A note of Repentance to my Lord.

Astarghfirullah  Al Gafururu Rahim, forgive me O Lord of Forgineveness and Mercy for all my transgressions of the past, present and future. From the most heinous to the slightest, from those that I nkow of and that which I knew not, Forgive me my sins towards my parents and those who came before them, my sins towards my family and friends, forgive me for my not eing able to fulfill all my obligations towards You and my negligence of duty towards my fellow man. Forgive me Lord for my weaknesses and my ignorance, my slothfulness and my decadence of behavior. I ask of Your Grace and Mercy for You are oft forgiving and Most Merciful and not a thing moves within and without except by Your Will and Yours alone. I surrender my Soul, mind and body unto You in life and in death. Amen.

Alhamdullilah hirabbil Alamin, I thank you Lord for all the Grace and Mercy that You have granted me throughout my life and those You have shown towards my Parents and theirs and may You place them among those who are free from Your retribution for whatever their transgressions had been. I thank You Lord for the Grace that You have showered upon me and my fellow man in one form or another to ease their their burden in life as od mine. For You are the Lord of the Universe, The Lord of Creation, from You I came and unto You I shall return. May all beings be awakened by this realization that they may return to the source of their origin. You are the Originator of this Supreme Consciousness that pervades all Beings and Non Beings alike and not an atom moves without Your approval and not a leaf drops in the forest wihtout Your awareness. You are the Omniscience, Omnipresent, Omni-Lord of Creation. I prosterate my Being bfore Your throne. I bear witness that there is none but only You worthy of Worship, Love and Devotion.

I place none above or below me save You my Lord and I pray that all my actions beit good or otherwise sanctioned by your Grace in this life and submit my will to be as Yours no matter the circumstances. For all my life has always been surrendered to You in its entirety with no reservations. I worship Thee with every breath I take knowingly or otherwise and let this be my testimony of my repentance for all the wrong that I have committed and may You forgive me in the Now and the hereafter. I am eternally grateful for all that I have tasted in this life, the sweet and the bitterness that it has to offer and I remain Your humble servant for eternity. 

AllahuAkhbar! Indeed You are Great and there in none, only You worthy of my worship. Lead me O'Lord from the unreal to the real, from darkness to ligt and from death to immortality...Ameen. 

   

Update on the status of Self inquiry.

 There is not much to be said except that the seeker and that which is sught after has become one and truly not uch difference. The mind still rules and dictates every minute and every second of what is out there and in here, not much can be done about it as it is like an old habit that refuses to die. But as life progresses and the body shows telltale signs of immanent slowdown and perhaps even decay, the one who had embarked upon this long journey still remains in the back ground watching and observing the ups and downs of this roller coaster ride,experiencing every moment as a witness, a watcher an observer,only now refraining from making any more efforts to change or try to become otherwise. Aceeptance is the next practice and it is not as simple as it may seem as the mind has much more to offer in all its glory like a challenge towards making it a test of endurance and perserverence. Meditation helps but to a degree that the more one sits the more the mind imposes upon the one who meditates. It has been told that ths is inevitable when one meditates that mind will gets stronger in projecting itself through thoughts and dreams and rampant imaginations.

  Hence the one way to circumnavigate this onslaught of mental formations is to ignor what arises and move on with greater consciousness of the outcome of each and every thought and not project any new perception to counter them. Detached observation that allows for the mind to work itself out as they arise and simply watching how they move along and fade from consciousness, like clouds in an empty sky.Worries, fears and anxieties they rise and fall reacting to the external circustances, like not having a the road tax renewed or meetinf a police road block, what to cook for lunch or dinner, or how the kids are faring with their lives day to day. As a practice, feeding the birds, the cat and watering the plants helps to occupy the mind towards a more productive projections rather than imposing random meaningless thoughts to upset the tranquility of one's consciousness. 

Om! Deliver us from the unreal to the RealFrom the Darkness to Light, From Death unto Immortality. Om - Peace, Peace, Peace.

This age old Mantra has proven effective somewhat in putting a damper upon the onslaught of negative thoughts an so does Astarghfirrullah al Azim or the beseige for foegiveness of the Lord of Creation. Yes the need for the intervention from the 'Higher Consciousness' is without doubt relevant in order to provide a veil against the rise of incessant mental formations and is evoked when things gets out of hand. It is indeed not an easy task to maintain a steady gaurd against getting one's state of consciousness free from being shaken in the wind of change and especially ageing, but it has to be thoroughly obeserved as the result of one's years of so called practice would amount to nothing. Mantras, chants, recitations and prayers are crucial towards keeping the soul from being side swept by the dual thinking mind. These are the links and chains that one weave into the armour that protects one from getting waylaid and drown into the quagmire of distortion due to the mind's influences.