close friend once said to me, "Sam, you are more of an American than an American!" I spent eight years in Wisconsin, two years in the Bering Sea off Alaska, a year in the Washington State area and and ten years in the San Francisco Bay Area. I lived life i can safely say, to the fullest, from being a decadent college student to a yard superintendent in a major ship and environmental company in the SF Bay Area. From living in the home of a millionaire employer and celebrating my 40th. birthday at the Fairmont Hotel in downtown SF to becoming a homeless on Haight and Ashbury. I was married twice to two Americans and had a child that i did know of by a Swiss. I almost committed myself to becoming a Zen monk and an alcoholic with a drug addiction problem; it was the best and the worse of times since i 'beat my chest and screamed within me that I can do what I will to do! one cold winter day in Green Bay Wisconsin.  

Monday, October 24, 2016

Mind Watching - 1

Mind watching is an Art and it takes a whole lot of practice to achieve some form understanding s to what it entails and how it benefits one. Most modern and ancient philosophers and teachings have been expounding and insisting that we watch our mind and understand how it works so that we can better manage our lives with better and not get trapped by the veils of ignorance that the mind has the tendency to lead us into every so often. It has taken me almost a life time to come to a point where i can see and feel how my mind works in deviating from any 'good' intentions i try to manifest, or come to any form of single pointed attention in my sense perception. The mind is like a carriage with four wild horses pulling it in four different directions and the charioteer has to be able to bring these beasts into acting in synchronicity in order to make any headway on the road. First one has to recognize who is the charioteer, who holds the rein and crack the whip.
A good charioteer will know his animals very well by the time he has them hitched to the chariot, he got to know his animals right from their very young age; from colts till they become stallions. He raised and trained them to obey his commands without any hesitation while on the road, they are his children so to speak. Horses are temperamental animals and have their own minds about who they are who they obey. There are horses that moves instantly at the click of the rider's tongue and there are those that moves at the sight of the whip and then there are those that moves after feeling the crack of the whip on its flank and worse of all there are those that refuses to move even when beaten to death. Hence to know your horses well helps a great deal in making for a smooth ride. 
To understand the mind is like training the four horses to act as one and when this happens the mind becomes more single pointed and has greater ability to perform and action spontaneously. However the mind is a whole lot elusive as it has more than just four horses with four different temperaments.Hence it takes a whole lot more to understand how the mind functions and how to put it to better use. The mind can work for us or it can be our biggest obstruction in not understood. To recognize the fact that I am not the body, nor am I the mind is one of the keys towards working with the mind. I do not need to go any deeper into this profess that i have made to myself a long time ago although I had to struggle in understanding its significance in the beginning, but over the years i learned the truth of the matter. I am not saying that i have mastered or understood my mind fully today, bu suffice to say i can spot myself getting wrapped up in my thoughts more often than before. One of the causes of this is the distraction I allow myself from various forms of external stimuli. Some i got so attached to that i have a very hard time to detach from them and they intrude upon my inner workings and these are the stubborn horses that needs more than just the flick of the whip to get them to disappear and allow my mind mind the freedom to act with better clarity.
Fear and anxiety is a major cause for the mind to become distracted from its course and pleasure too can be a source of distraction when over indulged. In the practice of Satipatthana;
Satipaṭṭhāna is the establishment or arousing of mindfulness, as part of the Buddhist practices leading to detachment and liberation.
Traditionally, mindfulness is thought to be applied to four domains, "constantly watching sensory experience in order to prevent the arising of cravings which would power future experience into rebirths,"[1] namely mindfulness of the body, feelings/sensations, mind/consciousness, anddhammās.[2]
there is a practice called "bare Attention" whereby one simply observe without attachment to what one observes. To put simply, when you see a lady walking by do not add thoughts like she has nice piece of ass or nice this or that, (being a man that i am). One just notices a person passing by and is gone once she is out of sight. This practice in all its forms helps to decrease the activity of the mental state, like in judgement and making choices; I like what I am seeing or I don't. It is a good place to start making for less distractions and attachments.
It is in our human nature to collect knowledge from whatever sources that comes our way and of our interest. The mind has the capacity to accumulate information much greater than the computer is able to and its memory bank is limitless and to access the mind all one need to do is trigger a thought process, an idea or simply allow for it to materialize these information without your help as most of us are doing all through our lives. Thoughts arises like waves upon the ocean or clouds in the sky, they come and they go; you are the ocean and the sky; the observer. Science has proven that the observer has an effect upon what is observed and from this we get the insight that we the observer has the right over what we observe and can make or shape it as we wish. When the observer becomes fully present and aware of what is being observed there is no more observer and the observed; all barriers is removed and the they become one and the same. Creative people like musicians and artist become one with their creations, the instruments and tools merely transports this phenomena into manifestation. 
In watching the Mind and understanding its functions and capabilities one can transcend all limitations the has been preconditioned into our lives from childhood till today; step back and observe. Drop all inhibitions and conditions and attachment or detachment and become one with the impeccable tool that we are endowed with; the Human Mind, HUMIND.

