My Personal Profile Over the Years.

 A Very Happy New Year to Me and mine! 2024 has been one long drag of a year with the infestation of war and famine everywhere and the weather spinning out of control claiming untold misery and loss of life. I pray that 2025 will reverse the whole process of decadence and revive peace and harmony for the Planet and humanity as a whole. I hope and pray that change for the better will take effect bringing solace and recuperation where pain and suffering has been making life unbearable for those especially those affected by conflicts and wars. I can only hope and pray however  with a genuine feeling of compassion towards my fellow man I am about to make a radical change in my life to better serve those who cross my path and in need of comfort and care. At my age I am aware that any physical effort would be limited however I feel strongly capable of sharing myself in the capacity of a mental and spiritual assistance for those who are seeking for answers in their lives. I am set upon making the next phase of my journey into 2025 spent among strangers and help those who happen to cross my path through sharing what is relevant of my life's experiences. I hope to open a class for children teaching Art in English like I had done before ex gratis or free of charge for needy kids. This is my intention in the upcoming year and I hope it will happen with the Blessings from on high.

I plan on moving to the East Coast state of Terengganu where I have friends and relatives and am familiar with the local culture and people. it is also my intention to remove myself from my present comfort zone of living with my two adult children who are now I trust more than capable of taking care of themselves. I am also moving away from the hustle of this city life and find a more sedate and tranquil environment to chill in my old age. Ideally I would like to run my own 'Ashram' or retreat where close friends and those looking for a temporary reprieve from their hectic life can find a place to hang out and chill their hearts mind and soul. A place where they can find a sympathetic ear to listen to their woes and a joker who can make them laugh at their own jokes. If possible i would also like to teach a kid or two a little Yoga and Martial Arts which I have experience of doing so in my life. If i can help to ease and heal a mind or two of the young and the old that crosses my path I will be more than satisfied to have accomplished an intention I have held as my life's purpose. As a friend in Alaska once wrote in my journal, "Sam, he is not a just a fisherman, he is a fisher of men." This was a complement I held with very high regard and had motivated me ever since to become a teacher of life or as I have called, "The Art of Living." 

                                  My Degree from the University of Wisconsin at Green Bay

Am I qualified to carry out such a task? Let me try to outline my lifetime career ever since I left the secondary school in Terengganu. My first employment was an English language Tutor to the Royal household of the Sultan of Terengganu. The I was working as a medical assistant for an American doctor who was doing a medical research in the rural areas of Ulu Terengganu in the Kuala Brang area and there were five or six villages that we visited and today these villages are under the Kenyir Dam. My second job was as a Radio Operator working for a British Helicopter CO. called Bristow Helicopters out of Surrey, England. The company located close to the Telaga Batin airport was serving the Esso -Continental Oil Operations searching for oil off the coast of Terenggnau and this was before Petronas came into the picture. I later joined the drilling vessel Discoverer 2 as a Roughneck and had a good taste of what hard work and racial prejudice was all about. I then moved to Georgetown, Penang my hometown where i had a job as an Assistant Sales Executive for a Dutch company, Hagermeyer Trdg. Co. that handled products like NIVICO, Matsushita, Christian Dior, I was one of two Malays at the time hired by the company on demand by the Malaysian government that at least a percent of Malays had to be hired. Here again I had a great exposure to what racism was all about when working in a predominantly Chinese environment.

                                 Some of my trainings in the course of my past careers.

At the age of twenty five I married and American lady and relocated to Green Bay, Wisconsin where my first employment was a Bar Cleaner at a Tavern called Farr's Grove in Duck Creek, Brown County, Green Bay. I believe i was the first colored guy that most of the residents of Duck Creek ever met. Later i was hired to become a sweeper and cleaner at Lambeau Field, Home of the Green Bay Packers, picking up paper cups and hot dog wrappers by the bag loads was hard work after every packer game especially during the winter months. I then was employed by Green Bay Meats and Cold Storage as a boner. I became good at separating bones from meat after working for three years in the cold slaughter houses in green Bay and later in Milwaukee. After having a nervous breakdown and loosing my wife and son through a divorce, I was accepted to join the University of Wisconsin at Green Bay. I graduated from the University with a Bachelor's degree that I designed of my own called Independent Studies. While a student I worked as a librarian and a Security Guard to survive. It took me ten years to pay back my student loan and I did. Soon after graduation from college i moved to Sandpoint, Alaska, located somewhere in the Aleutian Chains where I did some commercial fishing in the Bering Sea of the Pacific Northwest. I discovered that in the rough seas I was prone to seasickness, however I earned more selling my artworks to survive. 

