Monday, August 24, 2015

My Journey to the East Coast -10th. trip with the 'Kancil.

Dawn was breaking upon my arrival at Pulau Duyung .

A view of the tributary of the Terengganu River with the sunrise.

I love reflections in the water whenever i take pictures.

Scenes like these re meant to be shared with others.

And I saw his face in the morning skies.

Sitting by the house where i would be spending my next few days.

Hashim the owner and long time firend and boat builder.

Friday, August 14, 2015

Regurgitating Thoughts.

Don't let your mind mind run and leave you behind. Be ahead if you can but stay with it as much as you can; loosing your mind is more than just going crazy. Indulgence with the mind 's game can lead to loosing touch with your true being, who you are beyond the scope of mind as mind itself is  apart of who you truly are mind is one aspect of being. A state mind is a state of being, a state of being is not a state of mind. You are not your thinking mind, or who you are is not what you think you are of have come to accept of who you are through mind and experiences. Being is your essence of Mind, being constitute the state of total Acceptance or submission or surrender; I am no More! or I, am no more. 
Yada!yada! It is Friday, so have a little respect. It is a Holy Day and not a holiday as far as Muslims goes and then there is the Friday Prayer to which all male Muslims are required to attend, just like going to Church on Sundays. You listen to the sermon from the mimbar, the pulpit telling you what can go wrong with your religious practice, but have total faith in the All Mighty, for only in having absolute faith in Him can you be delivered, set free, liberated from the torments of the 'after life.'The Imam today delivered the sermon like he was in college giving  a sermon to a school of cadets. Half if not two third of those who attended were from Bangladesh workers from around the area and agood number were 'Mamaks'. or Indian Muslims and the rest is a mix of Malays and the rest. He was teaching Arabic pronunciations which I thought was very wise as it helps those learning to read the Quran or leaning the language, a chance to some good tips. But nothing mentioned about how intense the situation is that we as Malaysians if not Malays are in as far as our politics are concern. The fact that we all as fellow Muslims pray for deliverance as only Allah can show us the wisdom in handling ourselves as a Nation under siege. Nothing mentioned of how to handle uncertainties and the anxieties that comes with the rising cost of living especially to the lower income group. Not that we should have a special prayer for the fate of our Nation, that would be asking for too much on a busy Friday afternoon.  
Perhaps i am overly sensitive in my old age,(sounds good to be able to say it!), I am overly sensitive towards issues that does not concern me anymore, like where has RM42 Bilion gone to among other issues that is plaguing my country; like where will it all lead to? Change is good and it is imperative that we as a nation ,change. our present course  we know is not conducive to peace and prosperity anymore. Change can be instigated from the pulpit with right skillfull means to make for right understanding of the Umah attending the prayer. Even if all you do is to raise your hands and call for His mercy along with the rest of the congregation for the sake of our country it would have meant a whole lot more meaningful. In my old age all I heard was a lecture repeating the same old message as though we have not understood it already.
As you can imagine my mind took over and i was half asleep after ten minutes of surah in Arabic which my mind could not handle as I do not understand a word tried as i may to recognize some. Last week was worse. All through the sermon I felt like I was being bull-whipped for being a 'bad' Muslim. At least i was made to feel for myself, for my neglect and my transgressions and such. I lost my respect for the Imam in question as this was not the first or second time, it is becoming his norm. He is making going to the mosque on Fridays a bummer. 
You just saw how the mind can keep going on over a subject or an issue and get it to snowball and move from one topic to another, discussing, analyzing, scrutinizing and understand it before it will move on to the next channel, the next topic the next drama or it will simply take a nap and snap out of this whirlpool of thought and emotions that we are constantly being attracted and attached to for so long as we live. But all is not not lost, there are solutions towards this problem and throughout history wise men have sought out the best ways to understand the human mind and one of them was religions. The Buddha's teachings was realized in order to put and end to dual thinking mind and attain to Wisdom and liberation from the clinging on to this conditioned mind. This is attained through Absolute faith in The All Mighty, Lord of the Universe ....call Him what you will...for a Muslim and all the three Judeo-Christian -and Islamic faith, the Complete Union with the Lord is the end to all suffering. When I, am No More, He is One...The God...Al-Lah...Allah. He has no witness but Himself. When the mirror is shattered there is no more to reflect.

Angin - The Wind.

