How dare you die in vain!

What is Nirvana? What is 'Samadhi'? What is Moksha? What is 'Fana'? What is Rapture/ Bliss?

"Fanaa: Ego Death:
Fanaa is the Sufi term for extinction. It means to annihilate the self, while remaining physically alive. Persons having entered this state are said to no existence outside of, and be in complete unity with, Allah. Fanaa is equivalent to the concept of Nirvana in Buddhism and Hinduism or Moksha in Hinduism which also aim for the annihilation of the self.
The "annihilation of the self" (fanaa fi Allah) refers to disregarding everything in this world for one's love towards God. Whe a person enters the state of fanaa it is believed that one is at one with God.
In the death of the ego love is born, God is born, light is born. I the death of the ego you are transformed; all misery disappears as if it had never existed; Beyond this is the stage of intimacy (uns) at which the immanence of the Lord is perceived."

"Moksha in Hinduism and Jainism generally means the same as in Chrisitianity; which is slavation....in Buddhism, Nirvana. The deeper meaning of Moksha in Hinduism is the liberation of the Atman or soul from the cycle or birth and death forever."
" In the epistimological and psychological sense, moksha conotes freedom, self realization and self knowledge."
By: Vijay Kumar "Atma Jnani"

Vijay Kumar... The Man who Realized God in 1993 explains the concept of Moksha Hinduism. For more on bhagavad gita moksha hinduism visit - meaning of moksha. Send Your Query - click here Ref. 090929

Nirvana, literally means "blown out", as in a candle. In the Buddhist context nirvana refers to the imperturbable stillness of mind after the fires of desire, aversion, and delusion have been finally extinguished, and the experience of blissful egolessness. In Indian religions, the attainment of Nirvana is Moksha, liberation from Samsara, the repeating cycle of birth, life and death. - Wikepedia.

I have randomly picked out a few views and perceptions with regard to the subjects that I have questioned such as ,what is Nirvana and so forth, just to share a little better understanding from others who have made such matters their object of studies. Ultimately this what i have been alluding towards eventually with my past few entries. That is the end of all practices, the final countdown, the final cut, the end of the journey; what is it that I have been trying to achieve throughout my adult life. In the end there is nothing to attain, nothing to achieve, not- a- thing to become. At he end there is only emptiness -void - God. (Call it by whatever name you will according to your preference.) I Am No more.

Nihilistic views of life holds no such values in life and as such those who have live life with no knowledge of who or what they truly are in the scheme of things often ends up with despair in the end. Life becomes meaningless and there is no light at the end of the tunnel after the long and dark journey of suffering. Most of humanity lives in this delusional state of existence and not even aware of it, just like sleep walking, stumbling along falling and picking themselves back up along the way till one day they drop and never rise again. It is a waste of time and space living out life no better than cattle herd destined for the butcher's block.
Thrill seekers we are most of us when we were young and we do whatever it takes to fill up the empty spaces in our lives in order to avoid being bored and lonely, to avoid not being recognized as the achiever, to avoid being accused as having live life in vain; yet in the end we find that all was for nothing. We grow old, loosing all that we have accumulated and watching all that we hold dear flowing down the drain before our eyes, seeing our reflections in the mirror as we loose one tooth after another and grow white hair where there used to be dark brown black hair and relinquishing all hope of ever being young again; all for nothing. 
The mark of a great man is not in how long he had lived but in how well those years were lived. A life well live is worth the journey of a lifetime and what is left in its wake is worth emulating, worth reflecting upon, worth taking as a guidance in times of need, this was like the life of a Buddha, the life of the Prophet, the life of the Messiah, the life of the Great Rishis and Roshis, the life of the Sages and Sheiks of old; the life of the Perfect souls, Al insan Kamil. Their paths had paved the way for us, they have left signposts and bearings for all of us to find our own ways towards our own journey of liberation and salvation and all we need to do is ask the simple question and demand the truth...Who am I?
Before the final curtain, I demand to know the answer...who am I? What am I? Why am I? How can I? No matter how good or bad life has been to you let not go this demand like it is all that matters in your entire existence, like it is a burning ball of fire sitting in your guts burning a hole in you demanding to be answered. This is your 'Koan', Rich or poor great or insignificant you deserve to know the truth about your true nature and not settle for anything less than the truth. ..and the Truth shall set you free...Jesus said. 
How dare you die in vain!!
  

That which is Real.

"Within each of us, there is a silence, a silence as vast as the universe. And when we experience that silence, we remember who we are." -Ginilla Norris
To experience this silence that is within each and everyone of us would require moments of peace and quiet in and around us. I requires the discipline to sit and contemplate into an eventual state of meditative mind where one becomes totally absorbed into oneself and merging with all that is in and around us.Meditation is the key towards all mental absorption and the ability to bring one's mind to a stand still is no easy matter as the mind has its own agenda in making sure that it is never totally silenced at any given moment. The more we are reactive towards any given situation external or otherwise the more the mind attaches to the situation adding its own multi-dimensional perspective to the event making it more than it really is. One can never force to silence the mind as the harder we try to worse it becomes; the mind can only be silent on its own, by itself and when it does we have to be awake and aware it happening to take full advantage of what is there in the 'pause' that the mind is in.
This moment of temporary break, this moment of a pause in the mental stream of activities is when revelations, intuition or original ideas are manifested. It is imperative that we are absolutely present in these moments to receive the revelations and act spontaneously upon them manifesting their messages into reality. When a swordsman stands facing his opponent and his mind is completely silenced, his actions becomes spontaneous and unimpeded, he becomes invincible a 'mindless killing machine'. There is no hesitation in his action, as a matter of fact he is no more there to hesitate. The Artist in this state of mindless-ness will paint without any hesitation and his brush strokes will show this to an expert's eye revealing the originality of the act.