Thursday, October 20, 2016

Moaning and Groaning is part and parcel of life.

I need R300 to get my car paper works taken care of and till now am still wondering where it is going to fall from. I need money to fix my decaying teeth four or five needs to be removed as they are causing so much pain just about every day and night and I need money to get my eye sights fixed as i am beginning to see more haze even when it is raining and no haze is being reported in the area. I need money to buy some new art materials as i am scouring the last bit from my tubes of paint and no new canvases to work from. Last but not least i need money to pay for my loan of R5700 or be crucified in court financially and that is not taking into consideration of my daily subsistence. Yes I need, I need I need!
However, thank the good Lord for small favors in the form of relatives and friends who has made it possible form me to not just call it quit and hang myself. Such is suffering like it or not, just got to get it out and over with, so there is less pressure building up in the cooker which incidentally has been the cause of my
incessant migraine headache of late. I had not been writing much lately simply because... what is there to write about that would make reading a more pleasant and uplifting experience for others. Sharing one's dirty linen in public is frown upon by most, but I am sharing it anyway because not to is more destructive as it is my way of letting off the steam or trying to make sense of my life, my thoughts and my feelings and my Blog was started off with this intention in mind; it was not meant to entertain the general public. I chose to write my life out so that it can be sorted out through self discovery where errors made are mended and mistakes are learned from and changes made. It was not intended to have a following of readers but like everything that is kept on going for a long time, it is bound to grow and collect followers.
Hence this Blog has evolved into an open diary that hopefully will be of help to some who has taken their time to peruse and reflect upon what it has to offer in between the lines of hidden thoughts and ideas. For what it is worth this Blog has gathered a life of its own, for it keeps on demanding that i write like it or not; it has become another addiction. It is not as bad as it seems, truth be told and truth is the key to writing about my life as often, like it or not truth hurts worse than four rotten teeth, or loosing my sense of sight or the humiliation of having to beg for my daily bread. But, for as long as I am breathing and am able to get to this location to make my daily entry, I am not doing too bad as things could have been worse like trying to survive in Syria or forced to live the life of a refugee looking for shelter from the storm. 
Thus I am grateful for what i have or lack thereof as my life is still a breeze compared to most and i am blessed with a beautiful and loving daughter who despite her own trials and tribulations is always there with a smile on her face whenever she sees me. I am glad that through all these she has grown into a strong and willful individual; another survivor. My three sons, well there is not much that can be said as each and everyone of them has their own life to traverse and it is doubtful that I am of any major concern in their itinerary at present. If one believe in Karma than Karma it is that I am being punished for, my past lack or reverence towards the family life and filial piety, but it is not worth regretting of water under the bridge as it cannot be made to reverse its course any more than one can undo what has been. So as i have often reiterated in the past, it is a matter of how do i turn shit into compost and grown new crops that can be of benefit to others yet to come; so making sense out of non-sense is perhaps my way of atoning for my sins. The physical and mental anguish over lack of funds and so forth are just manifestations of my inner state of being in this body and still breathing. 
I feel Lighter already! Time to be creative, Time to paint.        

Thursday, October 13, 2016

The time To Wake Up is Now.