Angin! The wind or in the internal organs system stands to mean 'gas'. IN the Malay ways of looking at things, angin is the cause of a whole lot of imbalances within the body that often leads to the worse scenario of a stroke or a heart attack, Na'uzubillah! Heavens forbid! The gastric build up can be caused by numerous reasons such as the kinds of food taken and the capacity for the individual to be able to cope with the the situation; some people are overly sensitive to the gastric imbalances that causes problems such as gastritis. For those who wish to know more Google it! Sometimes knowing simple things about and its working can save one from unnecessary grief. As it is not a pleasant subject to read about in any Blog, i will move on from ,Angin or The wind. 
The reason I raised the issue was becasue I had just left a group of guys having their breakfast before I sat here at Husni's desk thwere i do my blogging from. It is located at the office of the Muzium and galleri Tuaku Fauziah or MGTF, USM. So just in case you ownder, but the importance knowing a little of the matter does help, take it from a guy who suffers from gastritis in all its forms of aches and pains; the simple truth is watch what you eat and drink and make sure it all comes out on the other end at the right time and amount. Keep a good eye on your intake and waste disposal is all it takes. Working out at least once a day especially upon waking up before heading for the bathroom helps to move the angin towards farting it off expelling the'bad' air that had build up when you were asleep. Consciously breathing exercises definitely helps you to move the stale air in your body, sit for a moment and take some good breath till you come in touch with your physical self and watch what is going on. Allow it to adjust itself until you find a perfect balance overall in your whole physical form.The more you do this the easier it gets and the less time it takes for effective measures; just sit and breath and watch. You are now moving your Angin or Chi or energy within you through your consciousness. This, mind and body becomes one...just sit breath and watch..doing nothing else.
When I say something like 'raising your Kundalini Energy', it simply means getting touch with your source of energy and raising it to your consciousness level and this happens withing the center of your spinal column. It is like lighting the Bunsen burner or the stove at the tip of the spinal column and getting the energy cooking, heated up and vaporized like cold ice riding within every cell in the bone marrow till it burns it way up to the tip of the you forehead merging into what is called the 'Third eye', You have the choice of turning it into a negative or positive energy depending upon you consciousness and sense of presence; you are it.
But this is just my understanding and i could be wrong all these while that I have been observing and practicing; how much time I have wasted! An interesting experience I once had related to this movement of Chi or the Kudalini fire, or Angin or Ki is the cause of your ability to regenerate your worn out energies as you grow older it become a ageing resistance process throughout physical, mental as well as spiritual growth; there is always more to learn unless you decide to die an ignoramus; the Lord gave you the Mind for a grand reason and it is for you to discover your reason for existence.
"How did you spend your life on earth?" The Lord asked him.
" Well...I er.." and WHAM! the Lord smacked him of the side of the head with a two-by and he awakened! "NOTHING!"
"Exactly!" The Lord said with a regret in His voice.
There is Angin 'Kus kus".
There is the Kepala Angin!
There is the, Naik Angin and there is,
then there is Angin baik.
Google it!


  
    

Wednesday, August 12, 2015

Happy 66th. Birthday to you Bahari!

I have survived yet another year and as one of my cousin  likes to point out, this is an added bonus in this day and age. How does it feels to be 66? The Beatles album of Sgt. Pepper's Lonely hearts Club Band has a song called "When I am sixty four" one of my favorites in the album and it still is today as i watch how others see me or accept me for who I am, including my children, family and friends and how i see them. I can safely say that i am an unemployed, single and with an ever decreasing number of friends and relationship and I am loosing my zeal for living opting for the preparation to take that one final step into the beyond. I would not consider myself suicidal anymore as i am somewhat contented in where i am at as how I am and what i feel s my own choice, I make it as it is and not because i have no options. If there is any fear i have of how I would end up is to suffer a prolonged illness that would drag me as well as those around me down the rut before i take my final breath.
As i have always mentioned in the past while posting my blogs, I have lived life as fully as anyone could possibly do given the circumstances and my life style, the choices i made and the routes i had chosen. Regrets, yes i have some, made some errors and paid for my mistakes and successes i those too even if they seem insignificant in terms of wealth and creature comfort. I am still experimenting with my life and more so as i get closer to my final curtain, however i have become less gregarious and more of a recluse simply because it helps for me to take closer look at how far or how near i am at discovering the person that I am and in the same token how wide my consciousness has expanded as a person.
I am less distracted and more focused on what i have set out to achieve and that is in discovering my own presence; in the context of so called, life. 
Like most people i am still questioning my religious commitment and my spiritual development. Again, how far or how near i am to my Lord, my Creator, My Maker and or what it all means in the scheme of life when it comes to the choices one makes when it comes to religions. I am a Muslim, yes, but Am I? I rarely pray five times a day and by right that already has disqualified me as a true Muslim and what Is a True Muslim? I pray to the All Mighty Allah, Lord of the worlds as you might call Him God or by whatever name you choose almost in every breath i take and every time I think of Him and my prayer has always been, Astarg'firullah, simply means forgive me, Ya Allah; I am a sinner, but my faith in my Lord does not diminish by this admission. I am not a Christian only because I believe that Jesus, like Moses and Muhammad, the Prophet of Allah were all chosen men of God to propagate life and humanity and just as Buddha and Lao Tzu, Guru Nanak and the rest of the saints and Rishis were  men of spiritual wisdom to guide us through while we are on this short journey of life. Today men like J.Krishnamurti, and Alan Watts and Ram Dass, Mooji and Sai Baba, Ekhardt Tole, Deepak Chopra and the Dalai Lama among others are our contemporary sages, those evolved like Bodhisatvas to help us find our way.
If there is a sin it would be in not making the effort to learn, to come to an understanding, to cherish the human existence that one is given and make the best of being human benefiting those one comes into contact with even with one line of wisdom or insight that would help to cheer up a person or even a smile that comes direct from the heart that would nullify any negative feeling within the other, it would make one's presence on this earth worthwhile. One can sit and argue about faith and beliefs all your life, but one small act of selfless Love or Compassion towards
another sentient being is worth a lifetime of practice. If there is anything I have learned from listening to Mooji's Satsangs on You Tube is that, " You are not in a state of Transformation, you simply are....you are not your mind or your thinking, neither are you offended by them...you are not a work in progress, stay as awareness, as pure awareness there nothing to give up, nothing to change...the presence can be without the person, but the person cannot be without the presence."
All my years of studying about life, spirituality, and what makes sense and what does not boils down to this moment in time when i realize that i am just another being in who is present and accounted for every now and then. Like most who have evolved in age and  through experiences, I too am slowing down to be more 'here and now' and less scattered all over the board looking for answers. I have almost arrived at writing my own conclusion to this lengthy Blogging: my experiment with life.
It is 4;30 AM and I wish myself a Happy 66th. Birthday and may all Beings in the ten directions and the six realms, past present and future, together celebrate this moment with me. 