"There is no reality except the one contain within us..." -Herman Hesse.
What is this reality that is contained within us that Herman Hess is referring to in this quote? Nothing is real all reality is is relative to the perceive, the beholder, the observer, the witness and even then reality is no more real than a magician's illusion as science has proven that nothing in this universe exist as we perceive them to be, like tables and chairs are atoms and molecules. I am no scientist but I can accept what science says on this matter. Hence i know i do not exist as I think I do physically, that i am merely a group of atoms with same density of vibration that is slow enough to come together to form me and all that is around me. Our mind is conditioned to perceive otherwise and so we accept the world as it is a separate reality a reality that everyone of us abide by as 'Real'.
The wisdom of the ancient has long before science has foretold of our ignorance in perception of our so called reality. Hence the Buddha for one has pointed out the fact that this world we are living is Maya or illusion. For so long as we exist in this form of illusion our life is suffering we are trapped in a net of illusions like what is today popularly known as 'the matrix'. We are no more than a program that is existing according to what is created for our  existence; we exist like rats in a maze. To free ourselves from this maze we have to break free of the mold, that which imprison our consciousness to believe that we are in fact existing in 'Reality'. We have to tear away the veils that is hiding our consciousness from seeing what truly is. We have to detach our mind from the preconditioned state of consciousness and see with our heart our true nature in relation to what is being thought out for us. The world as it is is the product of collective thoughts that has since the beginning been projecting itself into a reality that is governed by fear and self preservation ultimately that of the ego. Th ego creates its own reality such a one that does not threaten its very existence as a form of survival plan.
This is as being accepted by the religions or God worship as the free will, that which is afraid of loosing its own self control over the world. To have absolute free will is to be free from having to make any choices, unlike the dual thinking mind. Absolute free will is subject to no claims of right or wrong, good or bad; it is free or attachment, free of concepts and perceptions; it is the enlightened mind. It is the reality that is within all of us before we were even conceived by our parents. Call it the Divine Spark or the Original Buddha Nature, call it the Atman or the Roh Kudus.(Divine Spirit.) This is you, this is me this is all of us when we are free of the 'Matrix' or the maze that is mind created out of fear that spawn the hydra of Greed, Hate and Ignorance as its armor for self preservation. 

"Oh, and why not take a chance on faith as well, take a chance on faith, not religion, but faith. Not hope but faith. I don't believe in hope. Hope is a beggar. Hope walks through a fire and faith leaps over it. - Jim Carrey.

Just about every religion professes faith or iman when it comes to spirituality in man. Having faith keeps us from loosing that position we hold to be true in our standing in this life. The Buddha calls it our Dharma position, that from which we take on life without wavering in our commitment to who we truly are. It is that with which we worship our Lord holding to to it no matter what challenges are being placed in our path to make us deviate from the Lord's Grace or Mercy. Having an unshakable faith in the teachings of the Buddha is one way to overcome all the hindrances that man is faced with in this life of illusions. Holding steadfastly to the words of the Koran and the teachings of the Prophet (Bless unto Him) will deliver us from the corruptions of this existence and deliver us home to our true home in the hereafter.
Faith cannot be forced upon anyone and it is free from any doubts whatsoever for it to be potent. 
" A man of courage, is also full of faith." - Marcus Tullius Cicero.

Greatness is Within.

"Greatness is Within" is written on the cover of the shoe box that supports the PC screen and I noticed it for the first time this morning. It is a good ad gimmick but it is also an eye opener fro one who lost in a limbo of non-doing, inactive mind, a mind in lethargic stupor non productive and wasteful. Yeah that is about how i am feeling right now and it is like a small miracle to stumble upon these words sitting right in front of me all these while but un-noticed. It is not that i have not looked within all these while, perhaps no deep enough or perhaps for the wrong reasons or i am merely escaping from looking externally as it has become too uncomfortable for my liking.
Again regardless if i am looking within or without, I am still trapped in this dual thinking mind, It is the worse kind of addiction this thought dominated state of mind. Incessant thinking, never ending and often unconnected meaningless thoughts that merely occupy th mind to simply distort any form of rational or logical ideas leaving me with more crumpled up images fit for the garbage bin. My meditation practice has become sporadic and lacking in seriousness or intensity and I find myself sleeping every chance i get and waking up with more guilt than restfulness. Hence meditation the one means towards how i can overcome my predicament is not working either which leaves me with reading and writing. In less than two weeks i am into the fourth novel of the four volume works by author Conn Iggulden entitled EMPEROR; a novel of Julius Caesar. The historical fiction of the life of one of the great names in European history has kept me occupied especially when I had walked the streets of Rome in modern times not too long ago.
I wish I can write some similar epic like this or such works like Lord of the Rings or Harry Potter what an escape that would be, not in the negative sense but an escape that is productive from this realm of existence that is lacking and stagnant to my mind. Creating works of Art has become a struggle too at least for the time being as i find myself getting lazy to even begin and when I try thoughts of why I should gets in my way. I find little comfort in seeing that my works are reminders of how much time and effort i have wasted i the past that has left me today wanting financially. my talent was appreciated only when they served a purpose to the public like being a part of a show or entertainment. In Art i have become another roadside attraction, which would have been alright had it been able to keep me from becoming a beggar in this life. Today my works are hung on office and hotel walls, art galleries and small roadside stalls; I am wondering where my next income would materialize from during this month of Ramadan.
So, I am addicted to Face Book too! Like many I spend a great deal of my time browsing through what is pasted on fb offering my own two cents worth of opinion even when unsolicited just to be 'involved'. learn a thing or two about others friend and relatives who frequent this media. It is said that about five million fb users in the country, (Malaysia) are under 10 years of age. I try to share only positive and productive info unless I am making a political statement. In these days and age Children are no more ignorant of life as their forefathers were and thus it is inevitable that we treat them accordingly and not try to manipulate what we think they aught to be fed. In short if i am to spend my hours on fb I better learn how to spend it wisely; ideally for the benefit of other beings young and old and not just to entertain my ego.

