Rattling off some cobwebs

The blogging has met with a wall for sometime now as the mind is trying to cope with what is, and what Is is not so awe-inspiring or earth shaking except for the basic fact the I am at the survival mode trying to stay afloat As I have been moaning and groaning in the past about how life can be so tedious and I hate to say it boring sprinkled with a whole lot of petty crap like bills and illnesses, aches and pains, it is not an easy thing to sit and let out any positive vibes for the world to share. So for the whole day yesterday I sat with my fever ridden daughter watching a Korean Drama Series called "something Inheritance" All about what money can do to people who worship money in the name of survival and a whole lot of human drama like love and hate, compassion and hate. After watching a few i got hooked with the story line and decided that what better day to spend with my sick daughter than to get a bunch of munchies and watch the story unfold.
Although it was just a fictional story of Korean modern life style, it could happen and is happening anywhere and everywhere in the world. After awhile I realized that the story had more than a few things to teach me about human traits both positive and negative. That we are all fragile and full of holes most of the times in dealing with all that life has to throw at us and at times we can overcome any and every obstacles if we put our mind to doing so. We judge and accuse others while blind to our own faults and weaknesses, and yet at times we can making decisions that would change the lives of others through our sense of love and understanding. We are indeed unpredictable creatures swinging from one end of the pendulum to the other in our moods as we parade through this highway we call life.
I have come to the point of feeling my age creeping into my skin and bones, my aching muscles and nagging headaches and surrendering to the fact the change for the better is a long shot if and when it ever occurs in this lifetime for me. I am beginning to accept the fact that all I have to do is maintain what I already have and keep trudging along till I am ready to knock on heaven's door. My health most importantly and my sanity and peace of mind, my creative energy and sensitivity towards the plight of others and my consciousness of being who I am and where I want to be at.
I am 62 and although without anything worthwhile to show for financially I am not too deeply in debt that I would have to resort to drastic measures to survive. My children are mostly independent as they are all familiar with the ways of the world in their own capacity or at least they will survive if and when I depart. I have done all i could for them which in the eyes of those who sees success in terms of money would amount to nothing but for me to see that my children have thus far survived life without drifting into its ugly traps like drugs and so on is more than I can ask for. I have always believed in teaching by example and i know there are times i could have done much much better at ti but... life too has its quirks. Not meaning to begrudge those who have, I still believe that life is not about how rich you are but how well you distribute your wealth.It is not about how many cars or homes you may have but how well you are thought of and loved by you r friends and foes alike. I am no spiritual Guru by a long shot and have made many a blunder having strayed from the 'Right Path" through my life thus far, however i am happy in a sense that at 62 i can reflect back into my past and cherish many good times that few can say they had encountered in their lives and for these I am forever thankful to my Maker as I believe deeply that without His blessings I would not have had the opportunity
I have been doing some painting getting ready for two upcoming exhibitions in a month or two and thus far it has been going on smoothly with new surprises happening with the techniques and ideas. At last i am feeling more comfortable breaking away from being rigidly stuck with creating pictures and am moving into what i had been steering away from which is Abstract Art forms. My struggle with doing what is considered an abstract is that sometimes in the past I was into it so much that it became a sham for my liking, but now that I am being asked to work on 'Space Art" as a theme abstract art seems to come as an after effect. The more i attempt at creating what is to me 'Space' the more i felt the different approaches and styles in depicting the theme.  Its the in the act creating that I find comfort these days and the fact that i have been relocated into a new space for a studio at MGTF is an added incentive in the sense that it is a challenge to create while on the constant move and changes of venues.The fact that i never had a studio that is permanently located and considered my own still remains throughout my life, I am still a squatter, a transient. Such Is!.