I moved to San Francisco sometime in 1983-4 and decided to join the Zen Buddhist community there and my first job there was through my Zen Instructor who got me working for an Englishman renovating office buildings, including installations of Tellar machines. I gained good experience working on this job which took me all over the Bay Area. I then joined the Zen community at green Gulch Farm, in the Sausalito area of Marin County. I became a Zen student and for my food and lodging I was employed working the organic farm which help4d to sustain the G.G.Farm. I stayed at the farm for almost two years doing odd jobs while doing my Zen Buddhist practice. When I left the Monastery I was employed by H&H Ship and Environmental Services which was located on China Basin, on the SF water front. From a sweeper I worked myself up to become the Yard Superintendent in charge of the Underground Cleaning and Disposal Facility. in SF I also worked as a Produce Buyer for a company called Del Tomasso and my job was to purchase produce from the SF Produce Market which operates from Midnight till the next morning and deliver it to a Mall across the Bay. For a spell i was selling Temporary Tattoos at the Shoreline Amphitheater during the live concerts there. Later in 1991 onwards i became a Baby sitter taking care of my two toddlers aged 1 and 2 while their mother worked. I chose to do so for the children's sake as i did not want to have someone else raise my kids. My eldest son from my first marriage declared to me that his friend told him that what i was doing was the hardest job a man can take on and i agreed.

Sometime in 1995 my late wife got a job teach ESL in Sendai, Japan and so we moved to Japan where i continued to Babysit while my wife worked. In Sendai I did some of my best Artworks and had six solo art exhibitions including one at the Miyagi Museum of Fine Arts where I spent most of my free time when not babysitting. I was employed as an Art Lecturer by a Japanese Prep School for a semester and got to have a good experience of working in Japan. Sometime in 1988 I decided to move my family back to Malaysia where my late wife was employed as a lecturer at KUSZA in Kuala Terenggnau and I was employed as  Health and Safety Officer in Kerteh and later in Gebeng, Pahang working on a Petronas refinery facility. I worked for three different companies beginning with Ibai Bina Sdn. Bhd., followed by Van Seumerren Romstar and lastly by Autoblast industrial painting company. All three jobs demanded the ability to confront and discipline employees with regard to work safety it was a challenge of one's ability to communicate.

 

     

Homo Proponit,sed Deus Disponit - Man Porposes, God Disposes.

 They say that we create our own destiny and the Good Lord makes it happen or not; Homo Proponit, sed Deus Disponit. Man propose God dispose. We are His creation and He is our Creator. We prostrate and surrender before Him and He blesses us with Grace. "The Lord Is my Shepard and i shall not want." I am but a humble servant making my way towards His Seat of Power on my hands and knees and my palms clasped before me in reverence and subjugation before His Throne. On this Christmas Day I make my pledge to uphold all the commitments I have made contained in this Blog from the beginning till today. I shall perform my duty as a Bodhisattva and do my utmost to enrich and awaken my fellow man form suffering in the best possible that i can, with what possible energy i have left at my age. I shall lead the Path of How to Live through my stories and ideas and dreams, through my Artistic abilities and through my  Zen/Yogic and Subut/Sufi practices as i was taught by my Great teachers Gurus and Roshis, my Mentors and Friends. May Allah s.w.t. Bless them all in life and the Hereafter. As it is today a very Auspicious Day in Mankind's Collective Calendar, I raise my heart and soul before the All Mighty and place them at His feet; I now am fully surrendered, I am no more.