Saying farewell.

What is dissolution? How does one become disengaged from or find complete detachment from this life. How does one 'politely' bow out of the circle without causing any ripples that would disturb the order of the things or the Universe. This circle of Birth-death and rebirth (if one believe in reincarnation) or heaven or hell if one is a follower of the Judeo-Christian -Islamic religion. Can 'Liberation' form the bondage of life in this material realm be transcended while one is still in this physical form in short can one attain to Buddhahood in this present life. If not what is holding you back? Why do you have to live out your life and die not knowing what lies in the future or afterlife other than in faith over what has been taught by the religions and ancient texts and scriptures. How does one free this dual thinking mind, the mind that is trapped by the dichotomy of right and wrong, this or that?
I look inside my heart, and I look inside my soul and all I can come up with is the cessation of all that is and become empty of my own being or as a Muslim total and absolute surrender or submission to the 'Will' of my Lord. If I am a non believer or an atheist, a free thinker, where do i fit into in this whole scheme of life? Through my Blogging or this ramblings of the Cheeseburger Buddha i have myself time and again, over and over these same questions and have yet to be enlightened by an a complete and profound answer that can hold water for me. I am still sometimes lost in delusion and ignorance, wandering in limbo often in despair as more and more of what i see happening all around in this world that are shaking my foundation as a human being. 
If asked what i really want in this life I too would say peace and not just peace for myself but Peace for Humanity for the Planet, the Universe as a whole. Today not only do i not find peace for myself, I find so much discord and chaos all over the planet that my status as a man has come into so much question that i am doubtful of who I am; I cannot find my Dharma position anymore. My faith in my Maker is so shaken sometimes that I am afraid I will become lost for good and so will my children and theirs after them. What will become of man when all faith and teachings are being abandoned and hypocrisy and corruption rules with greed, hate and ignorance? I have grown however to believe that somehow man will transcend his present state of being in the realm of darkness and find his way back into the light. How or by what methods or teachings is yet to be seen but if man were to survive with his sanity intact into the future, coherent and substantial mode of  being has to be manifested whether religiously or scientifically, something that can drive man as a Collective whole into the  next epoch. 
A small part of me still hold the believe that in being able to come to fully understand who I am I will make a difference at least before I step out of this circle of life. Like the Buddha and all the Enlightened Beings of the past, I too can set free one or two of those who are ready from this bondage or the life of ignorance and suffering. However even i find myself entangled time and again in deep rooted Karma, I too am an unrepentant sinner far from an awakened being; how can I lead even one to take that final step beyond. For as long as I am still breathing I can keep chipping away a little at a time the crust of rust that has accumulated covering the very light within my heart. I can keep polishing the coal till it turns bright as diamond again and unleash its brightness to end all the darkness around me. But I realize that this will take lifetimes as the layers of accumulation is too thick and stubborn to be wiped off as easily.
Suffice to say, I will keep on trudging with greater determination and submit to the Divine consciousness within in the hope that by the grace of all Sentient being of the past present and future my effort will find some small recompense for those I have transgressed and a benefit for those who read my Blog.       

Reflections in the Month of Ramadan.