Monday, August 10, 2015

Raising the Energy.

There are three major centers or Chakras or nadhis that i feel that one aught to focus upon when sitting in meditation and they lie along the path of the spinal column. Moving from the bottom the lower abdominal area from the navel on down is where the well of being originates. This is where the everything is boiled down into primordial energy, where everything is cooked and digested, where the material ingested is turned into energy to generate the physical form. So you are what you eat is not too far from the truth and what you eat can become the elixir of life or your degenerative poison. The lower abdominal region of your body is like an oven that burns up all the gross material and churns them into kinetic energy. 
  1. In physics, the kinetic energy of an object is the energy that it possesses due to its motion. It is defined as the work needed to accelerate a body of a given mass from rest to its stated velocity. Having gained this energy during its acceleration, the body maintains this kinetic energy unless its speed changes.
  2. Although I have had this believe about my body and mid for most of my life, I recently discovered its physical manifestation when i was 'sitting' upon waking up early one morning a few days ago. I did not want to write about it as i am not motivated anymore to keep this blog ongoing but the experience was so vivid and it keeps getting more intense now than ever that i feel i need to relate here as it is a crucial part of getting to know my self.
  3. Siittin on the morning sun, I'ill be sitting till the evening's gone... Ottis Redding. -Sitting on the Dock of the Bay.

    My sitting meditation is eventually having and effect on my mind, body and consciousness and along with listening to talks and 'Satsangs by Gurus and teachers like Mooji and Deepak Chopra, an many more i am beginning to feel that there is some awakening in me that was not there before. One of the effects I find is that I am less caring about things or people anymore or shoudl i say I pay less attention to relationships and reactions to them and i am not as easily sucked into being attached to any episodes or events that has no bearing upon who I am. I pay attention more closely to whatever transpires immediately before my eyes my or my presence but they are gone as though they were never there from my mind as soon as i move on. My mind feels less heavy with less thoughts and cluttering and i feel like i am ready to take on something new, like i am regenerated, recharged, renewed. I react less too, to events and happenings, people and experiences it feels like i take a step away from them before i decide to be involved which I don't normally do. I did not a single dollar on me the last week or so and it did not bring me down as as a matter of fact i felt relieved that because i did not have money on me i was not depressed or concerned although I did wonder if it was right or wrong to be in this state of mind.
    So he second chakra or center is the heart chakra or the solar plexus area where all the emotions are stored along with feelings and perceptions impulses and consciousness. You notice you will really feel depress if this part of your physical body is in pain. Heart burns, heart attack, angina, acid re flux or whatever have you can bring you down no matter how rich or poor you are. When the energy from the abdominal area is fed into this area it better bet pure and clean from any pollution like bad gas that causes burps and farts. The heart area is where you find Love and Compassion, Faith and Hope, for some. However if the energy fed into this area is negative in nature you will suffer not only from acid and indigestion but from anger and hatred, sorrow and pain.
    The third chakra or center is the skull area where all the electrical system of the body originates from, where the micro chip is stored that runs the whole body mind and spirit. This is where the overall balance is kept so that the human body functions according to its specs. This is where the physical and the emotional aspect gets to meet the Divine aspect as this is where the third eye  resides. 

