Rambling on...

 More and more of humanity are awakening to the fact that the human specie is primarily ego driven and the demise of the ego is inevitable if the human race if not the Planet itself is to survive the next century. As is evident in the emergence of a greater sense of awareness among the well informed and educated masses especially the younger generation, getting to understand the workings of the mind and consciousness itself has grown in interest worldwide. If there be any hope at all for the human race to climb out of the quagmire that we are in it is through coming to terms with our own understanding. the very nature of our own being or consciousness. Throughout human history mankind has made it his quest to understand who he truly is and how connected is he to the rest of the world in all its shapes and forms. The effect he has on his fellow man, his community, his country and the rest f the universe,with or without his concent or even knowledge.  Religious belief and spiritual practices has been tailored from the dawn of civilization towards urging man to become aware of himself of strength and weaknesses, what he is capable of albeit in his creative or destructive nature. Detrimental to himself and in effect to the rest of the world man has chosen to turn his back upon the teachings of his forefathers resulting in what we have today, a civilization that is headed towards anarchy and self destruction; we are out to hang ourselves as a whole and we are going to take the Planet with us...perhaps meant to be, it is as it should be...karma sucks.

The ego has become the all mighty self perpetuating entity that dominates every aspect of existence in the form of greed, hate and ignorance. From the top to the bottom of the human conscious state the ego has taken man down the road towards confrontation and self serving attitude calling it survival of the fittest.From desiring to become the strongest, the richest, the most admired and adored to that of becoming Demigods, Deities and Demons.the ego has led man astray and many has met with despair resorting towards violence and corruption when these negative traits become overpowering if not fully met and confronted with; we call it aptly; the rat race. Yes we have become like rats racing in every direction scrounging for whatever there is. to stay on top and alive. Whether we are living in the sewer or in the villa in Dubai, we are scrounging for more and more it seems  as though enough is never enough as we hoard and cling on to what we have often oblivious towards the ideals of charity and sharing with those who are in need.

We who are concerned with the state of our environment, it flora and fauna, its health, we are not doing our best. We have neglected if not abused our environment as badly as we can read or watch it all on You Tube; Google and a host of other links on the Internet there is no denial to the fact that you have no excuse not to be aware. Many species of animals have become extinct in the last decade they say/ Our seas and oceans are slowly being depleted to the point of no return by illegal and unregulated fishing activities that is killing much more than the needed catch. We live in self denial and make believe attitude as far as the environmental issues are concern; we are the cancerous virus that our planet is being suffering from, e are destroying out host through our ignorance and arrogance, pride and prejudices, our misbegotten believe that we each and everyone of us exist as an individual, a person with a personality. We grew up with a conditioned sense of perception of who we truly are and how much a responsibility we have as who we are in the grand scale of human condition and evolution and existence itself. 

I realize I am sounding like a broken record to myself repeating all that passes trhough my mind time and again, trying to make sense out of what is non-sense, killig time while waiting for the next wave to come to take em into the unknown, that ' One Step Beyond', It is also a practice of keeping a watch on myself as I drift in and out of this realm  of Maya, the world of illusions, of impermanence and of decadence and death; life has been great but enough is enough. I keep regressing into the ego-mind scenarios of my being a 72 year old man who has spent a good amount of his time finding a cure for his wounded and corrupted soul. The healing process is this ongoing ramblings so as to keep some sort of a record of my progression or regression as i take more steps into the future or as i grow older. My only solace is in the faith that my Lord is oft. Forgiving and Merciful, a Lord of Love and Compassion. I hold this faith within th heart of my heart where my 'secret of secrets are held.' I have to love myself as much as I Love God and submit myself unto Him when I am fully drowned in my own self love. I am old and I am tired in more than one way for my journey has been log and winded one full of sinkholes and trap doors, I have fallen from grace in more tha one way and some in the big way that is beyond rationality. 

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