For the first time in a long time I felt a strangely different feeling  when I sometime early this morning and decided to sit in meditation as I have often done instead of going back to sleep. It is 5;10 AM according to the timer on the PC screen even as i am typing. What was really odd was the fact that as soon as Got comfortable and drifted into what i call alignment of my mind and body with the  effort of a few breathing in and out, I realized that i was just a 'Bag of bones' as some Zen masters would have put it. I felt myself as held up by my skeleton and began to feel all my organs hanging from these various areas of bone structures. I was looking at my innards so to speak and a strange sensation flowed through me as i watched myself watching or experiencing this.
Off course i tried to hang on to this sensation for as long as I could and pretty soon getting back into my usual mode of getting my thoughts into it with all kings of excitement and trying to capture into words trying to explain yada! yada! just like I am doing right now and poof I am back to square one of attachment. The split second moment of my initial experience was worth all my years of sitting simple as it may seem. For the first time in a very long time I came to realize the emptiness of my being, so to speak; I am nothing more than a sack of skin and bones and my mind is what held it all together through manifesting feelings and sensations through my breath. I stopped having any control of my breathing, I stopped breathing allowing breath to happen and i felt my skeletal structure shifted
like my spine stretching upwards lifting my whole body into its vertical alignment,(this happens all the time when I sit though) but this morning I felt it happening as though of its own volition, it was a nice sensation.
Yes, how such a simple experience can be such a high and the first word that came to my mind was 'Happy'... I am Happy! I am happy and i could die! This was when Allah and the spiritual mind tales over as it has always done, like I need to anchor myself back into my relationship to the 'Source' or Higher Consciousness so that i do not grow attached to my self induced experience and become forgetful or arrogant; perhaps my fear of meeting my own true nature. This has always been happening in my meditation practice for as long as i can remember,  like whenever i arrive at the feeling of being empty of my being, or as the Buddhist calls it Emptiness of Being (which i normally arrive at with not problem), the first thing that comes to my mind is the remembrance of 'God'. And in my case being a Muslim Allah comes to mind and i would pray thanking the All Mighty for allowing me to experience this 'state of bliss' even if it is for a moment in time no longer than the next breath that i took. As i said earlier perhaps I do it out of fear, the fear that i am in a 'void' and has no place to anchor myself or attach myself to while in this state of 'limbo'. I fear too that my being in this state places me in danger on my Being being possessed by negative energies or elements or spirits for lack of better words and so I place the 'Divine as my 'Shield' or veil while in this state of 'Emptiness'.
Yes, I realize that this is yet another form of clinging or holding on to or attachment as warned by the Buddha which hinders one from final liberation form this life or human existence, however as i often mention I am a Muslim and I fear God and His retribution in the after life for all my past sins which are yet to be redeemed. Call it yet another weakness or ignorance or call it playing it safe from lack of 'Right Understanding'. For a sinner like me God is never too far away and every breath i take as I get older He gets closer especially during this month of Ramadan.

The Buddha is said to said; "Right and wrong is a sickness of your own mind."

 

Looking at my health.

I think I have a good idea on what I have or might be the cause of my demise; I suffer from angina attacks plus high blood pressure which according to my reads on the medical journals on Internet might lead to kidney malfunctions and so forth. Not too bad at 65 going on 66 what can one expect and the way life is headed with all the crap that is messing up the planet and most countries and societies in general, perhaps it is a good time frame to say Asta La Vista. As Yoda the Jedi master would say, "Scared I am, but the force has been with me most of my life, if time to let go it is, the let go I must.."
I have been to the doctor and had my physical done but from my personal evaluation of my condition i must say I am not doing too good as even while typing right this moment i fell all the symptoms struggling to kick in. I could suffer a heart attack any time if I am not more cautious.Most importantly I have to learn to slow down in every activity I undertake henceforth and i have to respect my intake of the medication i have been prescribed by the doctor, (which I have not really). So in the effort of self preservation and in the effort to stay a little bit longer i will try to abide by the simple rules of the medical advice I have been given and the ones i am reading. I will meditate more on how to keep my calm and do less than I need to physically, have better control on my diet and most importantly have a good talk with my mind on what is going on; it looks like we are sleeping on the job.
Cause and effect, there has to be a cause for the projection towards you end of days on this plane before you can be transported tot he next level of existence and if you a whole of baggage in this life and are not willing to drop then off then you will need some extra time. However if you have learned to drop off your load as much as you can you are a lighter being and can travel a whole lot faster onward towards your next destination. meditation helps those who see life as merely time travel. There is only one episode after the next as you take one step after another and one breath after the next; you cannot take two breaths at the same time nor eat two mouthfuls in one gulp. Hence if you understand that you are merely a passing by entity on this plane of existence you will most probably try not to be weighed down too much by all the hooks and crooks that this life has to offer no matter how tempting; you learn to let go.
Words are useless without action to verify your claims to the truth of the matter that you are expressing and if your experiment in life is worth taking note of then it has to have a detail record to accompany such claims, otherwise you are merely writing poettries and singing ballads of a life you wish you had lived. I am writing my conclusion to my existence or so it seems and before i close this chapter i hope to make some sense of it all; to at least have some sense of understanding who I am or what was it all about? I must admit that on the hole, I could have done better but then it would mean having larger baggage to to get rid of for as it is i am merely inheriting what my grand father was and what my father was before me. I have only managed to cut off a negative habit or two in the process of my evolution like drinking and being a drug abuser, womanizing and gambling, I might say I am keeping myself relatively clean, sort of respecting my time and age getting set to take that one step beyond with the lightness of being or being a little more enlightened - less baggage.

I live on my own time.

Spent a day with my daughter selling my works at the Little Penang Street market lost Rm 50 in the efoort at the end of the day with a Rm30 ticket for my car parking space.  But despite it all had a good time.

 So, how does one turn a negative episode into a positive event? How not to dwell on the losses and thrive on the acts itself? Just have to keep reminding oneself these things so as not to fall into depression or even worse a sense of despair. Just observe and acknowledge and accept what is and act accordingly so as to make it all worth your time and experience...just another day and another dime worth of experience. While at it you are able to make one or two persons laugh or smile and meet up up with an old friend it is an added bonus...take note of that too. It is not all about making money and yes it would be nice if you do too.

Those two young ladies behind me asked to snap a shot, its worth being there already.

 I feel sometimes like it is my unspoken duty to expose myself and share my actions as an artist with the general public or the few fellow artists that I hang out with but I much rather keep pretty much to myself unless i am entertaining for specific reasons like family get together or an evening with friends. Perhaps it is the old age making me more and more a recluse. I find it much more rewarding to sit and contemplate, draw, paint and write if not reading one novel after another.

