Who is Maharishikaa and what i like about her.

 Chatted with my long time buddy Jerry Sule who lives in Green Bay, Wisconsin and is presently about to visit the doctor to ascertain if he has kidney problem. He is now in his fifties and i met him when he was a teenager living in the basement of his parents home along with his two other elder brothers John and Joe Sule. Jerry is a plumber and suffers from lower back pains which is not conducive to his job and we have kept in touch over the years. I know I have written of this events with Jerry and his family in my Blog as it was crucial part of my life living in Green Bay during my college years where i was squatting in the basement with the boys as I had no place of my own. Mr. and Mrs. Sule took me under their wings taking care of me like i was one of their kids and I was privileged to have had the opportunity to live in their basement. It was like One in the afternoon there in green Bay and three thirty in the morning here in Malaysia. As usual this is often the time i find myself out of bed and facing the computer, my witching hour. I normally would try to write or make a Blog entry or watch something on You Tube or catch with the latest on Gaza. 

Of late I have been listening to Maharishikaa a spiritual Lady Guru whose teachings is primarily based on the Path of 'Surrender' or as she calls it 'Bending' to the Guru Within. Her teachings also places great emphasis upon 'Being in the here and Now,' Being in touch with the 'Thisness.' Her teachings also emphasizes on the act of servitude to the Universe as part of the healing process in getting in touch with the 'Impulse of the Soul'. Her teachings resonates with my understanding of what entails my spiritual practice, however she is very lucid in her explanations as someone with an awakened mind would. She does not mince words nor was there any sense of sarcasm or spiritual arrogance when she imparts here knowledge and easily admits ignorance when she is lost for answers; a Great Teacher. The kind of Guru I would humble myself before, but I cannot as her beauty would stand in my way of learning spiritual matters, it's just my shadow nature that is still in bondage to lustful desires. So suffice to say I will follow her on You Tube!

 Islam is surrender! Islam means in one form 'Submission' to the Will of the Devine, Allah {SWT} aza wa Jalla. hence being a Muslim has qualified oneself automatically to Maharishikaa's core teaching. And being an ex-Hippie of the early sixties, seventies and having carried around Baba Ram Dass's infamous bible, 'Be Here Now' and after being doped by Eckhart Tolle's works , "The Power of Now," one again had set up for the introduction to Maharishikaa's teachings long before I came into her being.. The quest for Enlightenment and Moksha, having Maha Samadhi experiences or awakening the Kudalini Serpent through Ayahuasca or any other method is not encouraged by this teacher or so I feel. I agree and see the truth in such an intuition as these states of higher or highest consciousness proves nothing to the individual as it would lead the one who saw this experiences ending up in mental homes or homeless beggars who cannot return home to where they used to belong once lost in the limbo of spiritual ecstasy. This is playing with fire and not being able to control it when it burns to its maximum. Furthermore having enlightened beings like Buddha walking around today is not in sync with what is going on; we need men/women who are lost in Devine madness to tackle a mad, mad world. 

Before Enlightenment, Cut wood and carry water.

After Enlightenmant, Cut wood and carry water. 

This is one way the Zen Buddhist handles the problem of achieving Enlightenment; simply nothing special. 

I was very glad when I came upon a video where she mentioned, Servitude. I thought it got lost somewhere in her impeccable consciousness. In Islam 'Servitude' is a formidable form of prayer to the Lord. When one serves His Creation in any form, one serves Him, this is Prayer in Action and it is the most holistic form of healing the soul of any being. Karma Yoga, the Yoga of action is antidote to much of human suffering as it keeps the wayward mind from getting lost in a drift of Maya or Illusion and the realm of Shadow or Darkness.        

"Karma Yoga is the path of selfless action and service towards others, as taught in the Bhagavad Gita. Learn how to practice Karma Yoga with right attitude, motives and surrender to the Devine..." Wikipedia

Most people who complain of being stressed out of having no inspiration or motivation to live out their lives are usually those who find no work to keep them occupied, mentally physically or emotionally, or they are just simply lazy, too lazy to move their butts! I used to make this my practice too as is written at some time in the past in this Blogging, "The Art of Being Lazy." or was it under "The Lazy Man's Club?" It did not take off naturally and so here i am stuck with trying to keep myself occupied while waiting...

                                  Looking at the horizon of the South China Sea in Kelantan.

I raise my hat to the PM of Malaysia for his stand on Palestine and Israel.

 

I am drifting with no sense of direction in mind or at least this is how I have been feeling of late and thus my Blogging  has been put on hold, shelved for lack of genuine and insightful things to share. I have been reading a book by a Malaysian writer entitled, The Spiritual Mind, A mental Miracle. I found the book on the shelve of a collection of books donated by the Museum Galleri T7uanku Fauziah ,{MGTF} donated by its present director, Prof. Hasnul J. Saidon. The end of this year will be the end of his tenure as the director of the Museum and it would be sad to see him leave as he has been a very energetic and creative source of ideas when it comes to running the facility. The book written by Sallina Ismail is very thought provoking especially for me as it seems to almost tie up my own personal 'spiritual search' into a complete whole. I am half way through reading the book and find it very informative as it is based on the teachings of Islam with lots of quotes from the Quran and the Hadith of the Prophet [SAW} which is very refreshing as I rarely find a good straight forward written works based on Islamic principles. These is nothing written about the author form the book and so it is to me a good sign as I am reading the works of an anonymous thinker who i will perhaps discover the identity later on down the road after i have savored the message from the writing. I find it more satisfying not to know whose thoughts I am learning from so i do not allow my mind to formulate any judgment ab9out the writer. I am sure the writer in this case must be a well versed and highly intelligent person to be able to produce such thought provoking works on spirituality.

What is more significant here is the fact that the book came into my hand at the right time in my life when I find myself still drifting like a headless chicken over matters of my soul and my relationship to me Maker also what I might face when the time comes for me to say, Adios! Bye bye, Selamat Tinggal, in the not too distant future. I have read thousands of books in this one lifetime as I enjoy reading and I have read the Holy scripture of many faith and religions, many spiritual Gurus and modern day spiritual savants and  self proclaimed mystiques. I am saturated with too much knowledge when it comes to sex and debauchery through reading and read the whole collection of Jungian works on human mind, am I wise? I do not feel so as wisdom eludes me when I encounter realties in life that i had never had the opportunity to encounter before or when I am simply accosted by the simples of questions like , Who are You? Yes as much as I which to say to myself that I have attained a certain level of awakening, I find myself still drifting in a void of ignorance; hence a book that is able to make me think a little more is a welcome change for now. As a former Zen student and i say former for the first time simply because I do not think I deserve to claim myself as one anymore, I must say the this book is like the stick the slaps me into wakefulness from my drifting slumber. I might even say that it is a Devine gift so I have something to work with to further my understanding of who or what I am and what my purpose is in this so called human experience. Tik tok!, Tik tok! Time waits for no man.

