Is this all there Is?

While at the Peak of the Mystic Mountain and looking around me i have come to realize that it is all the same and not a thing has really changed whether one is at the top or standing there at the foot of the mountain. The baggage one has carried with one is still on one's shoulders and they are still the reminders of what or who you are or what you have perceived yourself to be. How does one change from what is into what???

Change is a turning off and on of the state of mind one is in from that which is into that which really is the state one seek to be in something or somewhere that presumably a state one desires. A state perhaps of ultimate reality or manifestation of Truth a break from this realm called in Buddhist term the world of Illusions 'Maya'. Reality is relative to each person in his or her conditioned mind and perceptions and what is real can only be real to the individual according to what his or her mind has arrived at in dealing with the nature of reality subject to the depth of understanding and deductive capabilites of the individual, the amount of knowledge accumulated and the power of direct perception itself into the nature of what is Truth. To arrive at this stage in life one has to have earned the rights of passge which in my case includes having covered enough grounds in years and space having lived on this planet with one sole desire and that is to come face to face with my own original nature in Truth.

I was invited to a press conference for the 'D-Home' society for their launching of a fundraisng drive which will take place on the 4th next month. I had donated two of my Mono prints for the occaision and these will be autioned on the date. As I sar listening to the presentation I was impressed and it was the call I had been hoping for as I had always wanted to make one form of contribution or another towards a charity of my choice and this was perfect. D-Home is an organization that is concerned with the mentally ill and those in need of some form of psychiatric aid. I might need their services in the future who can say?

My article appeared in the 'Star Papers today! WOW! I am stepping in to tyhe unknown it said taking my chances becoming a full time Artist at a time when just about everyone is telling me to get a job! Yes it is a challenge and my faults and errors, my weaknesses of the past has surfaced more than ever to discourage me from such an undertaking; there is just no livng that can be made out of being an artist these days at least no in this country. There is a lack of aesthetic appriciation and a drive away from the creative arts as superfluous or a waste of money and time. At the behest of the ruling power it is best to focus on growing things and raising fish or chickens for the benifit of the hungry nation. All these while I wonder what we have been living on and why the sudden need for much more food when the nation has not really multiplied in numbers so tremendously that we are in dire need of more to eat. The government may have its reasons other than the rise in oil and various other prices including food but this is still Maya!

Truth is we have become a nation of wasters for too long and we have squandere our wealth unrestraintly when we had more than we needed. We are a corrupted lot all of us from top to bottom and we would sell our mothers at the drop of a hat to survive or get a little more of our 'share'. One is never enough for us and given a chance we want to become not only independantly wealthy as the rights of everyone to be but we wnat to be filthy rich given whatever it takes. We will keep on building higher and higher till there no more room up there to build and we will keep on pointing our fingers at eachother when things goes wrong but the day we learn to point a finger at our own errors and weaknesses is yet to come, we still beleive we are right and being right gives us the power to waste whatever it is that our country has to offer untill our very natural resources runs dry and our hills and mountain are barren eroded to the bone while our rivers and oceans gets silted and polluted beyond return. Do we care? Hell no!

We are a nation more interested in who sodomize who and how we can manipulate our losses to make things looks just as rosy as though we are innocent and pure in our intentions. We cannot take defeat without chewing off our fingers and we cannot say I am sorry without making it sound like it is a curse. We pride ourselves for being a multiracial nation like none other in the world but we have yet to learn about our neighbor what or how their lives can be eased with our little help. Compassion and Love has become an alien word in our vocabulary and sharing and giving is a foolishness only ppreached and practiced by those who has none or little to give in the first place. So how can we ever see beauty or aesthetic awareness around us without some form of prejudiced preconceived ideas lurking behind our perceptions. Such qualities are for the intellects and the cultured few we say, for us there is only the rise in oil prices and the sodomy of Government officials in one form or another. This the legacy we are leaving our next generation along with the desicrated environment.

The fine arts may oneday be a thing of the past in the psyche of the next few generations of clones and computer nerds to be replaced by the state of the art computerized images that can create much greater illusionsa than ever before so much so the nothing in the world is sacred anymore as all can be altered to the finest untraceable likeness by the computer generated imgery. We trust what we see and pictures tell a thousand words, not so anymore, you cannot trust what you see unless you are so myopic that your perception is sorely in need of an aesthetis operation. The veils that is place upon our sense of perception and our conciousness is getting thicker and thicker and our hearts are getting blinded by layers of dellusions created for us that we have become enveloped in a darkness of our own creation, yet we still believe we are on the right track towards our salvation whatever that may be for ech and everyone of us.
The AlMIghty have mercy on all of us!!