A friend from Oregon i think with the frizzy hair. 

 As you get older you become more and more choosy on how you get to spend your time and for me being with my children is a priority although i try to keep them being on their own as much as I can so they leran better to survive, fall and get back up on their own. I enjoy entertaining the younger generation whenever i get the chance to taking my pokes at them to jar them out of their minds like, Hey! peckerhead! I yell out, when are you getting married! What are you waiting for? or How come you are not fasting!! Then I would talk a little serious to them depending on what kind of mess they are into and so on.

I  will always find it hard to do nothing with my time.

I guess it is time to take another trip into the wild and perhaps do a fasting retreat all by myself. have dialogue with my Maker if i am lucky or perhaps find my soulmate. I know this crap about growing old is killing me.

The First Day.of Ramadan

The first day of the Fasting Month of Ramadhan and form today onwards life will take a whole new routine and the struggle begins to maintain one's self discipline and perhaps perform better at fasting than the previous years. I have my cousin brother whose performance has become my gauge and he is trying his best to get me to become a good Muslim or at least a performing Muslim, meaning that I abide by all the obligatory activity demanded by the Faith. I am sill at odds with this perhaps my faith has for so long been in doubt that like an addict i am prone to regression at the slightest influence or temptation. It is often to my embarrassment or guilt conscience that will trigger me to look deeper into the reason why I lack the will to just do what is expected of me as a Muslim.

Hence starting on today i will keep a close watch over how i perform and share this as openly as i can and hopefully it will reveal more my weaknesses or perhaps my strength as a 'Good Muslim'. I am not trying to say or convince anyone Muslim or otherwise  the religion is any better or worse than others , all i am doing is get deeper into seeing who I am and how seriously am i committed to my faith as a Muslim. I read an entry in the Face Book someone saying" Burn me in Hell if I worship because of the fear of Hell or something to this effect and i am of the same sentiment in this respect. It would be a lie to say that i am not afraid of Hell or what lies in the grave when I expire but I also am not totally sold of the idea that the after life will be all that dark and painful for all of us as God is not about hatred and revenge even if there are those that deserve such retributions. I see life as suffering for man already just as the Buddha saw it thousands of years ago and protested. There is an element of unfairness in being born into this world that man has no understanding of nor the capability to overcome unless the Buddha's Way is achieved till the end. However to attain to the Buddha's Way will take life times of existence it is said and in more than one way goes against the tenets of Islam. So what is left choice wise for us but to find ways and means like the Buddha did to find ways and means towards being liberated from this depressing state of being that we are in.
I Am Whole! I Am Perfect! Strong and Powerful!
I am Loving, Compassionate, Harmonious and Happy!
I can do what I will to do!
This the state of mind i have frequency myself  into through reminding myself time and again especially when i feel like the world is crushing on top of me. Perhaps i have not reminded myself often enough and allowed my mind to drift back into its slave mode, helpless and not in control. So back to the meditating mat and realignment of my thought projections. I have to detach from this present dead zone that I am in. I have of step out of it into a new dimension which is more positive and invigorating if not challenging. My approach has always been trying to turn a negative situation into a positive outcome and if I find no way of doing this at any given moment I choose to retreat or abstain myself from taking any form of action; some deem it as 'He's being lazy. Yes it is perhaps true and when I find myself in this state of mind I also find myself physically not at my best. As it is I am having a hard time keeping from breaking my fast as I get tremendous amount of sharp pains in my chest from gastric attacks. I feel weak and lethargic with no energy to even get out of bed sometimes. So I see these as symptoms that calls for some form of drastic change of pace, a shift in paradigm in how i correct my present state of being.

   

The un-examined life is not worth living - Socrates

They are hearing the sound of trumpets coming from the skies and they are mystified, scared and wondering if the old testaments about the heralding of the end of time is at hand. Tomorrow begins the Holy month of Ramadan the Fasting Month of the Muslim calendar, a whole month of physical, mental and spiritual torment or uplifting depending on who you are and where you are at as a Muslim, how far or how near are you to your Maker. For Malaysian Muslims it will be a good time for reflections over the whole year that has gone by and come to some sort of understanding as to what is really going on within and without. I look forward to a difficult time in all aspect as I have been having a whole lot of doubts throughout the year in trying to be a good Muslim or even a good man.
I have a bad case of gastritis and yesterday evening was the most bad attack that i had, I felt like i was being skewered through my chest with a thick rod and I felt like I was having a heart attack. It is not getting any better or so it seems and i am even scared to eat as i have no idea what to eat anymore. Mentally I feel like i am not living fully up to what i can in the creative and productive sense of being in existence. I have become less and less an extrovert and judge others more readily than normally would  I am more easily prone to getting attached to what is occurring out there and loosing touch with what is in here. In short mentally I have become less assured of who I am in the scheme of life. Lastly , spiritually I a at my lowest when it comes to keeping in contact with my Maker and even might be deemed as being estranged from Him. I pray less and I do not feel when I do.
And all these too will pass, no doubt and the Fasting Month will drag out a few of the skeletons from within the closet and set them free or create a few more if my determination runs weak.A part of me does not look forward to this Holy Month as I know I am not cut out for it, but a part of me looks forward to the time of discipline and self searching if not healing within and without. Either way I will do my best to persevere and fulfill the obligations to the best of my ability. I have sat he Seven Days Seshin when I was a Zen Student and in more than one way it had reshaped my thinking and I am more a believer toady than i have ever been in the past as a spiritual being in the ways of my Lord. And so before the trumpets picks up in it crescendo in the skies and before the Lord decides to close His book on the fate of this Planet i better invest a little more genuinely into my future in the next existence.    