Yes, part and parcel of drifting in the void of emptiness with no aim or destination in sight is loosing sight of what was laid out from the beginning and one has to keep reminding oneself to not become sucked into stupor or worse doubts and despair, of giving up before it is time. I have been meditating a  great deal over my state of consciousness and well being, figuring out what is missing and where i took a wrong turn in this last phase of my journey. I can feel the frustration and boredom creeping in often making me feel that time is wasted or that *I am getting nowhere or worse I am regressing into the mediocrity and mundane. As I kept looking for the cause and cure to this state of affairs I am in I realized that i have slipped from my original intention one of which is to fulfill my obligation towards my Bodhisattva vows; All my ancient twisted karmas, born through, Body Speech and Mind, of Greed, Hate and Ignorance, I now fully avow!  How often in the past i kept forgetting this vow I have made to myself during every full moon ceremony along with my practicing companions at the Green Dragon Zen Temple at Green Gulch Farm in California and find myself drifting rudderless in this realm of Maya. Like a feather in the wind I find myself blown here and there having no hope or intention and declaring to myself that my life is meaningless. I feel defeated when I am in this state and keep looking for someone or something to blame or try hard to find an antidote to heal my malaise and I found this book on the shelf in the Museum at USM. A book that belongs to Hasnul J.Saidon, the Director of the Museum, my brother a fellow seeker or so I believed; no sense in thinking about it anymore, someone whose time has come for me to let go of. Herein, the devil is in the details of which I will not delve into any further.

Servitude! I keep forgetting this word, my mantra which I have equated with my existence in this realm especially as a Muslim, a servant of Allah. Love and Compassion towards oneself but Servitude towards others, when Love and Compassion is inherent within, servitude becomes the action that one worship the Lord through. How do I serve my Lord? I serve His Creation, I assume the role as the Vicegerent or warden of His Creation; I serve as a Bodhisattva in keeping my vows towards serving humanity and all sentient beings. How dare i declare myself being bored in this life? If I am any younger I would have volunteered to serve in Palestine as an aid worker and welcome an Israeli bullet in the process. However being past my prime I can only howl like a wolf from afar my anguish and pain in witnessing the atrocities being committed towards the people of Palestine, Sudan, Yemen, Syria and the rest of the Muslim world. I have no excuse for being inactive in my cause towards serving humanity and ashamed at becoming a witness to the blatant disregard for human lives and dignity not to mention the degradation of the Planet as a whole; not on my watch!

"Mother Earth is my Employer! She pays me with clean Air, clean Water, clean Food clean Land and from that you have a clean Spirit!..'we live in a time where our spirit can be eaten, learn to protect the spirit...they will have machines for ancestors  and so we are in that world now. AI has taken away that which is and put us into that could be, technology has no wisdom, its a language of the mental logic." - Tiokasin Ghosthorse {Native American} - 'Something Beautiful for the World.' 'Reflections of Life' -You Tube 

Today I listened to the Prim Minister of Malaysia spoke before the Arab - Islamic Summit in Riyadh and it was uplifting to my spirit as a Malaysian. He may be hitting at the Hornets' nest in making these statements for humanity as a whole and will receive repercussions from within and without, but it was an expression that relfects the anguish of humanity that needed to be told! KUDOS!!

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Happy Deepavali! - 2024

                                                    Lord Shiva Nataraja, The Cosmic Dancer.

 Happy Deepavali, the Hindu festival of Lights or The Triumph of Good over Evil that is celebrated all over the Hindu world just as Eid Adzhar and Eid Fitri is celebrated all over the Muslim world and in Malaysia being a multi racial country we celebrate almost all the various festivals celebrated by Hindus, Malays and Chinese including the other indigenous people of Sabah and Sarawak. Hence in this country we have lots of Holidays when you add the National Day, the King's Birthday and so forth. By right everyone should be more relaxed than other Nations for having allot more days off from work. We never had any major wars except once or twice in my lifetime where political imbalance caused a racial riot or two, otherwise this nation has known relative peace and tranquility in the past 75 years a far cry from the fate of Palestine, the Hell on Earth. Just thinking about it robs one of the pride of being a Human in this day and age. Over the past few years I have celebrated Deepavali by going to dinner at my friend Dato Gary Nair's 'Passion of Karalla' Indian restaurant one of the most popular Nasi Daun Pisang or Banana Leaf restaurant in Penang. But this year I was not motivated to join the festivity there but instead was invited by young Mr.Tyson who lives downstairs on the 6th. floor with his Mom as his father passed away three years ago from cancer, for a lamb curry and drink. 

                                  Nothing is more colorful than a gathering of Indian Ladies

The whole of last month was somewhat a drag in more than one ways and especially in the financial department whereby I had to swallow my pride and made several loans and credits from friends in order to avoid pestering my children about not having enough to go grocery shopping. However, Such Is, it is sometimes easier and less frustrating to give in and take the next best way out than to face reality head on. I had to skip doing what i should have or could have and instead surrender to accepting the defeat of not having what was needed to serve the material existence. My bad! I keep reading from the advice given about old farts like me having to be prepared financially for my old age, but too late now as i have no pension funds to fall back on and not even a savings account to my name and as it is I am totally dependent on my two children, but for how long? I have been closely observing the scenario that plays itself out when there is tension in the home, how i felt being taken for granted or being rude to. At times i almost recoiled with anger for having allowed myself to be sucked into this predicament. My bad! I gambled and I think I made  a few wrong choices for the right reasons and now I can see that I will be paying the price as time goes by and I cannot stand up literally to fend for myself. This is what happens when you wear too many mask in one scenario, you loose sight of which is the real you that can stand the test of time.

                                                                        Who Am I? 

 

I believe the Historical Buddha was a Prophet.

 " Who looks outside, dreams, Who looks inside, awakens."  - C.G. Jung

The quote by Jung encapsulates the essence of the ancient wisdom teachings on human consciousness and spiritual awakening. Man exist as though looking through a window from within a small confined space or looking from outside into it. Both these aspects of his existence are equally valid as they complement each other, one cannot be without the other no matter how we look at it. We cannot let go totally of one without letting go of the other and it is only with the ability to let go of both or uniting both in a fusion can we become a 'whole being.' To become a whole, complete and perfect is the goal if there is a goal to be achieved for man in his journey through this mortal existence. When the outer and inner aspects of one's being is completely realized and grasped a hold of we become a complete individual acting as one complete whole as the non duality school of thoughts perceive life to be. This happens only when one is able to merge what is within and what is out there with every action taken or when there is no line drawn between what is inner space and what is outer space. This is when dreams becomes reality and reality becomes dreams and when the two is one there is no one looking from within or from without; the observer and the observed is one.