Perhaps it is just another passing phase in the history of the Planet, but the Third World War is looming in the horizon as a whole lot of saber rattling is going on between the Western Bloc and the rest of the world with the United States taking on the leading role as the instigator. Most of the lay people of the world are living oblivious to this impending major upheaval about to be unleashed by the powers that be. There is off course not very much that we the common folks can do about what is about to happen that will change our very lives for good if we survive the holocaust of a Nuclear War. The fingers triggering the buttons to let loose the many nuclear war heads upon the impending targets are itching to test their power at who can draw faster like in the good old cowboy movies. Who has got the guts to make the first move or who can stare down the enemy through shear guts like little boys in the playground.
Why should it concern me? I am old and am approaching the end of my days sooner than most, so why should i be concern what is going to happen to this planet in the near future. I have experienced the best and the worse that this life has to offer and then some; what is there to worry or regret about? But i do, i am concerned for the well being of my children and theirs when the time comes. I am concerned for those innocent would be victims that would have to endure untold misery on account of a few pig headed war mongers and self aggrandizing so called world leaders giving vent to their anger in ignorance. Most of humanity especially those who are living day to day eking a living and barely surviving do not know or much less care for what the so called super powers are up to in their war rooms, they are simply living like there is only one thing in mind and that is to seek food and shelter and hopefully some form of peace and comfort while at it. For those who are in the know, who make the effort to understand through whatever sources available, the picture is not good for humanity.
However all is not lost yet as there are counter measures that at at work in the form of peace loving movements spreading all over the world like the Human Rights foundation, the Isha Foundation, the many spiritual and religious bodies like the Buddhist schools and Christian and Muslim peace movements transcending all the greed and hatred that has been unleashed by those hunger for power and dominion over others. Humanity is resilient when its very survival is at stake and today with the spread of the information technology which allow for a better and more transparent exposure of what is happening, humanity will rise to put a stop to these war mongering entities once and for all; all good men will rise for the occasion. And for those who still live in denial and ignorance, the upheaval when it happens will be a wake up call that will shake their souls to the core; WW3 will make WW2 look like a child's play.
I hope and pray that it will blow away and the world will preserve itself from self destruction. I hope and pray that the blood thirsting madness will come to an end with not an incident and defy all the end of the world predictions and revelations even if the ball has be set rolling towards our demise. The All Mighty works in mysterious ways it is said by just every religious faith and i hope and pray that the Lord will intervene before it is too late. Working towards a peaceful coexistence is much cheaper than war and it can take humanity to a greater height and success if man can pull himself together and become what he is put on this planet for; to be the custodian of this earth. 
To understand humanity, one has to understand one's self and come to terms with what is inherently our inner nature for as being told by great minds in the past; we are the world. We, each and everyone of us are responsible for the well being of this planet the only one we have. If not our voices, let our hearts be aware of what is happening around us and meditate or pray even offer sacrifices that the Universal Spirit is awakened from our Collective Consciousness to overcome the impending disaster that we are all facing. Mankind has to become more consciously involved in the affairs of the state and the world and each and every being alive must look deep within to recognize and utilize the powers inherent within us in combating evil. We were created not to just populate this planet and live off it like parasites or worse like cancerous virus living off its host. We have to stop eating and shitting on the same plate; we are far greater than who we think we are, if only we take the time to look within and contemplate. We have to do this not for our sake alone but for all those who will come after us.
Wake Up; before you are rudely awaken.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016