    1. The third eye (also known as the inner eye) is a mystical and esoteric concept referring to a speculative invisible eye which provides perception beyond ordinary sight. In certain dharmic spiritual traditions such as Hinduism, the third eye refers to the ajna, or brow, chakra.
    2. The energy or as some would call it the Kundalini energy travels vertically up the spinal column up and own in  circular movement in conjunction with the rise and fall rhythm of your breath. hence when sitting the spine is kept comfortably straight to allow for unobstructed flow of the energy. In my case, due to a neck injury where a few of my neck vertebrae bones are out of line I feel a resistance every time there is a rise of energy through my spine and usually I go into a rigorous convulsion in the general area sometimes spinning my head uncontrollably, it is painful. However through years of practice and observation i have been able to help the process to happen with less rigor. It can be awkward when sitting with others or in the presence of people and you whole body decides to do the shake.
    3. I have tried to share briefly my experience with sitting meditation or where I am at with this practice but rest assured that this is just the gist or it. Perhaps if my heart moves me to share on a deeper level, Insha'Allah I will. Please keep an open mind when reading this and allow for it to happen, allow for the consciousness experience to bloom on its own for when the time and place is right I am positive that the fruit will ripen. Have Faith in who you are and the Lord will have faith in you.    







  

Tuesday, August 04, 2015

"The excellence of Knowing Nothing.- Mooji.


Just like everyone else i have been sucked into this on  going political vortex that is ravaging my country with so much discord and uncertainty when deep within me I know it is all an illusion being played due to some long term Karmic consequences or cosmic retribution for the collective whole of this nation and it will just have to play itself out. To be all wrapped up into silly knots by all these hoopla being played out by Greed, Hate and Ignorance is just no worth loosing my sight of my immediate consciousness, my being here in the moment facing that which is before me. I have payed too much attention towards these political issues so much so that i am even loosing sight of who I am. It is easy to get trapped into these episodes and events, getting attached to their attractions for positive or negative reason slowly but gradually drives me away from my own being.
Getting sidetracked even by such crucial issues that is being faced today is still getting sidetracked and it does not solve much or help much in better understanding of what is really going on. I have to return to my own inner being and or at least find my way back to who I am in order to better see what is truly transpiring around me. The safest place to be in a Hurricane is to be in its Center where there is nothing going on, nothing happening, nothing to distract you hence influence you. It is often quoted that in changing your state of mind you change your perception of the whole or the world, this awareness for change has to happen from within. For those who have the insight to change shift the gears every time the awareness arises, change becomes inevitable. Less judgmental, more tolerance through patience and clarity of perception becomes part of the change when this happens. It is like taking the step away from the tree to see the whole forest.
The forest too looks bleak what with all the logging and plantations replacing pristine rain forest, but that is another story although it too is part and parcel of what ails this nation and if looked into it too will become another roadside attraction for the mind to dwell upon and so it is best that i move on into looking at nothing. Yes nothing, as the Guru said, nothing, it all boils down to, ends up with hinges upon and really amounts to nothing! The mind if allowed to free reign will get into each and everything that comes within its range of frequency and will create an epic story out of a tripe and will drag one's spirit down into manic depression if allowed to. This has been the circle of life for most of us; a vicious circle resulting from a morbid mind addicted towards being attached to the external perceptions.
Yes we are concerned with what is ailing our nation, but the more we read into it the more entangled we become, unnecessarily embroiled into matters that is way beyond our control. Sometimes if not often enough, to be able to take a step back or even to totally remove one self from the glare of the events is more of what we need than to step right into the puddle. We need to come back to where we are in space and time, to here in the moment to become who we truly are unaffected or distracted by any form of external attachments, to be free from any form of influences that dictates our mind to come to a conclusion. Being in the presence of our own being we will come to our own unadulterated conclusion even if it is to come to nothing. Not a thing...perhaps in this state of 'emptiness of being nothing, we see everything Instead of through a myopic lens we see through the panoramic view of what truly is out there. 

Telling it as I see it.




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    A Day's headlines in the life and times of our beleaguered Prime Minister just so i do not have to bother writing any more than I need to of what is going on. Indeed it is most frustrating if not scary to be witnessing such a trend of events that will affect my life and the lives of the rest of my fellow countrymen in negative way. The feeling of being betrayed or taken for a ride by the very people we elected is not something easy to swallow but be it as it may we are strapped with this jinx for a while till something changes. 
    Call is Karma, call it retribution or call it what you may, Malaysia is going through a cosmic wringer that will be felt for years to come. I only hope that whatever th outcome will be it will not tear the country apart along the racial divide and leave us with an incurable conundrum.
    Even as I am writing my blog is being monitored like a subtle warning, as though I care anymore, there is nothing I am saying that is not the thoughts and feelings of almost all of the rest of my fellow countrymen. But for my own record I need to be up to date with what is happening otherwise what is the use of existing? Ignorance may be bliss, but living in denial is not ignorance and to live like a herd o cattle being led to the slaughter house is not living. IN years to come this will be a part of history and to anyone who stumble upon this blog it will be a piece of evidence that i did not live in ignorance nor in denial 

    Saturday, August 01, 2015

    A Tribute to the PM - Najib Tun Razak.