It is almost an impossibility to arrive at this level of existence as a human being especially in this day and age when we are totally bombarded by distraction from every corner and through all our senses 24/7. It would take an enormous struggle to be able to bring our mind to this state of complete abolishment of the dichotomy between our outer and inner states of consciousness. Man is inherently equipped with a 'dual thinking mind,' a mind that is split between what is 'The real' and the 'Unreal.' What is right and what is wrong and so forth; the balance of opposites. It is also in our human nature that we have the tendency to create mental formations in the forms of narratives and stories about about who we are or how we came to be. Subjected to our genetical, cultural and religious make up, we grow up into individuals beings with our mind created or conditioned selves each wearing his/her own mask and playing the role of our allotted existence as part of humanity as a whole. Science has proven beyond doubt the complexities of our human mental and psychic tendencies in relation to our physical senses and attributes. Our mind is and its complexities is still beyond the understanding of the schools of sciences associated to its studies. Questions like what is human consciousness, the human subconscious or the collective unconscious etc. are still being grappled with among researchers. We, as a specie, are still groping in the dark as to the understanding of who we truly are and the what, why and the how of who we are. 

There is no doubt that we as a species has evolved quite rapidly over the past few thousand years putting us at the top of the food chain and the most intelligent specie on the planet, however we as a specie have we also evolved to become the most destructive among all other species that threatens the very safety of this planet itself. When and where did we go wrong? Carl Jung rightfully claimed that we have a 'shadow.' Our ugly side, the side that lurks behind the scene and creates havoc and chaos just because it is in its nature to be so. In the religious sense we have negative entities, devils and demons as our unseen companions seeking to influence our every move and actions we take. Most of humanity either live in ignorance or simply in denial of such influences that affects their everyday lives. These are those who live 'looking out' and in dreams and they are often awaken with a nightmare from their sleep. The shadow just as in the physical shadow that walks alongside us cast by light on our body, is always with us and makes its appearance every now and then when we are off balance like having too much of a good thing or simply drifting loosing our sense of awareness/balance.  

The Buddha, I always refer to the Buddha simply because I studied Buddhism and try to abide by its teachings and principles; I do not and will never worship the Buddha. As I mentioned earlier the Buddha is considered to be Al Khidr, the immortal soul in Islam who met and taught Moses about Patience and later met Sheikh Kadir Jilani and Ibn Arabi according to their stories. For interested party you can Google these. Einstein declared the Buddha's teaching to be the most scientific approach to life and this is how I saw it from the moment I understood Buddhism. My faith is completely in Allah aza wa jala, Lod of the Worlds. Islam is the religion of my faith. I practice Buddhism when in facing my day to day trials and tribulations as I would now and then practice Taoist philosophy or Vedanta. To me they are all a part and parcel of the manifestations of the Lord's Will, and there is not a leaf that drops from the branch in the forest the He is not aware of; for He is One - Ahad. To believe otherwise is limiting myself from being a part of the Whole I am not claiming to be correct or right in my understanding, as I can be wrong in many of my assumptions, however right or wrong, it is just an error of my own mind and it is and has always been my intention to right my errors as I encounter every test and challenge laid across my path. As I have often admitted to myself and to my Maker, I am a sinner, a transgressor, one who have challenged even God Himself during one of my dark night of the soul and as such I have a whole lot of cleaning up to do before i get anywhere near the Seat of the Lord. However he is to me most of all oft. forgiving and Most Merciful and this I hold to be the Truth I live by. 

""The wound is the way that Light enters you." - Rumi

                 

Yes, She did told me that there would be days like this... my Mother.

 I don't know where to begin anymore and there's no lack of topics to begin with, however there is a lack  of will to put anymore thoughts down in writing; call it laziness or call it giving up what has become short of an addiction. I have made the promise to write and write I will this Saturday morning while it is raining outside my window of the twelve story building. I have almost finished my oatmeal with banana breakfast, fed the cat with her "Temptations" cat treat, the only most expensive food in the cat market that she will eat other than the 'Tuna in Water' can another expensive food for humans that she favors: Furby has been with us for almost 6-7 years now; She is the Soul of the home.

                                          Making my Blog entry on a Rainy Saturday Morning.
 

The past week has been a bit of a roller coaster ride for my psycho/spiritual mind, whatever that entails, it has been mostly due to my own lack of clarity and weak mindedness in dealing with simple matters in life especially when it comes to money! It seems like one never learn even after seventy odd years of dealing with having and not having cash in you wallet, it is still a haunting ignorant experience that causes unnecessary agitation within and without. Whatever happen to the years of loading the mind with altruisms on how to manage one's life like positivity and looking away from wanting and lacking? It is all for nothing or so it seems, like one has never been poor like down in the gutter poor, or one has never knew what it felt like living the Life of Riley, higher than a Hog! Such Is as the Buddha used to mutter to Himself as He walked into the forest from one village to another witnessing human frailties; the cause of suffering. It is commonly discussed among the Muslim Ulama' that the  Historical Buddha was Al Khidr or the Muslim version of the Awakened One yet not quite a Prophet who like the Buddha left his home and family to find out the Truth. Perhaps and I would not be at al surprised as I love both these characters as my spiritual guides in my studies in the past.  One can always Google who AlKhidr is or was in Islam.

                                             It is still pouring out there and its good!

The Planet is going through a turmoil in the form of climatic and human imbalances which is gradually escalating into a full blown catastrophe and there seems to be no end to it. It seems it would take a miracle if not direct Devine Intervention in order to make peace and stability to prevail as inhuman hubris has created for us a mess of a situation that is leading us towards our own demise and not to mention the Planet itself when push comes to shove as it already is in the process of materializing. Indeed it seems we are living out our Collective Devine prophecies which spells out the final stage of our human existence and the question in everyone's mind is, am I living the end of Time. Personally I know I am living the end of my time which at 75 is about, 'that time.' But for my children and theirs? I pray that it is in their wisdom not to dwell upon it too much and 'make hay while the sun is still shining!'

          If and when times gets rough sing your song out loud - House of the Rising Sun.
     

...and nothing comes from nothing, nothing ever would. Such is, if one can drop off all this petty trivia of life and adopt to the simplicity in living this is the beginning of the end of suffering; where there's no 'I', there is none who suffers. This is Sunyata, this is the principle essence of the teachings of the Buddha; Emptiness.   