What is Wrong with Us?

We live in times of uncertainty, times of turmoils unprecedented and in times of never ending amazement at our own self discoveries and accomplishments often beyond our projected endurance; we as a specie simply are an enigma.(: someone or something that is difficult to understand or explained). I realize many has uttered or written the same worn out lines to express their inner desperation if not for just sheer ability to release the anxiety that has been plaguing the soul all these while; what have become of us. How have we allowed ourselves to be torn so drastically that we hardly recognize ourselves anymore as human beings. The atrocities that some of us even as nations are capable of defies our own intelligence; what has become of man?
I keep yelling inward as well as outwardly, GREED, HATE AND DELUSIONS! The three illnesses that man if inflicted with but it seems more than this and I cannot put my fingers on what it is for the life of me. I do not have to venture too far to see chaos that is manifesting all around the world not only in the lives of man but in nature itself as earthquakes and volcanoes are reshaping the land and lives of those who are affected by them. Global warming is happening and it is no more a game of political bargaining by major countries in the effort to shift their responsibilities upon those who cannot afford to challenge the status quo. Slowly lands are sinking beneath the  sea and lives along the coastal areas are threatened but little if not anything is done to counter these natural disasters already happening and what will it take to open eyes and generate actions?
I can keep on rattling like a broken record forever till I die of boredom but it seems people like me are just barking at the moon and our numbers are increasing as the Internet has helped to open up venues for us to expose our pent up anxieties and concerns. As I am listening to Mark Knopfler, Sting, Phil Collins and Eric Clapton sing the song Money for nothing and Chicks for Free on the You Tube my mind is trying to untangle the tangle. Such is the nature of how far we have come as a specie and yet it is also through these miracle of miracles the Internet that we learn of how badly we have evolved. Collectively man has progressed just far as it has regressed for even as we touch the frontiers of space in our quest to expand our boundaries externally we have regressed into our darkest being internally; we have become the splintered soul.
I do not have to look far just browsing through what is transpiring here in this country is enough to scare me; perhaps i should learn to bury my head in the sand...

Malaysian gymnast Farah Ann Abdul Hadi was criticised for showing her “aurat” and the “shape of her vagina” in a leotard after winning a gold medal at the SEA Games. These criticisms infringe on her freedom of choice and such crude remarks are an assault of her modesty.
By Zakiah Koya  6/15/2015 2:00:00 PM
The Heat Online.

(Malay Mail Online) – The mountain guide who was assigned to the 10 tourists who stripped naked on Mount Kinabalu thought the group of foreigners was disrespectful and “arrogant” from the moment the expedition started, according to a British daily.

Four tourists — Canadian siblings Lindsey Petersen, 23 and Danielle Petersen, 22; Briton Eleanor Hawkins, 24; and Dutch national Dylan Snel, 23 — today pleaded guilty to their act and were sentenced to three days’ jail, fined RM5,000 each and ordered to be deported.

The four were charged under Section 294(a) of the Penal code for public indecency, an offence which is punishable by a maximum three months’ jail term or fine or both.

The other six are believed to have left the country.

(The Star) – Tan Sri Tony Fernandes (pic) has hit out at politicians for not putting the interests of the people first.

In a series of tweets, the AirAsia Group chief executive officer pondered if the country would ever have a political party which would put the people as priority.

“Government and opposition spend so much time on race and religion. Will there ever be a truly Malaysian party that puts people first?” he said in a tweet that was retweeted more than 500 times as of yesterday.

He described the present state of affairs as “strange times” for Malaysia, and voiced his disappointment at the lack of accountability.

“Good education, good hospitals, fair distribution of wealth, an economy that creates jobs, honest clean Government. Transparent leadership,” he said in another tweet, referring to his aspirations for Malaysia.

Malay Mail Online) – After a complete wipeout of the progressives by the clergy class in PAS’s elections two weeks ago, its deposed deputy president Mohamad Sabu, or popularly known as Mat Sabu, declared that Malaysia is now facing an ideological threat similar to that propounded by the terrorist group Islamic State (IS).

Speaking at a ceramah event here last night, Mat Sabu said the signs of rising Islamism have become more apparent today and this dangerous trend was reflected in the campaigns throughout the PAS election where any views that differed from those of the clergy class (ulama) were immediately labelled as un-Islamic.

“If we do not stop this then we shall see the arrival of the IS (ideology) into our country. We can already see this dangerous line of thinking in how they are labeling people,” Mat Sabu told the ceramah.

“Those with differing views are deemed as liberals, munafik (pretenders), jebon (derogatory term to describe traitors) and if we fail to contain this (line of thinking) then we will become like the middle east – which has been devastated by sectarian wars.”

Mat Sabu predicted should Malaysia become engulfed in sectarian violence, it would take decades for the country to recover much similar to the war-torn Arab nations.

We are not here to underwrite your stupidity. If you find that you’re intelligently challenged for the job, I think we are more than happy to sack you and spare you all the anguish.” 