Removing the ego from the life equation is worse than pulling out your teeth. The ego is like the shadow that is with you day in and day out and has a very strong hold on your thoughts and imaginations, your desires and cravings, you are a product of your ego managing your life. The ego is not you. The ego is a byproduct of who you truly are, it is a result of your years of growing up from an infant into an aged old man under the influence of the environment/circumstances and the people around you most of which cannot be helped but does make and impact upon how you grow up and what you become. The egotistical person in the extreme is self serving and self centered making life a matter of survival and living a battle of the fittest. The egoic tendencies of an individual makes him/her very prone to greed, hate and ignorance in dealing with others and Love and Compassion are distant and foreign virtues almost forgotten. In many experiments done it has been observed that the more charitable people are those who do not have much themselves and the rich and well to do hold on tight to their purses. An egoic mind would rather hoard and hide what they have than share it with those who could use whatever they do not have the need for anymore, their garages are always stacked with collectables collecting dust. To the ego minded, enough is never enough and no one should own more than me. This is the world we live in today.

I have just pretty much described my self, my upbringing and my take on life as i was growing up into adulthood. I have described how i was a very angry and vengeful person and had no qualms about hurting anyone especially those who had shown me love and compassion. I was self absorbed and made it an effort to make sure that I become the center of attention by hook or by crook and how many lives have i wasted in the course of my relationships! How many hopes and dreams have I shattered getting to be where I am at; I am incorrigible as one of my close friend accused me of. I could go on lamenting but it is of no good now and a waste of time writing, but i have done enough reflections, soul searching and  have dwelled over the matter deeply over the last decade of my life and find that it is all a challenge in order to uproot my egotistical tendencies once and for all. To attain spiritual maturity ego has no place in one's heart. To remove the ego from my life's equation is easier said than done; it is the Jihad as the Prophet of Allah, {Pbuh}, is said to have said. It is a spiritual battle that must be won if complete Spiritual Awakening is to happen. Are you willing to chop off your arm in order that you may be free from this worldly attachments? Would you be willing to give up the unreal for the real, the impermanent for the eternal and everlasting? 

Regrets will be buried with me when i die and beyond that who knows what retribution lay in store for one whose life had been one long series of errors and miscalculations. Whose actions stemmed out of anger and often despair. All that i have thus far recant, renounced, foreswear put behind me and I have fully surrendered unto the Lord for His evaluation and judgement. In the meantime I am fully committed to seeking forgiveness and undo what i have done in the form of servitude towards the Universe. This will be the end of my looking back and lamenting my past transgressions for 2025 will be a year i look forward towards reclaiming my true being, who I truly am without any regrets or self mortification. At the end of the day, all these too will pass. What is truly left is a legacy of emptiness like bleached bones left in the sand gradually being eroded by the wind until nothing is left but sand. This is impermanence, one of the cause of human suffering and the sooner one awaken to the realization of this illness that shapes our destiny the better prepared we can be in facing life's challenges. Letting go is the antidote to this kind of ailment and it can be achieved over time with resilience and determination.

We can live life with blind faith or we can live life as an experiment making certain that every action, every thoughts and justification are ways and means to understand what is right or wrong, what is temporal and what is eternal, what is truly you and what is mere illusion. The Lord of Creation, The Lord of Mercy and Compassion, will be our guide at every junction and corners of our journey if only we listen and call out to Him for guidance for He is our 'Shadow'; He has walked beside us thought thick and thin and even when we are blind to this Devine attribute that is our birthright and turn our shadow into a negative energy that we recoil in fear because of our ignorance; ignorance is another cause of human suffering. Ignorance is the refusal to learn the truth of the nature of our existence as most of us live merely to survive dominated by greed, hate and ignorance. To counter this habitual tendencies we have to live with Love and Compassion within and without, towards ourselves and towards others. Perhaps we do write our own destiny as we mature and come to a realization of our fate perhaps able to answer the simple questions we have been asking ourselves, who am I, why am I here, what is my role in all these? At the end of the day that which we have held above all else in our heart of hearts is the final destination and goal of our quest. How far or near we are towards a complete realization of our destiny is in His hands.       

 

Updating my Personal Profile.- Merry Christmas to All.

 Having a self evaluation done according to the latest Videos and Podcasts on You Tube on related subjects. I began out of curiosity when I keep seeing this palmistry video on the crescent across the palm of the hands of which I am guilty of. So i decided to take a closer look at what they are saying at the higher spiritual levels about who I am according to their analysis and research.

                      The Crescent line across my palms. It is not just a mark, it is a reminder...of what?