    I may already have posted this story of my experience with yet another political figure. It happened when i was living in Terenggnau at a place called Telaga Batin very close to the Kuala Terengganu Airport. My residence was also very close to the Army camp to which i often go for my Friday prayer as i also happen to be friends with the Imam and his family. As always i always sat up front a line or two from the pulpit and on this particular day i was sitting on the second row while listening to the sermon.
    It was then i noticed a gentleman sitting on the first row all dressed up in the Malay baju and sampin, a formal man's wear for special occasion. sitting with his legs hanging out practically and bouncing back and forth like a dog's. I was pissed despite being in the mosque and supposedly having to stay rapt in attention to what was being preached. I thought this guy was totally rude and uncouth. I wondered how a military personnel could behave in such manner. I even had the mind to tell him off after the prayer but thought better of it as I was a guest on a Military base and liable to get shot if i misbehave. After the Friday prayer had ended I avoided getting anywhere near the guy as i did not want to shake his hands as we normally do before we leave the mosque. I found out later that he was the Defense Minister at the time and today happens to be our present Prime Minister.
    I was shocked and sad at the same time thinking of how one who holds such a high rank in the government could be so unmindful when in the House Of God. He seemed to have no respect to the fact that he sat in the presence of the All Mighty perhaps due to a lack of awareness or simply an unconscious show of arrogance. (This coming from a guy who had spent two years in a Buddhist monastery as a Zen Student). I most probably had fouled myself from getting any merit from my Friday Prayer for thinking so much negative thoughts of this guy; Such is!
    The rest is as they say; His - story!


