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Standing Bare Before the Lord

A reflection on prayer, presence, and a moment I witnessed long ago

There are small habits we carry into our worship that become personal doorways into presence. For me, before I begin my prayer, I like to recite a soft, private azan — not the formal call of the muezzin, but a quiet whisper that centers my heart. It is my way of stepping out of the noise of the world and standing spiritually bare before my Lord.

This morning at Fajr I forgot to do it. Age, fatigue, and distractions sometimes cloud the edges of devotion. But when I stood to perform my Maghrib prayer, the azan rose from within me naturally, as though the heart remembered what the mind had overlooked. There is a simple truth in that: when the heart grows accustomed to remembrance, the remembrance begins to call you back by itself.

Prayer, at its deepest, is a kind of spiritual nakedness. Not of the body, but of the self stripped of its pretenses. Before Allah, there is no status, no rank, no title, no cleverness to hide behind. The prayer mat becomes a place where all illusions fall away. Standing, bowing, and prostrating become movements of honesty — a servant returning to the One who knows him better than he knows himself.

This understanding reminded me of an experience many years ago, during a Friday prayer at the military camp in Telaga Batin, near where I used to live in Terengganu. As always, I liked to sit close to the front, and that day I was in the second row. The Imam had begun his khutbah, and the mosque was quiet and attentive.

Then, out of the corner of my eye, I noticed a man in the first row sitting with his legs stretched out, bouncing them casually as though he were waiting for a bus. My heart reacted before my mind did. How does one sit so heedlessly before Allah? I thought. Such a gesture, small as it seemed, carried a shadow of arrogance — not before people, but before the One who needs no introduction.

I did not know who he was. Only later did I learn that he was the Defence Minister visiting the camp. And much later, by the unfolding of history, he became the most powerful man in the nation — only to fall spectacularly and end up imprisoned for corruption.

At that moment in the mosque, I had no desire to judge the man. Yet something in my heart whispered: These things catch up with a person. Not because of curses or human resentment, but because arrogance — especially in the presence of Allah — eventually collapses under its own weight. Whether in a palace or a prison, the consequences of heedlessness find their way home.

I share this story not as a political point, but as a spiritual reminder. How we carry ourselves before Allah reflects the condition of our inner world. Humility protects. Presence purifies. Pretension blinds. And the One who sees all hearts never fails to unveil what is hidden, whether in this life or the next.

Tonight, as I performed my Maghrib prayer with that soft personal azan returning to my lips, I felt again that sense of bareness — that nothing stands between a servant and his Lord except sincerity. When the heart bows, everything else falls into place.

May we always stand before Him with humility.
May our hearts remember even when our minds forget.
And may we never be among those who sit arrogantly in places meant for surrender.

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