So by the looks of it I have both the marks of the crescent and the 'M' on my palms now what? It is going to be one hell of a New Year to look forward to 2025! I do feel the weight of having to make some radical decisions as to how or where my future lies next. I know i need to stake that leap of faith and that step out of the comfort zone I am in and yes from all directions and I am being nudged by Universe to make that preparation to take that step through the 'Gateless Gate,' only this time I feel with all kinds of support and cheers behind me. I am not walking through alone I can feel many have heard my stories and  some have read the messages between the lines and taken longer pause in their lives to become awakened. 

                                                  The letter 'M' on the palms of my hands.

• The letter M on your palm is formed by the intersection of the heart, head, and life lines
• This rare marking is believed to indicate exceptional intuition and spiritual gifts
• People with the M symbol often possess strong leadership qualities and financial acumen
• The M can signify a deep connection to the spiritual realm and heightened psychic abilities
• Those with this marking may have a special life purpose or spiritual mission to fulfill
• The letter M is associated with good fortune and success in various aspects of life
• Individuals with this symbol tend to be highly intuitive and adept at reading others
• The M marking suggests a natural talent for manifestation and bringing ideas to life
• People with the letter M often experience synchronicities and meaningful coincidences
• This symbol can indicate a strong connection to guardian angels or spirit guides
• The M on the palm is believed to represent a bridge between the physical and spiritual worlds
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What Does the Number 49 Mean Spiritually: Growth! My year of Birth.

Updated onJanuary 31, 2024

"The number 49 is a spiritually significant number in numerology. It symbolizes inner wisdom, introspection, and spiritual enlightenment.

The number 49 is a combination of the energies and vibrations of the numbers 4 and 9. Number 4 represents practicality, responsibility, and work towards achieving goals while the number 9 stands for spiritual laws of karma, divine life purpose, and soul mission.

When combined as 49 in numerology, these numbers signify an individual’s journey towards self-discovery and spiritual awakening.

It often appears when the universe wants to remind you to pay attention to your inner-wisdom and intuition.

Seeing the number 49 frequently may be a sign from the universe guiding you towards your spiritual path.

It encourages you to focus more on your personal development and growth rather than materialistic aspects.

This number serves as a divine reminder that we are all interconnected with the universe in our unique ways.

So, if you keep seeing this number, it might be an indication for you to tap into your spirituality more deeply or reassess your life’s purpose from a higher perspective."

                     No Matter I will stand tall and deliver - I am your True Believer

What does the number 12 signify as in my day of birth.

November 8, 2023 by Nelson Ayers

For centuries, the number 12 has held deep symbolic meaning in mathematics, culture, and faith traditions around the world. But why has this number maintained such a mystical allure across humanity? Get ready to see 12 in a whole new light as we unravel its enduring significance.

In numerology, 12 is considered a "perfect" number for many reasons. Let‘s analyze some standout mathematical properties of 12:

• It has the most divisors of any number less than 60. The number 12 can be evenly divided by 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, and 12. This factorability makes it extremely divisible and harmonious.

• It is the lowest number with a reciprocal (1/12) that has terminating decimal expansion. This precision reflects completeness.

• It is a sublimely symmetrical number, as it has 4 factors below it and 4 factors above it. Centered between 1 and infinity, 12 is perfectly balanced.

• Across faith traditions, 12 took on deeper religious meaning, representing cosmic order, fulfillment, and governmental foundation.

Since ancient cosmology to modern pop culture, the number 12 has maintained a special aura unlike any other number. Beyond its elegant mathematical divisibility, it evolved into a symbolic touchstone representing cosmic harmony, completion of cycles, and divine foundation. Throughout history, 12 stimulated fascinating numerical patterns, spiritual belief, and mathematical philosophy that still resonate today. So the next time you come across this sublime number, consider all that it represents!

What does number eight or the month of August signifies.

What the beautiful Oriental Lady Monk has to say about this Leo Born.

"The Lion is a spirit that is born in August, symbolizing, Courage, Power and Leadership, It is just like the Lion known as the King of the Jungle people born in August posses an imposing Prescence and a Strength that sets them apart from the rest. They have natural  self confidence and an innate ability to Lead. and Inspire those around them. The lion not only represents physical strength but also strength of Character. showing that true Leadership comes from Integrity, Courage and the ability to face challenges with dignity. People guided by the Lion are generally charismatic and tend to occupy prominent places whether in their communities, careers or among friends and family. They have a passion for life and a fierce determination to achieve their goals. The lion's energy also brings great generosity making these people protective and caring towards the ones they love. They strive to create an environment where everyone can thrive using their influence to help others grow and develop in daily life. Those with the Lion as their Spirit Animal often seek roles that allow them to express their Power and Leadership... True leadership is Servant Leadership it involves using Power for the good of Others not just for one self." 