Ageing is a gift, Perfection is an illusion.

 The portal is opening, Ben was saying to Eric and me while walking to the cars from the Museum Galleri Tuanku Fauziah -USM after witnessing the launching of the Hero Sedekad, Hasnul J. Saidon's solo exhibition whcih was officiated by the former Asst. Chancellor of the Univesity. "The portal is oppening hsaid twice and it baffled me. Out of the blue Ben has turned into a Mystique, a Guru or something! The subject was never discussed after that as we went our separate ways, but the incident raised my eyebrows a little bit. Now it has got me to thinking, what Portal is this guy talking about? It will come, it will reveal itself all in good time. In the meantime, sit back and enjoy the writing, the resonance of the Theta and Delta waves coming through the earphones helping to relax and be in the moment while getting the mind cells rejuvenated and reenergized; I am synchronized with the Universe. I am still poor as a church mouse but i feel like I am living the life of a reluctant messiah, the wannabe Bodhisattva, the Pseudo Atman, I feel like I am not me! I don't know who I am, I am lost and drifting in the sea of Maya, or hate and delusion, I am drowning in the quagmire of ignorance and fear : it is allot tougher than you think in trying to become awakened, it takes a whole lot justifications on the whys and why nots and it is a lifelong agony of running circles to self hat and self love. It is a long tedious journey and you realize and also come to recognized all in vain, all for nothing, all buried in the sand. With this futile realization I have come accept the fact there is not much that can be done but let this life play out by itself for as long as my allotted time permits me. I surrender myself and all that I hold holy and relevant to myself I give up, I am responsible for who I am or who I thought myself to be anymore, I plead to become freed from all my thoughts and concepts, dreams and fantasies, faith and understanding as of this moment; can I do this? What do I get for selling out my Ego, my pride and dignity, what  prize do I look forward to? The only portal I know that is opening is the one that keeps letting off gas in my behind.

I am presently listening to, 'Floods of Love and Abundance,' Delta Brain Hemisphere Synchronization a video by The Power of You on You Tube. Just to get the info to the video right is an effort; I am getting easily tired in my old age. Why do I listen to these modern day technology in manipulating the brain functions towards higher and more creative state of consciousness. Perhaps it does have its merit and the brain does goes through some form of transformation towards a more heightened state of consciousness and even though i do not really to subject my mental state in any form of conditioning, a part of me feels that listening to these magnetic frequencies on a long period of time is a very strong and effective meditation. The sound waves are carefully tuned by those who pioneered these mental tools acts as a flow of vibrations that affects every cell in the body. This vibration due to the fact that it remains constant acts a monotonous hypnotic energy that transforms every cell that resonates with the frequency that is sent forth and albeit Delta or Theta waves every cell become unified into a single fluid in motion. It is a much more potent technique than repetitious chanting or counting the breath. One just have to allow the sound to do its work without any thought about it, it becomes your back ground music and helps to keep your mind from drifting too much. I started listening soundwaves a few years now off and on just as an experiment and I must say it does have an effect. I consider this technological discovery as a boon to mankind especially those who are on the road to find out.

 The aim of meditation for me is the cessation of thoughts from my consciousness, to become empty of feelings, of perceptions, of impulses  and even of consciousness itself, this is my understanding of what meditation is; Meditation is and None who meditates. Allot of what the Buddha said makes little sense if one have small minds, however with an enlightened mind one finds simple truths in them that makes a vast difference when applied to everyday life; like, 'Suffering is, None who suffers.' When the I ceases to exist, suffering is no more; no I, no sufferer. Hence the virtue of Sunyata or Emptiness.  "The not knowing of who you are is the Being." As Shunyamurti expounded in one of his Satsang. I am not willing nor am I clinging on to my preconceptions of who I am, I know I have to at the end of the day give it all up and walk empty and alone towards the final stretch of my journey with no crutches nor baggage, just naked as the day I came to be, my Original Nature, my Buddha Nature, my Ruhul Kudus, my Essence of Being Sat, Chit, Ananda. No lack or poverty, no wealth or fame shall hold me down, no matter if the road gets too rough or the hill too steep to climb, I will continue a step at a time and breath for breath to make my way towards the portal of liberation, towards the Throne of God, towards merging into the Supreme Consciousness of Being :- I Am, That I am. Tat Tvam Asi! 'Ana Al Hak!, I am the Truth! The Word and Sound is One, OM, tat sat. WallahuAlam, Only He knows. 

    

Who are The Chosen Ones?

 There is no doubt that life is full of human suffering and it comes in all forms some of which are inherent and cannot be avoided like physical deformation from birth. The there are those whose life has been and will always be abject poverty like it was meant to be and for these it seems like there is no light at the end of the tunnel as a matter of fact there not even a tunnel. Then there are those, victims of war and conflicts due to human failures, these are the present moment most apparent practically all over the world. Numberless becomes refugees seeking safety from one country to another and often reviled and sneered at by the most cruel and unwelcoming people of the country they sought refuge in. This is briefly what humanity is or has become, soulless and uncaring except for one's own personal well being and survival. When the Buddha said that ,"Life is suffering," He was refuted by those whose life are not affected by any form of hardship when it comes to especially material wealth, fame and fortune has been their inheritance. Most of these would refuse to even acknowledge the presence of the poor and the destitute much less help them in any way; these are the ones who live at the top of the garbage heap flaunting their wealth and fame like they were born to deserve it. 

According to the world's oldest Religion, Hinduism, humanity is living out the final stage of the Cosmic calendar called the Kali Yuga,(Google this for more details) and as such humanity is headed for a major change in the form of destruction and procreation, like spinning coin that is about to stop spinning and fall flat, except that through Devine or Cosmic intervention the coin will rebound and continue its spinning anew. This is portrayed in the image of the Dancing Nataraja {Shiva} or the Cosmic Dancer, Shiva the Destroyer and the Procreator. In the Judeo, Christian and Islamic believe, humanity is approaching the 'End of Days" or as the Malay Muslims calls it 'Akhir Zaman.' Man is fast digging his own grave knowingly or otherwise. It is a self fulfilling prophecy that the Good Books have revealed, the approach of Armageddon, the Planet is about to be blown asunder, (by Nuclear wars?). There are those who even are zealously welcoming this event as a form of honoring their faith to their Gods. These are those who have had enough with this life and wish to see an end to this illusory mental formations that man has been conditioned with. Then there are those who still have great faith in themselves, the ones who have awakened to some form of truth through constant study and devoted practices of self discovery and the achievement of Enlightenment or Liberation from these delusions that we call life and living. These minority who exist within every faith and religion are the vanguard of humanity's survival as a specie that will rebound and procreate life after all is said and done. These are the Buddhas, the Javan Mukhtar, the Yogis and Rishis, the Sufis and Wali/s, the Saints and Savants, the Pure Hearted and Immovable and imperturbable Spirits. These are the Chosen Ones!

