In the Name of the Most Compassionate and Merciful

There is not God, only Allah.
Mohammad, (SAW) is His last Messenger.

This I profess to be true, my Dharma position on the matter of my Faith to my Lord.. I have surrendered my will to His Will at a very early age in my life; my childhood life was as painfully colorful with twist of fate happening every 12 years or so it seems. If my brother's religion is Christianity, then I am a Christian to him and if he be a Buddhist, then a Buddhist I am to him, a Hindu, a Sikh...a Bahai, if but for the Will of my Creator none of these would have happened.

Eckhart Tolle. author of the New Times Bestselling Author of, The Power of Now, is another one of my mentor like J.Krishnamurti and Alan Watts; I have never met the man but would be honored to.

"Blessed are the poor in spirit," Jesus said, "for theirs will be the kingdom of heaven" What does "poor in spirit mean? No inner baggage, no identification. Not with things, nor with any mental concepts that have a sense of self in them. And what is the "kingdom of Heaven?" The simple but profound joy of Being that is there when you let go of identifications and so become "poor in spirit."
                                                                                                               Eckhart Tolle, "A New Earth"

Why Islam?
I was born a Muslim from my mother's side, My grandfather Paul Mariano was a Singhalese and married my grandmother who was from Medan, Sumatra; he became a Muslim. So I am a Muslim by birth.
Why Islam?
I can safely claim to myself that I have entered Islam through the back door, the front door had closed at a very early age in my life; I declared war on my Lord! I allowed my ego to run free with creating discord within and without.; I was worse than an atheist for many years of my adult life for I challenged my Lord...I point my middle finger at Him in anger and despair many a painful nights only He knows.

"The Buddha's Way is unsurpassable, I vow to attain it"
                                                                              The Boddhisatva's vow
I found the method through Buddha's teachings to clear my veiled mind and find my Lord. I healed my wounded soul through learning to love myself and compassion for others. I also learnt that I am merely an instrument, a flute in the hands of Lord Krishna, a Hammer in the hands of Thor, the God of thunder! I am Hanuman,and I serve my Lord, Ram! I am in servitude to my Lord even as I wirte; there is no more me, but Him. To me His sacred name is ALLAH; I pray I die like Mahatma Ghandi, calling out RAM! RAM! and I call out Ya-ALLAH as my final breath on this planet..

Well,,. Islam? The Truth being the closer I have come to understand who I am the more I come to know that I am not - a - thing special, nothing special. I ramble on and on like a 'reluctant Messiah' or Messy - ya... wannabe! Why not? It is part and parcel of my healing process. A process of coming to grips with who I am and what makes me. Slef introspection is one means to keep a close tabe on how you check you status in life, you sense of consciousness, being in the here and now. To better understand why Islam I have to approach it most of my life as why not, Islam: the mind is not capable of reaching a perfect answer.
I am not great at quoting the Prophet from His hadith or written comments, but somewhere i heard that He had said, " to seek knowledge even if It takes you to China"; but to know Allah one has to die in spirit. Fana', void, emptiness, empty of any Being. I and my Lord is One. However for so long as I am breathing in and out, I can only keep reminding myself of who I am in relation to my Lord. The scriptures have given analogies and allegorical as to how and why, it is but for the faithful to read, IQRA! With Right Understanding and practice the healing remedies of our forefathers as we are marched into the uncertain futures.
Most today are more quick to pass judgement or choose to not make any effort in understanding religions accepting even as archaic and a thing of history. Religions are the secure walls that keeps the insane within for without these walls humanities tendencies to destroy one another like we do now would be rampant. Life would be cheap and no more sacred and humanity itself would live in utter darkness as the light of religions has eventually been allowed to extinguished. Man will succumb his darkest nature as his ego rules accordingly; sadly enough it is already manifesting itself all over the world.
Eckhart Tolle calls it our 'Pain body', that which is inherent in us, the need the desire the wanting, the craving for inflicting pain in and upon ourselves through our ignorance of our true nature in the community at large and much less the propagation or dissemination of such knowledge. It is a consciousness that must be awaken globally in unison' We are the World. You are the world, anyhting and everything that happens in the affects you and your future generations , good or bad. The sooner we come to this universal realization the better as time is catching up before we loose our God given chance. NOW!
Wake Up! Stay Awake!
I am reminding this to myself more than sharing any fancy thoughts with others so bear with me as i ramble on. Malaysia is at war! The country is being invaded! Many lives lost, both sides! Tragic! More problems! This country was last threatened to be invaded was during the early sixties when Indonesia decided to raise the odds against Malaysia; it was called Confrontation or Komfrontasi! Being a part of the Commonwealth the country was immediately provided security by the Australian and New Zealand Military defence. However I do not think the Sulu - Sabah incident will warrant such moves as Malaysian Arms Forces is fully capable.
As my country is drifting into political chaos and on the brink of a critical election; why Now? I cannot remain silent but let my thoughts and feelings be out;I need to correct myself if I am wrong as I write or put my thoughts on paper. Is it because of our vulnerable situation that you attack the sovereignty of my country. This is the age of Information Technology, not the time of Emiliano Zapata or Panco Villa! This the time of shrewed lawyers, the best money can buy and the use of the media. Any Sultan, Sulu or otherwise should know this. The right thing to do perhaps was to sue for Sabah and not shoot Sabah.
What is most sad about the whole incident is that this is yet another incident od Muslims pointing guns at each other. However the Muslim blood has been spilled by his fellow Muslim brother and it lies floating in the drain...Allahu Akhbar! The Lord is Great!
I urge my fellow countrymen we who call ourselves Malaysians to again step back and take this event as focus on how or where we stand in our patriotism and love of this nation. Look to blame within yourself  from what you are willing to take the time tot see through and fully comprehend what our nation as a whole needs for us to do no matter who we are, rich or poor , high or low. We need to wake up! Awaken! from our sleeping state of self induced pain or ignorance. The world is out there, shit is happening elsewhere, I am safe for so long as I stay close to myself, that is who I am. This is the voice of the ego, the thought that arises from an angry, negative 'splintered spirit', a part of the subconscious mind. Yes there are a few running around up there in the head, going back and forth arguing and commenting making excuses and getting nasty. We all carry them in our own heads these voices especially when we are asleep even while awake. Our world is but a dream, and we keep on dreaming even into our wakeful state until 'shit hits the fence'!
We dream our way towards a nightmare all the time if we notice our dreams, they always starts off fun and beautiful but towards the end it all falls to pieces and again 'shit happens'! These are the moments of truth, the moment when reality reveals itself as a whole and for those who sees this or catch a glimpse of it will awaken to the truth of that moment, Satori, Moksha, Samadhi, Tafakur, the abode of silence, We are rudely awaken to this state everyday of our lives but we are too far asleep to notice it; today we need a slap in the face or a kick in the ASs, to be awaken and the wakefulness rarely last but a moment another thought runs s new reel of its own drama and the consciousness is gone, the mind drift into another episode unrelated to the previous event. And this is endless chattering of the mind that we humans have with us to a greater or lesser extent.
So when it comes to religious belief and Faith I must admit that I am yet to find my truth of the matter, I am a spiritual person and my spirit is already with my Lord, I am already submitted to Him and my will is His Will. I must also admit that although I have challenged God when in angry burst of energy, I am afraid for my transgressions, I cannot claim to be free from fear just as yet. I am still not absolutely liberated from the ties of material life nor is my knowledge and understanding capable of delivering me to the other shore without encountering storms and turbulence. So I will abide in being where I am at, at the moment in time. I am here Now.

AND THIS TOO WILL PASS.....