- from 'Buddhism Wisdom' -'What your Birthday Month says about your spirit animal.' on YouTube which I just stumbled upon.

Spot on! I fully agree with this characterization of a Leo Born; To live up to it is not easy, MUFASA!

Take off the Mask of Feelings and Face Yourself!

 The cost of a bullet for an Ak -whatever can help save a child's life somewhere in Sudan, Libya, Syria, Iraq, and the list goes on...Myanmar, India, Bangladesh, Honduras, Haiti and only God knows where on this sick Planet! Wake up Human! Wake up before you are rudely Woken Up! Bam! Some zealous idiot decides to press the wrong Red Button, simply because his spouse, girlfriend or boyfriend refused him the night before; life as you and I knows it is over! No more time to sit and ponder, time to eat the roti canai by the roadside early in the morning nor time to take the garbage out; all gone! By then I hope the All Mighty has invited me home to face the consequences of my neglect and transgressions of my 70 odd year living this same life of denial and guilt. I AM AWARE! I will do as much as it makes sense for me to do to help alleviate the suffering of the Planet at least before I leave the mess behind me for good, as said the Historical Buddha Shakyamuni, The Prince Gautama, if I need to be spiritually awakened at this moment in time, I will say it again, I am Aware! I am grieved beyond expression deep within me, my heart and soul is numbed by the sorrow that i witness daily on the Internet and the various other Media. Life is suffering indeed and and none who suffer. When I am no more, suffering ceases to exist; I myself detach from everything and anything that hold me back; I fully surrender, I AM NO MORE! 

Words!

                                   Not everyone is an awakened being, sometimes someone Is!

But i am fully here, still in this moment in time just as you are if you have been reading all these nonsense that I have been sharing about myself, how scared I felt at the sight of who I have become, i was lost, drifting like a soulless form, a Hungry Ghost. I owed it to the teachings of the Buddha to pull me through safely across the river; I am grateful that i was raised for twelve years of my childhood life as a Buddhist. For this i have to be grateful to the man who adopted me from the day I entered this life till the age of twelve, he was a Buddhist then and had spent two years at a Buddhist monastery in Sri Lanka where my Grandfather was originally from. He was the last of the Aryans who had landed in Sri Lanka who propagated the teaching of the Buddha. They were mostly fair skinned like a European and had the same demeanor as an Aryan Race. My Grandfather, may the Lord Rest his Soul and place him among the wise and intelligent, the creative and Compassionate towards man and beasts. May the Good Lord forgive his sins, his travails and his weaknesses, his ignorance; he was a great artist. Those who knew him my older siblings and my surviving cousins who grew up under his roof will testify for his character and tell mt if am am exaggerating. My eldest brother and my twin brother are still alive and so are a few of my cousins all over this country are still around, let them prove me wrong over what i am claiming.

                   I have stood under this tree for the past few years as Christmas approaches. The Lobby of the E@O Hotel the most Historic Landmark of Georgetown. Charlie Chaplin stayed here among other movie stars and Kings and Ministers. I like to tap the floor with my cane and listen to the echo above my head! So again I am wishing everyone, far and near, friend or foe, Black or White and all the in between a very Merry Christmas and a Happy new Year! Lets shed Light and Love between us all over the world. 

" A Man who justifies, does not convince!, Not even to himself!" _ Lao Tzu is said to have said.

The impression i had when I visited the Bujang valley for the second time is that, the traders whoever they were, helped to built an Altar, a center for worship if not a point of spiritual focus for the community. It was the just about the time when Buddhism was flourishing as a form of religious practice both in India where it was conceived and later into China and most of the Far Eastern Nations such as Korea and Japan embraced the teachings of the Buddha in replace of the corrupted practices that were being exercised by the priests and monks that predated Buddhism. Buddhism was a branch of Hinduism that broke off and spread its own branches all over the world as a Non-Religion, an Agnostic approach to  combat the rife and ape of the teachings of Hinduism through exploitation of the religious authority over the innocent lay people. The temples were filled with gold and degradation and the Preachers take advantage of the pleasures of life afforded them by their positions: and they still do this till this day and age. I AM AWARE! Have been and ever will be! I have lived the life of many religions and fully committed myself to having my faith in Islam as my final choice and for whatever it is worth, I know I am not and will perhaps never be a 'good', Muslim; are you?!