    From the moment in 2009 when Najib took over a sovereign wealth fund set up by the Malaysian state of oil-rich Terengganu and turned it into a development fund owned by the federal government, 1MDB has been controversial.
    The Edge published a series of reports on July 20, 2015 detailing Penang-born tycoon Low Taek Jho’s alleged role in the 1MDB controversy, and hinted that it could be its last article.The Edge published a series of reports on July 20, 2015 detailing Penang-born tycoon Low Taek Jho’s alleged role in the 1MDB controversy, and hinted that it could be its last article.Since the beginning of this year — with coverage driven by the Sarawak Report (SR), a blog, and The Edge, a local business weekly — the scandal has moved closer and closer to the heart of government, sparking calls for Najib’s ouster and recalling Malaysia’s long struggle with corruption and economic disappointment.
    Mahathir, who was prime minister from 1981 to 2003, now accuses Najib of “hijacking” the Terengganu Investment Authority, or the TIA, from the state government. Not so, 1MDB said in a statement: The state government willingly “decided to withdraw from the TIA” after the federal government guaranteed the TIA’s bonds.
    That didn’t end the argument. Beginning in March, as public pressure grew, the country’s auditor general, the parliament’s public accounts committee, the central bank, and the police have all homed in on 1MDB. The force of the scandal helped topple the ringgit, the worst-performing currency in Asia as of July 16, down 8.1 per cent against the dollar since the start of the year. Foreign reserves plunged 20 per cent in June from a year earlier.
    On July 3, the Wall Street Journal (WSJ), citing documents from government probes, reported that investigators believe almost US$700 million in cash moved through state agencies, banks, and companies linked to 1MDB before eventually finding its way into Najib’s personal accounts. The money reportedly included two transactions—one worth US$620 million; another, US$61 million—made in March 2013, two months before a general election returned Najib to power as part of the Barisan Nasional, or National Front, coalition.
    In a country with no public campaign financing and few strictures on political donations, the alleged cash flows caused alarm. Before the 2013 election, on March 12, 1MDB Chairman Lodin Wok Kamaruddin and Khadem Al Qubaisi, then chairman of Abu Dhabi’s Aabar Investments, signed an agreement to form a joint venture. The following month, 1MDB announced it had raised US$3 billion for its share of the partnership. “1MDB opted for a private placement to ensure the timely completion of this economic initiative,” the company said in a statement on April 15 of that year.
    The timing was controversial. “1MDB may have been created with one of the key objectives being to raise a slush fund to finance Barisan Nasional’s election campaigns,” says MP Tony Pua, of the opposition Democratic Action Party. A statement from the prime minister’s office dismissed the allegations in the WSJ, saying they amounted to “political sabotage” at the hands of “certain individuals to undermine confidence in our economy, tarnish the government, and remove a democratically elected prime minister.” In a statement, 1MDB said it “has never provided any funds to the prime minister.”
    Malaysia’s biggest-ever financial scandal has spotlighted a colourful cast of characters—some connected to 1MDB, some not. A politician since the age of 23, the mustachioed Najib is the eldest son of the country’s second prime minister following its independence from Britain in 1957, Abdul Razak Hussein, and a nephew of the third, Hussein Onn.
    File picture of Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor arriving at the National Mosque for a ceremony organised by Umno Welfare Bureau in Kuala Lumpur, June 21, 2015. — Picture by Choo Choy MayFile picture of Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor arriving at the National Mosque for a ceremony organised by Umno Welfare Bureau in Kuala Lumpur, June 21, 2015. — Picture by Choo Choy MayNajib’s wife, Datin Seri Rosmah Mansor, is an influential figure in her own right. A former executive at Island & Peninsular, a real estate company, she’s often lampooned in the local media for her bouffant hairstyle and penchant for luxury.
    Riza Aziz, Rosmah’s son from her first marriage, is close to a Kuala Lumpur man about town who’s been linked to 1MDB named Low Taek Jho. Jho Low, as he’s known, is a whiz-kid dealmaker who exploded onto the gossip pages in 2009. One photo shows the moon-faced Low partying with California socialite Paris Hilton and clutching a bottle of Cristal champagne. The prime minister’s stepson co-founded a Los Angeles company that produced The Wolf of Wall Street, the 2013 film about lifestyle excesses and criminal exploits in the world of finance; Low got a full-screen “special thanks” credit at the end of Wolf. Low helped set up 1MDB’s first joint venture, with PetroSaudi International, according to reports in The Edge and the SR.
    An additional touch of glamour comes from Goldman Sachs executive Tim Leissner, a lanky, blue-eyed German who’s married to former US fashion model and designer Kimora Lee Simmons, the ex-wife of Russell Simmons, co-founder of New York hip-hop music label Def Jam Recordings. In September 2013, when Najib and Rosmah traveled to San Francisco to open a new office of Khazanah Nasional, Malaysia’s sovereign wealth fund, Rosmah and Simmons were photographed together. Leissner, now Goldman’s Southeast Asia chairman, was a fixture in Malaysian dealmaking in the late 2000s. Goldman helped manage billionaire Tan Sri T. Ananda Krishnan’s 2009 initial public offering of Maxis, Malaysia’s biggest mobile phone service provider.
    Goldman established a close and profitable relationship with 1MDB. From 2012 to 2013, the bank arranged three bond sales for the company, totalling US$6.5 billion. Fees, commissions, and expenses for Goldman totalled US$593 million—about 9.1 per cent of the money raised—according to a person familiar with the sales. “These transactions were individually tailored financing solutions, the fee and commissions for which reflected the underwriting risks assumed by Goldman Sachs on each series of bonds, as well as other prevailing conditions at the time, including spreads of credit benchmarks, hedging costs, and general market conditions,” says Hong Kong—based Goldman spokesman Edward Naylor.