The Chosen Ones are those who have awakened to the true nature of their existence and are in servitude towards the well being of humanity at large and they serve their God, the Universe the Cosmic Consciousness or by whatever Name they call their Lord and Creator whom I call Allah Subhana huwaTaala as a Muslim. The Chosen Ones are the Bodhisattvas by Buddhist virtues and have vowed to return to this realm to assist more beings towards liberation or free from Karmic laws of cause and effect. They are the ones who serve humanity in these times of chaos and degradation, they act as teachers and Gurus, Friends and Companions lending a helping hand by kindly bending to ease the burden of others. They help to make sense out of all the non-sense that is manifesting all round us today and leading human mind and spirits towards the power of faith and surrender to the All Mighty Lord of Creation, Lord of Mercy and Compassion. The Chosen Ones eliminate fear and doubts out of the equation of facing the trials and tribulations that humanity face today, their weapon of choice is Unconditional Love, Pure and Unadulterated Truth.

Chosen Ones do not have any idea that they are the Chosen Ones until they are being confronted by the higher order or greater mind or Super Consciousness or the Universe itself or God and inducted into the servitude of humanity; they have to go though the rites of passage to become chosen. The most highly evolved beings through the processes of spiritual practices or self realization are most likely to become inducted as a Chosen One in the service of the Infinite Consciousness of Being or the Servitude to God. Chosen Ones have committed Ego death in order to arrive at their true being of who they are and thus harbors no claim of any action as their own in the service of the All Mighty towards humanity, His Creation; no action and no expectation of rewards to be gained. Chosen Ones in essence do not exist except in the service to his Lord and Creator.

 

Rambling over the present state of my mind.

 

"Sunday Morning woke up yawning filled the pool for a swim..." What or who am I still persistently  kept asking, this same simple question for lack or better things to dream about. I kept going down one rabbit hole after another over the years carrying this question like a Koan, a ball of fire under my belly, burning painfully for an answer; the Ultimate and Complete Truth... the Nature of who I am. I am more than aware that it has become a game to keep my fingers busy and my eyes still alive from seeing the letters and words that are forming as I deal with this simple issue of ,Who Am I? I realize that its beginning to sound worse than a broken record, but it is what it is, if one has an understanding of what Koan is in the Zen Buddhist tradition, one would appreciate better of what it means for me in my practice to have a dream/fantasy journey of 'Self Discovery.' A never ending story of one's own and shared with the entire Internet Plane of Humanity. The numbers are exciting even if they are meaningless for what i am doing or hoping to achieve. Looking at it from my mental health point of view, I must say I have been writing more and more about myself, my thoughts and dreams and so fort, who I cheated on and whose life i destroyed, whose confidence I betrayed, and the list can go on and I say to myself with whole hearted surrender, "Guilty as Charged to every count Your Honor!" Yes, before i end this Ramblings for good and move on to the next plane of existence, I would like to try and savor what it is like to become fully awakened and touch the veil of Enlightenment.

The answer, the simple truth to the significance of this Koan is right before my wyes and has been there all these while, however I had to take many detours getting to where i am at and along these side roads and byways I saw myself more and more as I become a witness to life unfolding before me; in moment like these I would kick myself a kick in the butt to wake up from the Illusion that i am being sucked into as I slowly lull to sleep. On a personal level I would take a walk or a shower or simply take a nap, however on the spiritual level I would write it all down as I am doing right at this moment. 

 "It's a long, long Road,

From which there is no return!

That takes us to where, who knows where?!..." 

With age and some understanding of the nature of what it is to be human with mindfulness practice of loving Kindness towards others especially those in need, I have come to accept the fact that I am now in a state of simply living life while preparing for the inevitability of facing old age and what it entails. There is no turning back and all the bridges have been burned behind me, there is only stepping forward with a more careful steps and lighter load on my back and in my mind; a step towards enlightenment? It seems like there really is no perfect way to live except through making imperfect choices and honest errors, each one of us has his or her own way in the hope of living the perfect life; what is perfect life? I often ask myself and honestly accept that my life after all these years now that I am approaching the final chapters of my days, I find that there is really good answer except that for me if one average happiness more so than sadness, do more good deeds than destructive ones, have more sympathetic/compassionate feelings than than self serving mentality, chances are one is living or have lived a good life. The less regrets one have the more positive an indicator that one is living or has lived a good life and being able to look back with a smirk or a laughter at what has been or what could have been, expressing thank you Lord for all the blessings that You have bestowed upon this undeserving servant of yours, this is like a bonus added to your life well lived. 

Maintaining a lucid mind, being able to drive in heavy traffic, being able to cook and do dishes and laundry, making it a daily practice to feed the pigeons and water the plants every morning is considered to be an accomplishment for a man my age or so they keep saying on You Tube. I am addicted to Internet in more than one way and it has been a very crucial part of my life considering the number of hours I spend everyday surfing the net for one reason or another. It is ironic that for one who meditates to remove the cluttering of images and information and various other thought formations, I am addicted to the Internet, to You Tube, to Netflix and a host of podcasts so much so that by right I should be having a mental overload by now. I consider my mind still lucid for whatever it is worth and as a matter of fact i find my mind more so expressive than it has ever been. It makes more sense too than it has ever been and it is perhaps because of my more intense and focused meditative practices which includes mindfulness walking and how i relate to others on top of my daily sittings, my mind it seems has become more resilient and tolerant towards whatever i encounter on the external; I much less judgmental and not easily prone to anger and if I find myself succumbing to the negative self expressions i would find myself immediately asking God for forgiveness even for having the thoughts let alone give it expression. What can i say at the age of 75! I have lived it my way?! 

Is life a waste of time? To some it is and to others it is not as it a relative issue depending upon the state of mind and existence the individual finds himself or if he even cares to ask himself such a question. Asking the question itself would be a waste of time to most people, like spends day and night trying to answer a question like, what is life, or who an I or why am I here, is there God? No God? what is sin? Why is life considered suffering? In order to keep a lucid mind I ask myself these simple questions and make it a challenge for the mind like a Zen Koan. When the mind becomes lazy, when it stops looking for answers or simply allow for things to slide and live a life of a drifter, having no motivations or goals, no sense of Purpose, Love and of appreciation of Beauty, then I would worry about my state of mind. 