WORDS!

 "TAKE OFF THE MASK OF FEELINGS AND FACE YOURSELF!" - Paramahamsa Yogananda

That was the Lion's Roar of the last century and many heard it traveled around the world of spiritual consciousness; those with hearts attached to to the Unconditional Love of the Lords, The Universe, The Source, the Tao. Look into the mirror and look deeply through its reflection and see who you truly are or who you think you are in this realm of existence, the Nirmanakaya or the realm of Illusions or maya. I am attached to this realm as my practice grounds to become a competent Bodhisattva and not make a fool of myself or become just another 'brick in the wall!' No, it would be an insult if not a disgrace for me not to acknowledge my status and self esteem as a man who have earned his Right of Passage to become who he chooses to become in the near future. 

MERRY CHRISTMAS BOB! -

 Who or what is draining my energy?

Love is the highest vibration energy.

Affirmations only works when you feel the energy behind it.

                                        Me and my Brother Bob Stam from Medan, Sumatra, a Dutch.

The above question and statements were picked and written randomly as I was listening to a few podcast on You Tube that were spiritually related and they struck a chord in me especially the question. My energy I realize is being drained by too much thinking, too much pondering, analyzing, creating stories out of nothing. These habitual mental formations have drained my energy level especially when the thoughts are of negative nature like anger, envy, greed  that often lead to depression eventually. I realize how drained I feel whenever i am hit by a truck while crossing the road with my phone stuck up my nose. I am drained of my energy after a long day of living in the past and digging the same old grounds looking for answers in the same old places with no progress or regress, caught stuck in a rut of existence playing my role as a Bodhisattva, a servant of the Lord as Slave to my Master, The Lord of Creation, Allah Aza Wa Jaala.you can call Him by whatever Name your faith and religion and culture have given you and if you are a True Believer; no doubts. This is meditation in Action, this is Karma playing itself out in the course of my life as The Cheeseburger Buddha! Ho! Ho! Ho! Merry Christmas

How do I regenerate my energy, how do I rebound? I simply sit! I sit and I breath for my life! In and Out, In and Out! If i stop breathing, game over! So I choose to sit and consciously breath in and out until I become unconscious of doing it; until breathing just happens, just as it is doing at this very moment that allows me to write and whoever to read. This is meditation in consciousness, of consciousness, by consciousness. You do not want to be stuck in this state of consciousness too long; you try not to be stuck in any one state of consciousness as much as you can. So sitting meditation or Zazen as I have come understand is the purest form of practice when it comes to 'Sitting'.  the Art of sitting with one's mind. I sitting meditation find the equilibrium, the balance, the limitations and the strength that i posses and how much energy it would take and how to harness this energy for longevity of Body, and Mind in Harmony and in alignment with the Whole, the Universe. In sitting I surrender my consciousness itself into the unknown, into the Divine Consciousness or the Consciousness of the Divine in me. IN Sitting I Declare my Dharma Position! I am Who I am!

                                               Sometimes its' good to feel like a kid again.

If I am beginning to sound like I am preaching or sounding like another a Guru or a Rishi, well its ok, why not? I have earned the rite of passage to be who I choose to be as this Blogging is my testimony  and not that I need to justify myself to anyone dead or alive or need a written permission to be who I am, now siree Bob! I am an Independent Study Student, graduated with bachelor degree from the University of Wisconsin, Green Bay, Wisc. : I designed my own degree and graduated with a Cum Lauda. First time I am mentioning it in the Blog that i can remember of most probably did already a few times? Such Is! Yes I aspire to become a teacher like the Dalai Lama, Jedu Krishnamurti, Alan Watts and the rest of them. I aspire to be able to help mend a broken heart and heal a splintered soul and achieve level of integrity and pride in my action to help heal the Planet. I need to be fully healed before I can achieve these aspirations, I am ever in the process of healing myself, forgiving myself, planting my feet on the primordial ground of my own being; This!