    In 2013, Goldman arranged 1MDB’s US$3 billion bond sale, the one passed up by Hanwha Life’s Song. The note is included in JPMorgan’s benchmark Asian and Emerging-Market Bond indexes. Goldman’s commissions, fees, and expenses from the sale were US$283 million, or 9.4 per cent of the amount raised, according to the prospectus. The person familiar with the transaction says Goldman’s take was high because the bank bought bonds from 1MDB, assuming the risk, and then resold them to customers.
    In many ways, 1MDB’s star-crossed existence mirrors the misfortunes of this country of 30 million people. Najib set up 1MDB at a time when the Malaysian economy was on the mend; it expanded by 7.4 per cent in 2010, becoming one of the fastest growing in Southeast Asia. The company—supported by the advisory board chaired by Najib and including high-ranking government officials from China, Saudi Arabia, and the United Arab Emirates—set out to be a state-owned strategic development company that would forge global partnerships, draw foreign investment to Malaysia, and build up the country’s industrial base.
    Early on, 1MDB formed joint ventures with Saudi and Abu Dhabi companies. On a visit to Malaysia in July 2013, Japanese Prime Minister Shinzo Abe attended a signing ceremony that was meant to initiate discussions on 1MDB’s plan to issue Samurai bonds guaranteed by the Japan Bank for International Cooperation. None of these plans panned out as they were supposed to. Over time, to its growing number of detractors, 1MDB looked more and more like a giant black box, its inner workings echoing the mysteries suggested by the wayang kulit, traditional shadow puppets, that frolic on the office walls of the Kuala Lumpur—based company.
    1MDB, which has announced plans to wind itself down, is reducing its debt, according to President Arul Kanda. “1MDB has undertaken various initiatives to reduce the company’s debt levels and ensure that maximum value is generated for its 100 per cent shareholder, the Ministry of Finance,” Kanda said in a statement to Bloomberg Markets on July 16. As part of the plan, 1MDB has repaid a US$975 million loan, while more than 40 potential investors have shown interest in one of its property developments, Bandar Malaysia. He said the company also intends to sell its power plants. “We are focused and are making good progress,” he said.
    The 1MDB story begins in 2008. In December of that year, Terengganu, a sultanate located across the Malay Peninsula from Kuala Lumpur, got federal government approval to set up its sovereign wealth fund, the TIA. Goldman Sachs and Boston Consulting Group advised the TIA in its early days. Jho Low advised the TIA from January to mid-May, according to a statement released on his behalf to local media in May 2014.
    In May 2009, the TIA raised RM5 billion through the sale of 30-year Islamic bonds. Guaranteed by the federal government, they were offered at an interest rate of 5.75 per cent. In fact, according to Mahathir, the bonds were sold at a discounted price that effectively yielded bondholders 7 per cent. “Who approved such terrible terms for a loan to a government-owned company?” the former prime minister asked on his blog. 1MDB said in response that the effective yield was actually 6.15 per cent and was reasonable considering that these were Malaysia’s first 30-year notes.
    Jho Low is a whiz-kid dealmaker who exploded onto the gossip pages in 2009. ― File picJho Low is a whiz-kid dealmaker who exploded onto the gossip pages in 2009. ― File picTwo months later, the Najib government quietly took over the TIA and renamed it 1MDB. As the new company was getting up and running, the well-connected Low laid the groundwork for 1MDB’s dealings with the Saudis, according to reports inThe Edge and the SR. The son of a wealthy Malaysian businessman, Larry Low, Jho studied at Harrow, an elite London boarding school. While there, he met Najib’s stepson, Riza Aziz, who was studying at the London School of Economics and Political Science, and came to know Riza’s mother, Rosmah, when she visited London, according to a New York Times report in February. Later, at the Wharton School at the University of Pennsylvania, he took a semester off to start a company called Wynton Group, managing US$25 million pooled mostly from his friends’ families, according to an interview he gave to Malaysia’s Star newspaper in 2010.
    In a similar vein, Low’s role at 1MDB involved “OPM”—other people’s money, says a former business associate in Kuala Lumpur. By now, Low had assembled an impressive array of connections. On September 7, 2009, Low met Patrick Mahony, an executive of PetroSaudi International, in New York, according to a report in The Edge. Tarek Obaid, a co-founder of PetroSaudi, had introduced them to each other via e-mail on August 28, the report said. It didn’t take long for 1MDB and PetroSaudi to cobble together a US$2.5 billion joint venture. Mahony didn’t respond to e-mailed questions. Obaid couldn’t be reached for comment.
    As it got off the ground, 1MDB worked with more than a dozen financial institutions, but it forged especially close ties with Goldman. A helping hand came from Roger Ng, Goldman’s head of Southeast Asia sales and fixed-income trading, a Malaysian national well-known for his connections to politicians and tycoons, according to two people who know him. Leissner, then based in Singapore as Goldman’s co-president for Southeast Asia, played a key role in expanding the bank’s business inMalaysia. He declined to comment for this article. Ng, who left Goldman last year, didn’t respond to phone calls or a text message.
    In December 2009, Goldman won a license from Malaysia’s Securities Commission to set up fund management and corporate finance advisory operations in the country. “The future outlook for Malaysia’s capital markets and its asset management industry is very positive,” Leissner said in a statement released by the commission at the time. “Through our local presence, we look forward to playing a larger role in their development.”
    For 1MDB, Goldman played multiple roles. In 2012, it advised the firm on its acquisition of Tanjong Energy Holdings from Malaysian billionaire Krishnan and domestic power plants from Genting, a conglomerate. The following year, the bank helped 1MDB purchase the Jimah Energy Ventures power plant in Selangor, Malaysia, a deal that was completed in 2014.