It has not been a good year for Malaysians in general. Consumer prices in Malaysia rose 1.8% year-on-year in April, up from 0.9% in March. The increase is largely due to the implementation of GST on April 1 this year.

The government has already begun its subsidy rationalisation programme last year that saw a removal of petrol subsidy, which is replaced with a managed float mechanism that is adjusted monthly. Despite data showing a lower-than-forecasted inflation rate due to the falling oil prices, the man on the street continues to see increase in prices of goods. This is despite assurances that basic food items, medicine and education would be zero-rated. 

“Basically (the government is) asking for a mammoth demonstration. I can’t see any other way people will respond to it. The GST is already affecting the people since goods and services are being taxed at 6%, but this is 30%. For many motorists who commute daily, this is a heavy burden,” says Wong. By Raphael Wong 

6/15/2015 9:00:00 AM - The Heat OnIne.

Sharing a thought provoking article. for Peace.

Saturday, June 13, 2015

M.T. Keshe declares the end of war & the beginning of peace on earth

Mehran Tavakoli Keshe, Iranian-born nuclear engineer

On the twenty-first of May 2015, the Keshe Foundation in its weekly workshop announced the beginning of setting up the procedure for establishing the promised WORLD PEACE.

In this announcement, we explained that the process to achieve global peace will take shape in the coming months through the work of the Keshe Foundation and the release of further new knowledge through the teaching arm of the Foundation, during the daily live-streamed sessions from its Spaceship Institute in Trani, Italy.

In these teachings during the past months we have taught, and in the coming months we shall continue to teach new scientific criteria and systems that shall open the path for the process of using the new technology for establishing peace.

We shall teach step-by-step procedures that start and bring into action what it takes to achieve the ultimate goal of the Foundation, which is to facilitate and finally enforce World Peace through applications and implications of the use of new technology.

In this paper we are setting the roadmap to achieve this elusive peace amongst men through the collective effort of the citizens of this planet, without relying on any government or path of belief.

In this roadmap, we rely on the total collective efforts of the human race to develop and deliver the technological knowledge to the world public, which takes the need for governments out of the equation, eliminating the need for consent of the present controllers of the human souls.

We totally rely on the maturity of Mankind in understanding what has caused the problems of the past, and how it can be overcome.

In this cycle of the maturity of Man, we do not depend on any government or faith, but we take into account that Man has matured enough to take responsibility for his own destiny, to be living a correct life and conducting his affairs in line with living in peace amongst other creatures of God on this planet and in deep space.

Our roadmap is simple and clear; It has taken millions of years for Man to become such a destructive being, as man has seen solutions in everything, by destroying and ending processes, only for him to survive and rule his world, through acts like eating animals, killing fellow men, ending cultures, destroying races or paths of belief, and by this method he has enforced his myopic will on defeated entities.

Through the release of new knowledge we have shown that Man can cover every need of his existence without destroying other life or harming other souls, by using and understanding that all forces and energies of the universe are within his reach and command, if he gathers the knowledge and intelligence of how to harvest and use them to support others' well-being.

Thus with the release of this new universal science and technology we have been and are taking step by step  the essence of killing and destruction out of the RNA and DNA of the Man, that he does not need to teach his children the mistakes of the past, and hence, for the first time in the life of this creature of the universe, we can introduce the process of obtaining, without needing to resort to the destruction of any other being in the universe.

Even if Man does not stop this ethos of killing and destruction of the essence of this creation of the Earth, now that we are opening the doors of universal science and technology for the Man to travel into deep space and to join the universal community, Man will understand that unknowingly or knowingly he cannot take steps to destroy another being for food or by having false intentions in respect to other creatures of space, and their reaction to protect themselves from being consumed or destroyed, and that this action leads to annihilation of the Man in the open spans of the universe.

In our teachings, we have shown and taught how to make new elements and free plasma, which can release enough energy to be sufficient to produce new materials to satisfy the need for energy and material for man in space, we have shown how to produce energies which can lead to the creation of motion in space, without the destruction of other entities.

The pitfalls of killing have been apparent to Man, but he has not managed to find a way out of this ever-closed maze of need as a justification for the killings, thus now we need time and new procedures that will make man understand and take action, and put into effect the process of de-killing, as killing has been ingrained in his daily pattern of life for millions of years.

Thus now we guide Man in how to walk away from the habit of killing. Even though this shall not be easy, it needs perseverance and understanding, and a correct path of approach and conduct, and understanding of the working of the universe, and we are here to teach it all.

It is better to start with small steps at a time, that all men can understand and have time to think about the process of peace.

To this effect we are setting the following roadmap for the coming months, and if it fails we have our means to enforce the will of the majority of the race for peaceful co-existence amongst men and other creatures of the universe.

To start, we appoint one peace day per month, starting from June 2015, so that man starts making efforts and thinks about the alternative and correct path.

So it follows:

    The first day of peace is appointed to be the 21st of June 2015, and this day of peace will as well follow on the 21st of July and August.

    In September, October and November, there will be two days of peace a month, on the 21st and 22nd of each month.

    In December 2015 and January and February of 2016, we increase the days of peace to three days a month from the 21st to the 23rd.

    From 21st of March of 2016, we increase the days of peace to 7 days a month, from the 21st to the 27th of each month for the following three months.

    From 21st of June 2016, we increase the peace days to 14 days a month, again for three months.

    From 21st of September 2016, we increase the peace days to 21 days a month, for three months.