                                                     Way to Go, Bob! That's a tall order.

Words as many would tell you is limited when it comes to sharing what is the intangible, the unknown, the effervescent, the altered dimensions and the levels of consciousness. But words are a necessity if we are to share, to communicate especially between you and your self. A wrong choice of words a poor choice of words can undo whatever that have been achieved in this process of living through healing. We are all sick! The Buddha declared this some 2600 years ago. Man suffer from the three illnesses of Greed, Hate and Ignorance. How we deal with it is entirely up to ourselves. Here is when the question of , What is the Purpose of living or of Life? comes into play. If by writing down my thoughts as I have been doing would help ease the pain or the burden of another fellow being, I would be grateful, my stories are meant to be shared like a story cause that is all it is; my story. It is through the use of words that i can share my feelings while sharing my thoughts on how I deal with them. My advice primarily is especially to Stop staring out the window and start staring within deeply. 

And Morning has Broken! Have a safe flight home Bob.

                                            Now's all Gone BOb! Ais Kacang Pantai Dawai.

The Trip to Bujang Valley.

 

                                                                   Way to Go Bob!

Ais kacang (Malay pronunciation: [aɪs ˈkatʃaŋ]; Jawi: ‏اءيس كاچڠ‎), literally meaning "bean ice", also commonly known as ABC (acronym for air batu campur ([air ˈbatu tʃamˈpʊr]), meaning "mixed ice"), is a dessert which is common in Malaysia, Singapore (where it is called ice kachang) and Brunei.^[1][4][5]

                                                   All gone Bob! (Bob Stam from Holland)
 

                                                Ben Ronjen taking a stroll down the jetty.

"Tanjung Dawai Seaside Town is a charming seaside town located on the northwest coast of Kedah, Malaysia. Known for its scenic views of the sea, the town is a popular destination for visitors seeking a laid-back coastal experience. Tanjung Dawai is renowned for its fresh seafood, local fishing culture, and bustling market where dried seafood products such as ikan bilis (anchovies) and salted fish are sold. Visitors can enjoy picturesque sunsets, take boat rides to nearby Pantai Merdeka, or explore local eateries offering delicious traditional Malay dishes. The town is ideal for those looking to experience the local culture and natural beauty of Malaysia’s coastal region." = Experience Kedah.

                                                 It was a Dog Day Afternoon at the jetty

The Lembah Bujang Archaeological Museum is the only museum in Malaysia which exhibits archaeological collections that serves as evidence of the existence of a trade and Hindu/Buddhism propagation center in Southeast Asia from the 3rd. to the 12th century AD. These archaeological evidence clearly shows that Lembah Bujang was a central port which served as a trade center for traders dominating the trading routes between the eastern and western countries especially the Chinese, Indian and Arab traders as well as Malay traders in the Malay archipelago who monopolized spice and exotic jungle goods trade for middle east export. Lembah Bujang was also the first port in southeast Asia via its sea route which functioned as an alternative route to China or Far East to replace the silk road, which connected Chinese and Far Eastern traders by land. Lembah Bujang’s significance as Southeast Asia’s central port was evident in archaeological finds and writings of Chinese and Arab seamen as well as in Indian literatures. These chronicles, dated between the 2nd and 14th century AD, told of the existence of a prosperous and bustling kingdom in Lembah Bujang that was known as the "seat of all felicities". Besides being the Nusantara’s ultimate trading center, Lembah Bujang also the focal point of Hindu/Buddha propagation in Southeast Asia during the 3rd to the 12th century, which proved of the existence of Buddhisme with Pala Mahayana influences from southern India. This faith was brought and practiced by Hindu/Buddhist Indian traders who came trading at Lembah Bujang. - Wikepedia

No Matter the age, It's the style that matters.

My realization while at the Peak of Gunung Jerai.

 You think you have a separate will from God! No You Don't!

Love Creates, Love Destroys, Love has the last laugh.

Shunyamurti Wisdom teachings. SatYoga Institute.