    The true extent of the trouble at 1MDB didn’t become apparent until late last year. Scandal aside, 2014 was a difficult year for Najib and his government. First came the disappearance of Malaysia Airlines Flight 370 and all 239 people on board in March. Then, in July, Flight 17, also operated by the state-owned airline, crashed near Donetsk in strife-torn eastern Ukraine, possibly after being hit by a surface-to-air missile; all 298 passengers and crew died. It was around that time that the SR and The Edge, under longtime editor Ho Kay Tat, began their exposés of 1MDB, adding to Najib’s woes.
    Clare Rewcastle Brown is a daughter of a police officer in Sarawak during colonial days. – AFP picClare Rewcastle Brown is a daughter of a police officer in Sarawak during colonial days. – AFP picThe SR was founded by Clare Rewcastle Brown, who was born in Sarawak, a state on the island of Borneo, of British parents and now runs the site out of London. (Her husband, Andrew Brown, who recently retired as the head of media relations at EDF Energy, is the brother of former UK Prime Minister Gordon Brown.) Earlier this year, the website claimed to have obtained e-mails and other documentation showing how Jho Low and several business associates siphoned US$700 million from 1MDB’s venture with PetroSaudi Holdings, which was registered in the Cayman Islands in the Caribbean. Low, who has denied playing any role in 1MDB after the work he did for the TIA, didn’t respond to requests for an interview or to e-mailed questions. The government, without giving any details, has tried to discredit the e-mails as reported by the SR, saying the communications may have been tampered with. Then on July 19, the Malaysian Communications and Multimedia Commission said it had blocked the SR’s website in Malaysia for publishing content that could “destabilize the country.” Rewcastle Brown said she won’t be impeded by the government’s action, describing it as the “latest blow to media freedom.” 
    In an unprecedented crackdown, Malaysian authorities this year have arrested more than 150 journalists, activists, opposition politicians, and lawyers on sedition charges or under a peaceful assembly act that strictly regulates public protests. One of Malaysia’s best-known political cartoonists, who goes by the name Zunar, has been charged with nine counts of sedition and faces up to 43 years in prison.
    On June 22, Thai police arrested a tattooed Swiss national named Xavier Justo, a former executive at 1MDB investment partner PetroSaudi International, on the resort island of Koh Samui. Police said they suspected Justo of trying to extort money from PetroSaudi and leaking e-mails about the oil company’s dealings with 1MDB. Justo denied the allegations, the Bangkok Post reported.
    Adding to a climate of fear and tension, the Malaysian police launched an investigation into whether government officials, including central bank personnel, were behind the leaking of documents that allegedly showed 1MDB money turning up in Najib’s accounts. The central bank on July 12 denied any impropriety.
    As allegations swirl around him, the stakes for Najib are high. Not only is he prime minister and finance minister; he’s also president of a political machine, Umno, that has been in power since Malaysia’s independence. What’s more, he’s chairman of the Khazanah Nasional sovereign wealth fund, which had US$29 billion under management at the end of 2014. “Power is too concentrated to one person,” says Datuk Zaid Ibrahim, a former law minister who built the country’s largest law firm. He says the total lack of checks and balances in Malaysia has led to abuse of power.
    In the early days of Najib’s rule, Malaysians had more cause for optimism than now, says Danny Quah, an economics professor at the LSE. Like many successful Malaysians overseas, Quah has maintained ties with his native country. He served on Malaysia’s National Economic Advisory Council from 2009 to 2011, and he still vividly recalls a day—March 30, 2010—when Najib stood in front of global investors and promised a “1Malaysia” where all Malaysians of different races would work together toward one goal—turning Malaysia into a developed nation by 2020. At the time, Najib had enough popular support to aim high. “Right then, it was a golden opportunity,” Quah says. “It’s a moment that passed.”
    Former Prime Minister Tun Mahathir Mohamad, a one-time political mentor who’s turned on Najib, says 'vast amounts of money' have 'disappeared' from 1MDB funds. — Picture by Yusof Mat IsaFormer Prime Minister Tun Mahathir Mohamad, a one-time political mentor who’s turned on Najib, says 'vast amounts of money' have 'disappeared' from 1MDB funds. — Picture by Yusof Mat IsaMahathir, 90, shows no signs of letting his erstwhile protégé off the hook. After a poor showing by Umno in the March 2008 elections, Prime Minister Abdullah Ahmad Badawi stepped down the following year and was replaced by his deputy prime minister, Najib. Over time, Mahathir said later, he became disillusioned with Najib’s management of the economy. He said he expressed his doubts first privately and then publicly.
    With the 1MDB scandal gaining momentum, outright war broke out between Mahathir and Najib. Najib, Mahathir said in June, had crossed the line. “1MDB is the straw that broke the camel’s back,” said Mahathir, who has repeatedly called for Najib to resign. Najib, who says he won’t step down, lashed back at Mahathir, known by the honourific Tun. “The ‘mess’ that Tun refers to is largely of his own making as a result of his attacks and his echoing of opposition lies and slander,” Najib wrote on his website.
    As words flew between Mahathir and Najib in June, the Malaysian Volunteer Lawyers Association organised a forum to hear from Najib on 1MDB. It was called Nothing2Hide. Mahathir saw a chance to speak his mind about 1MDB and the money he said was missing. “I feel obligated to explain to the people what really happened and why I’ve decided not to support Najib any longer,” he said to the gathering. “This is not about me or Najib. It’s about the whole nation because what was lost belonged to all of us. I am just a spokesperson. Many people have come to me, asking me to do something.”
    About 10 minutes into Mahathir’s speech, uniformed police moved in and stopped the aging but still spry former prime minister from speaking. Whatever Najib thought of the action taken against his mentor-turned-rival may never be known. Amid police concerns about “public order and national harmony,” he didn’t show up. — Bloomberg