My state of mins is of late pretty much occupied with the suffering that is happening to humanity all around the Globe. With the exposure accorded by the Internet and other various media services, it is hard not to be affected by what is happening. "If you can pluck the lotus without wetting the fingers, you would not be affected by life's trials and tribulations, so says most of the religious teachings, however it is easier said than done. "Life is suffering," said the Buddha and he also said, "None who suffers." I am still figuring that one out.

Rambling on about insignificant matters...

 

                                        A Farmer looking at some Tools on Chulia Street, Georgetown

He who truly knows Allah will love Him, worship Him and show Ikhlass (sincerity) towards Him.

Ikhlass (sincerity) is like Jannah (Heaven) for a Mu&"men. It is the soul of the pious and a secret between Allah and His slave. Ikhlass thwarts evil thoughts and Shaytan&"s (Satan) whispers to the slave. It means directing all of your actions to Allah and no one else. The Mu&"men must not seek the pleasure of anything or anyone except Allah. He must never seek praise or tributes from people, but always expect rewards from only Him alone.

"Say O Prophet, He is the One and Indivisible, Lord of Creation, Lord of mercy and Compassion, The Creator of the heavens and the Earth....Allahu Akhbar!

A Wannabe Rock Star who fell short of his Aim, at Mike's Place on Love Lane, Georgetown,Pg.

Al Ikhlas means 'The Sincere', the pure and the Blameless. These are the attributes of The Lord among the One Hundred Beautiful Names that the One goes by. The perfect man lives by these attributes thus emulating Allah's Image, Al Insan Kamil is he who bears the attributes and virtues of the Divine completely with knowing it, he closest to the Prophets and Mystiques, but he is unaware of his status and continues to live like a beggar on the sidewalk of life. Be as it may that life is an illusion, that all that can be heard, seen and taste are all nonexistent except in the mental faculty or the conditioned mind. You see and and experience what is before you and behind you, above and below you and you experience what is within you and without and at the end of the day you drop dead and just before, you have a replay of your live like a documentary on a  slide show on a screen=wall. Each passing image triggers all kinds of thoughts and emotions within you, like good bad, guilt and happiness and you are entertained to the very creation of space and time if you had understood thus far and if you don't it stops there right where you are  supposed to be and realizing that ' In the End Nothing Really Matters!' 

Aspiring to become a Man of wisdom and knowledge with the heart of Love! Kasih!

Created in the Image of his Maker, perfect man maintains his composure under any circumstances filling the role he is created to play while dancing to the rhythm that Universe is vibrating on. I am not and never claim to be a preacher or even pious by the right sense of the word, but i like to try my best to remain genuine and sincere, especially in my faith and fortitude towards my Lord and Creator. The Lord is ONe and only ONE; I do not exist!

The Lord does not need to justify His presence not to any other than Himself. Not believing in Him does not hurt Him in any way. The sooner I learn to surrender to this simple truth the better for me to find more peace and tranquility within and without without any fear or guilt for my actions; I am not the doer of my actions, I am my Lord's instrument in action.

"According to George Sale, this chapter is held in particular veneration by Muslims, and declared, by Islamic tradition, to be equal in value to a third part of the whole Quran.^[3][4][5] It is said to have been revealed during the Quraysh Conflict with Muhammad in answer to a challenge over the distinguishing attributes of God, Muhammad invited them to worship.^[6]

Al-Ikhlas is not merely the name of this surah but also the title of its contents, for it deals exclusively with Tawhid. The other surahs of the Quran generally have been designated after a word occurring in them, but in this surah the word Ikhlas has occurred nowhere. It has been given this name in view of its meaning and subject matter."- -- Wikipedia.

  

  

Surah AlFalak or the The Dawn verse for removing the veils,{of ignorance}

 Al-Falaq or The Daybreak^[1] (Arabic: ٱلْفَلَقِ, al-falaq) is the 113th and penultimate chapter (sūrah) of the Qur'an. Alongside the 114th surah (Al-Nas), it helps form the Al-Mu'awwidhatayn. Al-Falaq is a brief five ayat (verse) surah, asking God for protection from evil:

۝^[2] Say, "I seek refuge in the Lord of daybreak,^{[3][o 1]}

۝ From the evil of His creation ^{[p 1]}

۝ And from the evil of darkness when it settles^{[q 1]}

۝ And from the evil of the blowers in knots^{[5][r 1]}

۝ And from the evil of an envier when he envies.^[3][9]

One of my most favorite surah is the Al Falak or The Dawn and this I had memorized since I was a boy learning how to pray at the mosque on Fridays growing up in Sungai Pinang among my Muslim Brothers and sisters and the rest of the relatives and friends. I am emphasizing this detail simply because i was raised a Buddhist at the same time as the Devil they say is in the details read my Blog! This short surah was among the five surah I had memorized just to qualify for a complete prayer. But as I got to learn the meaning of what is revealed I held on to it as part of my armor to shield myself against evil or negative forces. I grew up in a mangrove swamp or tidal wave coastal area and the rest I leave it up to one's imagination or read my Blog for more details. So why did I chose to learn a few verses from the Quran was because I grew up having to deal with being afraid of the dark and needed some form of security blanket. On many occasions reciting this verse had kept me from harms way throughout my life. I can say this is one of the verses hat had kept me close to Allah {SWT}. I realize that I cannot urge my friends to learn this short verse especially if they are not Muslims for the benefit I have discovered for myself over the years and still does; learn this verse it is one of the most protective prayer seeking refuge in the All Mighty Lord of The Worlds from all kinds of seen and unseen attacks and evil intentions that we face with every moment for as long as we are breathing in and out often unknowingly, unconsciously.

We are very fragile creatures and we don't know how fragile we are until we run short of breath and struggling to take the next inhalation to happen but it did not come, and you panic, and you catch yourself and calm down the mind from loosing it, you take a slow breath and recite the first verse that comes to mind and you surrender yourself to whatever next ...innalillahi wainnalillahi rajiun, From You i came, unto You I return...I Am No More. It is much better than "OH shit!" or "OH My God!" ...I can keep going on when it comes the subject of death but I will stop here and move on. The next less negative subject than Death is Fear! All my life I have had to deal with my Fears. I keep on writing about it over and over just so I can makes sense out of it, so that I less haunted by it so that I can claim for my self back the Devine Nature in me. I am more than meets than meets the eye, at least i keep reminding myself this that I am Whole, Complete and Perfect! Strong and Powerful! Loving and Compassionate! Harmonious and Happy! And I can do what I Will to Do! Insha'Allah! So Help me God. Just to be reminded it took 75 odd years to realize something so simple as this, 

Part of why I write what I am writing thus far is because I am in a way answering those who wantonly criticize religions and faith of others and have the audacity to make claims over claiming the existence of God or otherwise making a mockery out of religious practices of others and so forth on the Internet. I always believe having a healthy respect of other people's faith and believes. There no right or wrong religion and no right or wrong faith, to me there is only Faith, Unconditional Faith and I have my faith in the few verses of the Quran and would recite them in my times of need and my meditation periods. As a Buddhist one would take refuge in the Triple Jewels, The Buddha, Dharma and Sangha! As a Christian we take refuge in the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit and as in Hinduism there are millions of Gods and Deities one can take refuge or take protection from. In Christianity, the Crucifix is a potent Symbol of The Lord's Divine Power in this material realm but in Islam there is no symbol to cling on to or make a crutch out of; all there is, is only unconditional faith and complete surrender to your Maker. 