                                            And Lord Krishna plays his flute for the Gopis

"For Vaishnava traditions, the most important representation of the gopis' love and devotion for Krishna is a story in the Bhagavata Purana (10.29-33) by the name of Rasa Lila Panchadhyaya, which translates as "the five chapters on the story of the rasa dance". The bhakti or devotion that the gopis express in this story is believed by the Chaitanya tradition to exemplify the highest form of bhakti. In the story, Krishna's flute music attracts the Gopis' attention, making them leave behind their families and homes so that they can enjoy devotion of Krishna^[10]:"

What is Unconditional Love? Is it the absolute surrender to the Divine Love? Is it the absolute devotion to one's Highest Divine Nature, to the Sublime and the Silence that is? What is Unconditional Love that one holds to be the complete and absolute virtue within one's Self one's own Original Nature? Unconditional Love is the Complete Surrender of all ego based conditional perceptions, the Letting Go of the Shadow Complex. There is no good or evil if and when it is realized completely that there is no Self that witness this. Right and Wrong is a sickness of your mind, said the Buddha and I still believe it to be true even if i do not completely comprehend absolutely what it means but I have the taste of it in my mouth and feel it in my bones. How to live life according to this principle is another story. It may sound simple but it is not easy.

                                  I listen to His whisper in the Silence of my Mind.

You can only defeat your demons one at a time, and the only way is to want nothing, not even to defeat the demon. -Shunyamurti Wisdom Satsang. YouTube.

It is  in the ability to weave together all the contents of the conscious and unconscious mind stuff that one might come close to self discovery or in knowing who you truly are. it is in the ability to connect the dots and sieve through the dross and the pure states of mental equations like the converting of golds from lead that one ight have a glimpse of one's original Buddha Nature, that which was before you were even conceived by your parents. The journey began with the covenant you made with Lord of Creation, when you swore allegiance to uphold your faith in the One True Lord and hold none other than Him as an equal. Your will is His Will and none happens without His Will or with His Blessings. So wake up and smell the roses before it all ends and you miss the boat boat that will take you home or forever lost, drifting in the ocean of misery and pain. Wake Up! and Stay Awake! Don't be fooled by the will of Ignorance and of Maya.  

 

 

Bujang Valley Archaeological Site -Kedah

 

Lembah Bujang or Bujang Valley is located two hours drive from Penang in the State of Kedah northern Malaya. It is the location of one of world's oldest archaeological digs recently discovered and some say older than the Angkor Watt in Cambodia and the Borobudur in Indonesia. The site is estimated to be more than 2000 years old and covers a vast area in the Tanjung Dawai coastal area. It is believed to be a confluence of trading post in ancient times between China in the East and India in the West and the South East Asian group of Peninsular and Island including Thailand, Indonesia and the Philippines which were then known as the Malay Archipelago or The Nusantara.   

The Bujang Valley (Malay: Lembah Bujang) is a sprawling historical complex and has an area of approximately 224 square kilometres (86 sq mi), with the discovery of a set of new iron smelting sites, Sungai Batu site enlarging the settlement area to 1,000 square kilometres (390 sq mi).^[1][2][3] Bujang Valley situated near Merbok, Kedah, between 1,217-metre Mount Jerai in the north and Muda River in the south. It is the richest archaeological area in Malaysia.^[1]

My brother Ben and our friend Bob from Holland took a drive to visit the site and discovered that they have world class well set up Museum for the site which sadly enough not too many Malaysians visit especially not on weekdays and so we pretty much had the whole area to ourselves.

The area consists of ruins that may date more than 1,500 years old. More than 50 ancient pagoda temples, called candi (pronounced as "chandi"), have also been unearthed. The most impressive and well-preserved of these is located in Pengkalan Bujang, Merbok.^[4] The Bujang Valley Archaeological Museum is also located that known as Sungai Batu,^[5][6] excavations have revealed jetty remains, iron-smelting sites, and a clay brick monument dating back to 110 AD, making it the oldest man-made structure to be recorded in Southeast Asia.^[7][8]

The local rulers adopted Hindu-Buddhist Indian cultural and political models earlier than those of Kutai in eastern Borneo, in southern Celebes or Tarumanegara in western Java, where remains showing Indian influence have been found dating from the early 5th century. Relics found in the Bujang Valley are now on display at the archaeological museum. Items include inscribed stone caskets and tablets, metal tools and ornaments, ceramics, pottery, and Hindu icons.^[9]