The Refugee Woes in Europe

Europe is being inundated by refugees from all over the war torn nations of the Middle east and the poverty struck nations of Northern African countries. Again Islam is projected forward as the cause to all these instability going on in the European Union countries. Germany opened its doors to receive as many refugees as it could handle and several other nations followed but more reluctantly for fear of the repercussions of what will happen to their own security. The influx of refugees form the war torn countries in the Middle East carries with them Islam as a brand claiming their rights as Muslims and as refugees for a decent treatment from the host nations and the host nations are weary of the conflict that is being laid down at their door steps between their own citizens and the new comers. Ancient animosity and hatred flares up from fear and ignorance of what is being faced with by both sides. It is indeed a tragic state we are facing in the course of our human history. 
It all hinges upon the three illnesses that i have often enough cited in my Blog and that being, Greed-Hate and Ignorance. Man will never free himself from the chains of suffering for so long as he does not overcome these three illnesses that is inherent within himself, be it as an individual or as a nation.
Oil is the cause of most all the conflicts in the Middle eastern countries and this black gold is both a boon and a curse to the nations that inherit them. The need for oil especially in the west has caused for more torment in the lives of millions of innocent man women and child throughout history since its first discovery; it was a battle between those who have it and those who need it at all cost. The story of  oil and the development of industries and nations throughout the world is paved with so much waste in terms of wealth and decadence and it is also filled with so much bloodshed and misery, but man will live on in denial of any wrong doing for so long as there is fuel to move the vehicle and light up the cities. What is happening in the European Union today is the breaking of the dam of frustration and hopelessness among those who been living in the shadows of greed, hate and ignorance as manifested by those who are relentlessly pursuing the course of these three evils in order to line their pockets or position themselves to rule over others.
Power is the manifestation of hatred where armed forces are sent to every corner of the globe to subdue and demoralized all that stand between the power that be and what it is after and in this case;oil. All manner of pretexts and excuses are given or manufactured to convince the masses that the military actions taken were justifiable; the end justifies the means.  The means has now become a disease that is corrupting humanity with endless wars and displacement of societies and reduction of life to discord despair among those who has become collateral victims. Those driven homeless out of fear for their very survival seek refuge in the very countries that had in the past sought to subjugate their homeland for gain and profit. This is the result of colonization and the West is receiving what it had sown. having stirred the hornets' nest now the angry masses are seeking retribution or at least a place to create its new hive.
It is sad that Islam has again been caught into this turmoil due to its oil producing nations being the center of attention. It seems like Islam will never be free from being the accused for all the violence that is being manifested all over the world when in truth the West has all along took for granted the fact that the wealth of the Muslim nation as being made available for their consumption and it is their right to take it at all cost by hook or by crook. The west through their might and technological advancement has assumed that all will be well at the end of the day when every oil producing nation comes under their jurisdiction. What they have failed to foresee is the basic human factor that refuses to accept defeat and subjugation, the will to survive and the fear of their survival being in jeopardy. Muslims that flocked towards the west en mass are those who are instrumental in this retribution and they have brought the wars and the miseries with them a laid it at the Western doorsteps. They have taken refuge from the very torment that was caused by the countries they sought refuge from. In the words of an eight year old boy in Syria,"Just stop the war in Syria, we Syrians do not want tot go to Europe." 
Refugees are not migrants and they have special rights accorded to them by the United Nation Declaration for the Rights of Refugees in foreign countries. But refugees too have to observe the rights of their host nations, the respect and abiding by the laws of that nation and their citizens. Muslim refugees are being targeted by the Western media as causing so much discord and even violence and this is unacceptable by any standards. A true Muslim following the teachings of the Prophet of Islam would not behave unruly in their host country. They would behave like the prophet had dictated in the times of war, to not harm the innocent not even the trees and landscape. The true Muslim refugee would behave like a true Muslim and act with patience and dignity in the face of hardship. To share the teachings of the Prophet by action and not by invoking violence in the name of the religion. Those who take the opportunity to incite chaos and violence in these times of tribulation are not Muslims and do not deserve the same refuge accorded to those who follow the Way of the Prophet. Islam is and was never a violent religion; a great many deluded Muslims are.















Monday, October 10, 2016

Still trying to make sense out of Non sense.

I am addicted to the collecting of information in whatever form that it comes in and I will be spending the rest of my day analyzing or entertaining these collection like a drifter sifting through the garbage bins for tit bits of collectibles. Gossips, a passing comment, all manner of videos there are being uploaded into You Tube books, ant he list is endless, my mind is insatiable when it comes to filling itself up with what is out there. Conspiracy theories, the Roman Catholic Church and its woes, the mind and its extent of consciousness, movies, and last night it was all about the Anti Christ and all that is connected to this Biblical Prophecy. I cannot recount how many videos i watched all through the night trying to decipher the whole phenomena trying to make sense out of non-sense on the the subject of the Anti Christ and the End of Days. What else can one do when there is a long sleepless night ahead of you?
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning. 
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.

The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.   

By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world.  - Wikipedia.

And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In HinduismKalki (Devanagariकल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga. 

And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.

Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.Then again being an atheist all these means nothing to one and life is made simpler with less to worry about.



Still trying to make sense out of Non sense.

I am addicted to the collecting of information in whatever form that it comes in and I will be spending the rest of my day analyzing or entertaining these collection like a drifter sifting through the garbage bins for tit bits of collectibles. Gossips, a passing comment, all manner of videos there are being uploaded into You Tube books, ant he list is endless, my mind is insatiable when it comes to filling itself up with what is out there. Conspiracy theories, the Roman Catholic Church and its woes, the mind and its extent of consciousness, movies, and last night it was all about the Anti Christ and all that is connected to this Biblical Prophecy. I cannot recount how many videos i watched all through the night trying to decipher the whole phenomena trying to make sense out of non-sense on the the subject of the Anti Christ and the End of Days. What else can one do when there is a long sleepless night ahead of you?
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning. 
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.

The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.   

By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world.  - Wikipedia.

And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In HinduismKalki (Devanagariकल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga. 

And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.

Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.