    By 21st of December 2016, we ask and shall enforce peace indefinitely as designated.

We expect to give time to the armies of the world to not even fire a single bullet during these days, not even for training purposes.

We expect to relay the plan for peace process to all sides of wars and conflicts, be it military, terrorist groups, or the opposite side of the same parties.

This process of achieving peace will be shared and delivered by all the members of the Keshe Foundation, its supporters and interested parties, by completing the first space star formation reactors and simultaneously creating the field forces to silence the guns around the world, as we showed this process on Christmas Day of 2014, by using three sets of star formations around the world, one in Germany, one in Canada, and one in Italy, simultaneously coordinated to stop a reactor operation in Italy, as was broadcasted live on the internet, to show our intention and will.

We are teaching this process by making and operating space reactors rapidly in our Spaceship Institute, live on the internet on a daily basis, and soon we will test the first series of these reactors and their effect on a chosen number of satellites, which shall be designated to us by the world military for testing, that we decommission them live on the internet, with world leaders monitoring the process.

Then, as we have mentioned, we will bring to halt the motion of military ships and military crafts, which will be allocated to the Foundation for testing the concept by their respective peace loving nations.

This way, we bring an end to the present unlimited expenditure on tools of war, which makes their present implication by the application of the new technology obsolete.

By this act, governments are released from ever spending money for tools of war, and so they can make these finances of war available for manufacturing the tools and systems for peace and for covering the essential needs of their citizens, like making shelter and food.

We are not confronting governments, but setting the scene to show that the current military and defense technologies are out of date, and that there is no need for their renewal or any further expenditure on arms.

We share our space technology with all nations and respectively, if the nations do not accept these tests of the show of the end of arms manufacturing and the end to conflicts, then members and supporters of the Foundation worldwide will choose a satellite for it to be taken out of commission, and we will inform the governments of the intention, to make sure the satellite is not in use during the decommissioning, using the spaceship technology of the Keshe Foundation.

With this gap of three months from 21st of June 2015 to September of 2015, we give governments themselves a chance to start the process of re-allocation of the works of military factories and arms producing companies to the production of new systems of the new technology for peace, so that jobs can be preserved.

With this roadmap, we call upon all Keshe Foundation supporters to allow all national leaders and spiritual leaders of your communities and as many citizens to be aware of our intention to start the peace process, starting from the 21st of June of 2015.

If within the first three months we do not see any movement with this process amongst the world leaders, we will begin the process of showing the power of the technology and our wish to start the process of peace, as one nation, one planet, and one Keshe Foundation family.

In this process of enforcing peace, we shall not harm anyone or any soul, we shall not cause any structural damage or any physical or financial losses to any nation. But we will stop warships on the high seas, and decommission fighter planes of all nations on the runways, we will erase the memory of so-called men of arms, that they shall not remember why they are carrying arms and what they were fighting for.

This time around, there shall be no punishment for anyone, but only progressive development and release of more technologies to be available, that the old ways become obsolete.

In this manner, more and more new knowledge, science and technologies shall be released into the public domain through daily teachings at the Spaceship Institute, that these actions force the disarmament and the unity of Man, and the end to all wars.

These advancements in technology as has been shown are in:

    CO2 capture

    Health systems

    The star formation systems for creation of lift and motion

    Production of water units

    Creation of low power through the use of Gans and nano-layers.

We welcome everyone to support this move, and if need be we shall show Man that out of fear of loss he shall agree and connect and erase the ethos of war from the memory bank of his brain.

We have the technology to do this, we have shown its work over the past ten years, now we are ready to use it to start the process of the roadmap for achieving peace.

We invite political and religious leaders to join us to achieve this goal, because if we take this step, then there is no need for either, as they have failed the Man in the past.

I am resolute as the Founder of the Keshe Foundation to see this process through, as shown in the past we let governments be divided between peace and war, and now we let the citizens of the planet take their future in their own hands, and let them take their position in the universal community as peace-loving creatures, by changing their old ethos.

With this process, we will bring an end to the old system of section leadership as presidents and kings, and we will bring and end to the religious structure to abuse.

I have put an end to the process of religion and religious abuse in the name of God, and I have abolished the process of using the name of God to abuse and force abuse of the Man.

With this roadmap of peace, I declare the new cycle for the Men of the Earth, and with this cycle of peace, with trust in one's soul and action, that the new promise of unity becomes reality, as I have the knowledge and elements of the universe at my disposal, to bring the peace to this planet in my time.

I accept no deviation and no negotiation, but only the path which has been set above.

The change has to come from within, because if I force it, then it will be harsh and unbearable for every man.

I call upon the world leaders with this open letter to start the talks for the universal disarmament of all armies, and I give assurance that I shall see that no man will harm others, if need be.

I take no position in this process, except the monitoring of the process for Man to achieve this peace through correct transition.

I have all that the universe has to offer at my disposal, to bring about the change, but it is in the hand of the Man to start the process, so that I can assist.

In My Name I will act, and In My Name I shall succeed, if needs be, single-handedly.

My aim to achieve peace in the appointed time is my wish and my command, and shall not be diverted from.

I call for all men of peace to come together to see the beginning of the most beautiful time for Man, on this broken wing of this endangered bird called Earth, flying through the space of the universe.

IN MY NAME
(even though some would like to call it the Messiah)
27.5.2015

Adapted from Magick River Face Book Entry.