"I seek Refuge in the Lord of Dawn!,

From the Evil of His C[c]reation!"

Try to wrap the full meaning of these first two lines of the Surah around your head. The Lord of Daybreak, the Lord of Dawn, the Lord of the Rising Sun or Sunrise! It is a matter of interpretation to each an individual mind and most minds simply do not think about it, not

anymore. Suria Namaskar or salutations to the Sun every morning is a very good form of Yoga exercise to start the day whereas the Muslims have the Subuh or Fajr prayer to perform just as the Sun is about to rise. 

'From the E{e}vils of His C[c}reation.

Off course God creates evil although not in His image still there is not a thing that is not God created, good and evil included. Man has free choice and intelligence and he is put in this world as an expression, a manifestation,  as an actor in part of a divine play: man is expendable. His ticket out of this predicament is through waking up to the reality of his life, his existence, Who is he? Who Am I? 'He who knows himself knows his Lord.' Getting to really know the Lord one has to awaken to what this creation is all about. It is allot of work to get there for most as it has taken 75 odd yrs. for me and still I am drifting sometimes in the dark loosing my sight of the light.  

    

 

What is the benefit of the Ayat Kursi - If you think you know Islam.

 Allahu laaa ilaaha illaa huwal haiyul qai-yoom; laa taakhuzuhoo sinatunw wa laa nawm; lahoo maa fissamaawaati wa maa fil ard; man zallazee yashfa'u indahooo illaa be iznih; ya'lamu maa baina aideehim wa maa khalfahum; wa laa yuheetoona beshai 'immin 'ilmihee illa be maa shaaaa; wasi'a kursiyyuhus samaa waati wal arda wa la ya'ooduho hifzuhumaa; wa huwal aliyyul 'azeem.

Allah! There is no god but He - the Living, the Self-subsisting, Eternal. No slumber can seize Him nor Sleep. His are all things in the heavens and on earth. Who is there can intercede in His presence except as he permits? He knows what (appears to His creatures As) Before or After or Behind them. Nor shall they compass aught of His knowledge except as He wills. His throne doth extend over the heavens and on earth, and He feels no fatigue in guarding and preserving them, For He is the Most High, the Supreme (in glory)."

It is said that Ayat Kursi is one of the most powerful verse in the Holy Quran in terms of its ability to ward off evil and also the deep significance of its meaning, 

For the past few months I have been making an effort to memorized this verse and one of the ways this happens is by listening to it on the You Tube repeatedly every night before i fall asleep. I have always held that this verse holds the potent energy that deters if not expels any negative anergy that seeks to impose their presence on to me or my home and family and thus by playing by on the I-pad while I sit and meditate helps to keep my mind from being pulled away from my focus or concentration and also helps to guard me against any 'spiritual attacks' by negative elements. I truly believe in this protective capability of the verses in the Quran mostly through personal experiences over the years of my life. As a teenager I experienced a 'demonic attack' that happened as soon as I was about to fall asleep. It came in the form of a buzzing sound in my ears and it would grow louder and louder and this happened aver a long period of time like a few months. I was scared in the beginning but after a while i got used to it and eventually even got to look forward to it, often saying to myself ,Oh oh, here it comes. I would feel like there was an entity laying on top of me and I was helpless even tried as I would to fight it off but only to wake up sweating and finding myself not moved at all from the position I was in when I was fell asleep. It eventually came to the state when I started hearing a voice screaming loud in my ear saying that it was going to kill me and this was when I freaked out and fought back with the verses from the Quran especially calling out the Azan, the phenomena stopped after I started reciting the verses every time I was attacked. This episode happened when I was attending high school while living in Kuala Terengganu and it was then that i was converted to Islam and had learned to recite a few verses of the Quran which was mandatory for the purpose of performing the Salat. I also had joined the Malay Art of Self Defense where we were required to recite a few relevant verses for the purpose of protection while performing our practices. It was being involved with the martial art training that gave me the courage to fight back these attacks and putting an end to it. 

As part of the initiation into the spiritual nature of the Martial Art or Silat Seni Gayong as it was called, I was allowed to go through a ritual where I was introduced to a spiritual guide or partner and this involved the recitation of verses from the Quran. It was during this ritual that i first felt what it was like to be possessed and the feeling of being in a vacuum and out the body state of consciousness. I have related this event previously in this Blog and so I will not delve much further into it. However the experience left me to have strong believe in the fact that the verses from the Holy Quran carries a lot of weight when recited with strong conviction and purpose, it has its own power and energy that can thwart away any danger from happening to you. This is why most Muslim would recite, BismillahirRahman nir Rahim  before making any decision or take any action even to eat or to leave the house. It is most advisable to recite pertinent verses before one goes to sleep as this is when one is most vulnerable to various forms of attacks by negative forces like what is known as Incubus and Succubus, bad spirits that take advantage of one while asleep.[Google it}. Verses from the Quran when recited with strong faith and determination can heal or even remove entities that possesses an individual as in an exorcism, however one has to be truly strong in one's believe and faith to do so and the Ayat Kursi is one of the most potent and commonly used verse for this purpose. 

"In the Islamic faith, there are many verses from the Quran that hold immense significance and are believed to possess great power and blessings. One such verse is Ayatul Kursi, which is often referred to as the Throne Verse. This powerful verse is found in Surah Al-Baqarah and is recited by Muslims around the world for its spiritual benefits and protection." 

No, no, I am not interested in convincing anyone if Islam is the best religion or the right one. That is for each and everyone to go and discover what is and what is not the right religion or faith for them. If there is any advise I would share is to at least find out and not assume or take others' words for it. One has to make the effort to want to discover the simple truth for oneself  and if nothing else find out what it is all about so you can share with your children or the younger generation who one comes into contact with. There is many today expressing themselves on the Mass media like You Tube and Face Book regarding the existence of God like they have the authority {God Given} to do so. Most of these individuals are young and have not earned the rites of passage to do so as it takes more than a lifetime to discover the existence of God unless one is born with the faith of acceptance of the Divine Presence,   

         

The devil is in the details =Jingme Lingpa

 Jigme Lingpa - Dzogchen enlightenment through 6 & 7 chakra activation

There will be no stable transcendental wisdom as prajña and jñana until the 3rd Eye or Wisdom Eye or Divine Eye is activated. All the traditions mention this direct correlation between the activated Wisdom Eye and what’s called “enlightenment”.

