Fear Is The key - was by Alstair McLain

And then there is Death! And what is in stall for us those who believe in the afterlife...fear! Have I done enough right or have I done more wrongs...Such Is. "Fear Is The Key", the title of a fiction by Dennis Wheatley? Our whole life we avoid fear, being afraid being in the dark being oppressed being exploited, being abused being treated worse than animals, being humbled to the ground...fear that we did not do good enough in the 'Eyes of the Lord'. Out of this fears we commit atrocious, most inhumane acts of violence towards our fellow species, towards our neighbors towards ourselves; fear is our ignorance. We created fear out of our inability to understand the very nature of fear in who we are, or what we understand ourselves to be... we think we are who we are our lives is being run by thoughts and thoughts has to be understood...read! J.Krishnamurti, Eckhart Tolle, The Dalaim Lama, Einstein and the rest of them who have walked before us, read understand and practice their thoughts and insights or at least be aware of the fact that you think!
Thinking brought me here! Instead of , talking brought me here , thinking brought me here! I let my mind wander in thoughts and ideas, that are to me still pertinent in the quest to find my way back home, yes I am rambling my way back home... sang the Bodhisattva while on his way to becoming the Buddha, having had enough of His effort thrown into the discovery of the road to Liberation and Enlightenment, has finally decided, enough is enough, no more...I, am NO More! To become free from ignorance, from fear, from being swayed one way or another along the path, good...bad... right or wrong... has led us further into darkness in our human history we are in the dander of becoming extinct at least in our true human forms...worse than Planet of the Apes kind of scenario. Our collective creative minds are constantly creating near to life scenario of what we are to expect in to our future, we have projected ourselves in to the possibility of a global conflict that will consume us as a human race like we grew up with...no values, nor virtues; just pure right and wrong, good or bad...yada...yada!
The Buddha asked what was the reason for us being here, in this sorry state ( in his time) and ours today...what brought me here? Why the suffering? Why so much Fear and Decadence?! Why?! Off course being the Buddha he knew the answers already he was there many times before...do the Sands of Ganges count here..in order that He may evolve to become a Buddha, that a different story. So one day  Prince Gauma Shakya clan, son of one of India's well known kings in his time and in Indian history, asked Himself Why? Who he asked it to or from I never did ask but from this very simple question came the answer in he form of BUddhism.
Breath with me...remember to breath every now and then before you let your mind take you on auto pilot and the ramblings will go on for long as there is no Right Mindfulness, Right Consciousness, Right...this Right that..there will always be minds in need of something.. to cling on to... to apply attachment to to become manifested into in its self preservation; survival. The historical Buddha found out of four of what is known as the Four Noble Truth..it is readily available on the Internet feel free... Read! Seek! Knock! Hard!! Break your own bonds of ignorance that is holding you down from getting to know your true Nature, the Buddha Nature, the Indwelling Light of God, the Atma Brahman; Ignorance can only be replaced by the development of Understanding, the need to know thw Truth of matters, of Life of death of the significance of being alive, it is hard work! Butt..we can sit back a listen to the recital on the Holy Book on the You Tube and drift off into spiritual revelry at peace with the universe, the road is many but there is only one Way; Which Way? My Way Your Way?
I always like to be the first one to answer Ameen at the mosque of Fridays. As the Imam winds down from the first Surah AlFatihah "Walatt-Daa-linnnn...Ameen! There will always be a pause before the whole congregation decides to answer and I would jump in and set the tone...Yes! Did it again! I get excited about it especially if the tone went off like a song. This is the beauty of solat or the five times a day mandatory prayers performed by every legitimate Muslim all over the earth. And what is contained in the short Surah? Just saying thank You, Lord You the Lord of the universe, Thee we pray to and Thee wa ask of, (in our times of need)...soon. Available in many languages in the Internet ..Read! I cannot say enough! Listen! Learn, get to know want to know, must know! Falling asleep is never an option, stay awake in Mindfulness especially when stand before God and say it in you heart and SoulALLAAH u Akhbarr!! and come to rest, you have to at least become aware of who is doing this; you have Be Present and be in the Presence of that which you worship. Not everyone of us have the save image in our minds when we first 'say our Intention...'Nawaitu' or Niat, and it is in this moment that we present before God who we truly are...a small insignificant wannabe somebody in his rat race world still pissed off cause his neighbor standing next to him had dropped a set of keys and headphones on to the 'sejadah' in front of him like he has come to do business with God; this might be what God is looking at who you are or what you have become...He is All Forgiving and All Compassionate, at least you came to worship Me in my house of Fridays and answering the Ameen after the Surah Al-Fatihah is an added bonus to your good side,so all in all not bad at least you are making an effort of being aware of who you are when you stand before Me.
As you reach out for Me I make it ten fold My effort to reach out to you, it is said somewhere in the Good Books, Great Effort, Right Effort... this is is what is needed in order that we might climb out way out of this jar of ignorance we find ourselves in. Either we wake up and slap ourselves silly to stay awake or fall asleep and never to wake up deep in pickled ignorance.
Breathing in, He knows he is breathing in...Breathing out he knows this that he is breathing out...all else is history. Having the will towards making a Right Effort is a great Great Effort in the path towards self discovery and as the Buddha would it Liberation or Nirvana or as The Jews and Christians and Muslims would have it; Heaven, Paradise, The garden of eden all over again. I have always ahd the neaky feeling that the Buddha opted heaven or Hell and decided to go for the Middle, stepping out of the game or the circle or cycle and merge into the One become One with God or Allah or Yaweh or whoever or whatever that claims itself to be It. That is when he said to himself This Is It! No more, time to seek the Truth of the matter and expose to the world that there are other ways, different forms and skillful means to find your way home and they will all lead you there if your desire is Right kind of desire, one that benefit you and the rest of mankind for example.
I am not trying to sound off smart or knowledgeable in matters pertaining to any of these that i ave been rambling about, but like most addicitons, i find it hard not to let my fingers move as my mind let itself loose. Please forgive me if i sometimes am beginning to sound pretentious over these matters, it is only because i am getting tried and often i keep repeating myself over and over with stories that would help explain better what I mean and if it all makes no or little sense welcome to the club, I am witrh you, just as lost in the limbo of life doing what i am best at, escape the rain when it is pouring outside...has been all day! Had to send my son to school and pick him up later something I have not done for quite sometime now ever since they decided they can handle their own transportation issues. But it is in dealing with these very issues that one catch glimpses of who you truly are if and when you act without any thought in mind other than what is before you like driving along narrow streets in the rain... and so forth well you had better be Mindfully present. Right effort is and integral part of the practice of Mindfulness. Getting to know your mind is like riding the donkey that you are looking for all the time. Stepping back and looking at it from a short distance can give you a greater perspective and this stepping back or detachment from the mind activities is another step in the Mindfulness practice. In the Internet find out what they talk about in 'Bare Attention', the practice of. better than my letting my mind get carried away decided to relate the whole story about bare attention right here and now. That is not my purpose mine is to sit out the rain while letting my mind have a little break from this Vispassana Trip.
About Death, Fear and all that i started off earlier, well they just keeps me remembering things i aught to remember while in this state of mind in the Here and Now. Thank you for sharing the moment with me.