This activation can be induced especially through using various forms of sunlight gazing (and thogal), Yangti Dark Retreat, kundalini yoga, pranayama with kumbhaka, nirvikalpa samadhi and spontaneously with or without influence from a realized guru (“realized” meaning “with an activated 3rd eye”).

Thinking, conceptualizing along with self-oriented intentionality, contract the chakras in general and the heart, 3rd eye and crown chakra specifically. This is why ALL the mystical traditions require non-thought and dissolution of the “personal self” illusion.

In absence of all mentation and illusions of personal selfhood; the chakras expand and function naturally, as in very young children prior to being brain-washed and the development of the egoic selfing brain processes.

When the heart chakra is fully open, the wisdom of “no self” appears spontaneously.

When the 3rd Eye is open, clairvoyance and brilliantly sharp wisdoms and intuitions arise, and the ability to see into other dimensions occurs.

When the crown chakra at the fontanelle blossoms open, oneness with the Divine Nature (or Buddha Nature) is revealed along with “out of body experiences” and primordial perfection is then known.

This is like transforming into a butterfly where you had always been trying to fly while still being a caterpillar. When still a caterpillar you think and know with a caterpillar’s brain. For humans this means trying to understand the Absolute with a limited human monkey brain. Activating the higher chakras is knowing via a butterfly’s cognitive faculties.

It’s discovered that the Divine Consciousness has always been one’s unchanging subjective Beingness and awareness. The reason you don’t see this very easily is because you AS the Divine Consciousness already are too busy pretending to be you the “seeker”. (lol!)

“The reason for this is that the ushnisha (upper crown chakra) has no size, but pervades the ultimate expanse. When all the thought constructs (sem) dissolves into the chakra of the ushnisha (upper crown chakra), buddhahood is attained."

Jigme Lingpa

It's a Never Ending Story of Self Discovery.

 Netflix has a Hindi movie entitled Kalki, a fictional story with the main characters based on the Hindu Pantheon of Gods and Deities  from the epic saga called the Mahabharata or the Big War. This movie for those who have some knowledge of the ancient Hindu myth and religious folklore especially the main characters wielding super powers would prove more interesting. However the younger generation today with their absorbed in the video games are less to be interested of the origin of this Netflix movie which is a cross between a Sci-fi and religious revelations created with exotic landscapes and out of this world machineries, purely for good if not somewhat violent entertainment. 

"Following the Kurukshetra War, Ashwatthama attempts to kill Uttarā's unborn child. For committing the act, Krishna, the 8th avatar of Vishnu, curses him to roam the earth as an immortal and witness humanity's misery as a result of societal and moral deterioration during the Kali Yuga. His divine gem is also taken from his forehead, and his redemption is destined to occur only by protecting the mother of Kalki, Vishnu's 10th and final avatar, towards the end of the Kali Yuga.^[c]"  -Wikipedia

Kalki, the tenth Avatar of Lord Vishnu is said to be the final Avatar to walk the earth before its final demise or the end of the Kali Yuga, just as in Buddhism the coming of Lord Maitreya as the final Enlightened being to lead humanity out of the age of chaos and darkness and just as in Christianity the second coming of The Christ and in Islam the coming of the Imam Mahdi. These are the spiritual beings prophesized by each related religion that would appear at the end of time when humanity and the universe will go though a major shift in the form of destruction and rebirth. As in most such cases the devil is in the details and the detail is too long and elaborate to share here, however suffice to say that it is inherent in practically every major faith in humanity there is a coming of a savior in the form of a Great teacher or a prophet or a  spiritual warrior who will lead the faithful away from the enveloping darkness into the light of consciousness. At least this is true for all those who are true believers or have some form of faith in spirituality and the afterlife. For the non believers and the atheists there is not much to talk about and this is not saying that they are wrong or right, it is just as it is. Having faith and believe in God or any form of religious understanding is not an easy thing to explain; it is just a matter of faith. Do man need to have faith? Why? these are not easy questions to answer and most of the time only through personal experience and some intense form of practice and study can one arrive at the truth: "and the truth shall set you free"  

Free from what? Free from suffering off course says the Buddhist and the Hindus and perhaps most other religions. "Hidup ini adalh sengsara," life is suffering in Malay and the word sengsara originates from the Sankrit word Samsara, suffering which also 'Dukha' in the Pali canon. From the day day we were born till the day we die life is suffering and none suffers more than our mother. Hence spiritual or religious practices are mainly aimed at understanding fully the nature of human suffering which the Historical Buddha laid out in The Four Noble Truths of Buddhism. I am not expounding Buddhism and its detailed structure however one can Google it for better understanding if one is interested to know better. Knowledge is said to be wing by which we fly to heaven and ignorance is the weight that drags us down the pit of darkness; most of us today live in ignorance and are satisfied with this state so long as we have enough if not more than what is needed to live. Most have no concept of the awesomeness of being alive, the miracle of simply being able to breath and to walk, most are living in a state of sleepwalking and self denial. This is not good or bad for those who are awakened to the nature of reality and of existence itself as to these minority of humanity there is truly no one who is experiencing this state we call living. In essence we are consciousness manifesting in the form of physical beings with conditioned minds a product of being influenced by our environment and mental perceptions. None is free from this state of existence save those who are fully awakened from the bondage of illusory deep sleep we find ourselves in.

I have found myself repeating this scenario of human existence for years and numerous postings in this Blog for one reason or another. Sometimes for lack of things to write about, sometimes to come to a better understanding of my thoughts on the matter and sometimes simply as a reminder to myself of the intuitions that has emerged from this activity and last but not least to better myself as self expression in the form of good writing. I cannot claim myself a professional writer as my English has yet to be better polished. It is thanks to the Internet that I have been able to come this far, however in the process I have learned more about who I am and how i think and what makes me tick, my strength and my flaws, are exposed by and by, sometimes more than I had anticipated thus making this activity a form of catharsis in my self development and understanding. In the process I also become my own teacher, my own Guru, my own critic and my own Deity, my own Buddha Nature; this Blogging has morphed into my own 'Self Reflection,' revealing to me who I was, I am and I aim to become and it is an on going process. A never ending story that encompasses 75 years of existence on the planet thus far.