To un-educate myself from all forms of former education in this life is primarily what I have been doing as one who is looking for answers in life albeit, spiritual or material/physical realm. What i have been educated with from my early year in school and at home has been mostly a very restrictive and conditioning form of mind controlling such that i was mostly afraid to confront my fears and doubts. I was mostly loaded with information that made me subservient to my so called superiors, to follow orders and not free to transcend beyond the norm. It was like living in the matrix or someone else's making and i had very little to say for myself; either follow of be punished. I chose to break away from this norm at a very early years of my young adult life by leaving my restricted environment and headed for the United States. In the US after having gone through my initial trials and tribulations, i broke free from yet another form of conscription, that of being a family man when I was hardly ready to bear the role especially in a country where i had to battle for my own identity as a colored foreigner in a 'Red neck' neighborhood.
After working for three and half years in the meat packing plants of Wisconsin, I told myself that enough was enough and I was not cut to become like the cattle that i was butchering day in day out in the cold Wisconsin winters. It was by divine miracle that i was offered to study at the University of Wisconsin in Green Bay where i spent five years of my life self discovering. it was the best or the worse times of my life but I learned what it takes to survive on my own in someone else's backyard. I learned what my mind was capable of when allowed free reign and how it can not only get myself to where i wanted to be but also put me where i should not have been in terms of relationships and self preservation. I not only survived the cold Wisconsin weather but i also freed myself from self bondage. it was in green bay that i truly had my first epiphany, my awakening to who i I am.
I remember sitting in front of the television one afternoon watching Giligan's Island sometime in 1973 and it was fall with the trees leafless and the skies grey outside the bay window of my mother in law's house. I was clad in my 'sarong' and a white T-Shirt because it was very warm in the house thanks to my thoughtful mother in law who turned the heat on high so his Malaysian son in law would not freeze his buns. My wife and son and i had just arrived from Malaysia after a very long and tedious flight and were quarantined for being infected by shillelagh worm on the flight , so said the doctors. No one leaves the house including my sister in law until we were all cleared of the infection. It was like being trapped in a cabin and for me it was the worse agony as my four month old son was constantly in pain and screaming. I had my emotional breakdown which almost cost my son's life and mine at one point, as things got worse.
As i sat there in front of the TV I looked from the corner of my eyes out of the window and noticed that large cotton balls were floating down from the silent grey sky and the contrast was so drastic that i felt the world around had gone silent including the TV that was a few feet away from me. I was stunned by the phenomena and rose form my seat and dashed out of the house through the backdoor and as i passed the kitchen i could barely hear my wife screaming after me something and wham! i was outside. I was on the lawn and with my arms out stretched and my head looking up and tongue sticking out; I was trying to catch the snow flakes in my mouth; my first snow. I came to when i heard my mother in law screaming at me to get my butt inside before i freeze them. Then I realized how ridiculous i must have looked twirling like a dervish out there in the cold winter day in my 'skirt' or sarong and T'shirt with nothing else on. My feet were the first to send the message to my brain to get out of the cold and I dashed back into the house and as i was climbing the small steps into the kitchen a voice in my head started talking to me in Bahasa Malaysia or Malay. "You are now in a foreign land where no one really knows you and you hardly know anyone. You have the choice to become who you wish to be, a coward or a hero, a shy and frightened soul or one who is free from fears and doubts and no one can tell the difference; your choice now! "tepok dada, tanya selera", beat your chest (like the gorillas do) and go for the gusto! I did.
This was how my life began in the United States where i lived my life for 21 years and this was my first awakening experience that had carried me through thick and thin; the rest was history. A very close friend once said to me, "Sam, you are more of an American than an American!" I spent eight years in Wisconsin, two years in the Bering Sea off Alaska, a year in the Washington State area and and ten years in the San Francisco Bay Area. I lived life i can safely say, to the fullest, from being a decadent college student to a yard superintendent in a major ship and environmental company in the SF Bay Area. From living in the home of a millionaire employer and celebrating my 40th. birthday at the Fairmont Hotel in downtown SF to becoming a homeless on Haight and Ashbury. I was married twice to two Americans and had a child that i did know of by a Swiss. I almost committed myself to becoming a Zen monk and an alcoholic with a drug addiction problem; it was the best and the worse of times since i 'beat my chest and screamed within me that I can do what I will to do! one cold winter day in Green Bay Wisconsin.
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Monday, October 24, 2016
Mind Watching - 1
Mind watching is an Art and it takes a whole lot of practice to achieve some form understanding s to what it entails and how it benefits one. Most modern and ancient philosophers and teachings have been expounding and insisting that we watch our mind and understand how it works so that we can better manage our lives with better and not get trapped by the veils of ignorance that the mind has the tendency to lead us into every so often. It has taken me almost a life time to come to a point where i can see and feel how my mind works in deviating from any 'good' intentions i try to manifest, or come to any form of single pointed attention in my sense perception. The mind is like a carriage with four wild horses pulling it in four different directions and the charioteer has to be able to bring these beasts into acting in synchronicity in order to make any headway on the road. First one has to recognize who is the charioteer, who holds the rein and crack the whip.
A good charioteer will know his animals very well by the time he has them hitched to the chariot, he got to know his animals right from their very young age; from colts till they become stallions. He raised and trained them to obey his commands without any hesitation while on the road, they are his children so to speak. Horses are temperamental animals and have their own minds about who they are who they obey. There are horses that moves instantly at the click of the rider's tongue and there are those that moves at the sight of the whip and then there are those that moves after feeling the crack of the whip on its flank and worse of all there are those that refuses to move even when beaten to death. Hence to know your horses well helps a great deal in making for a smooth ride.
To understand the mind is like training the four horses to act as one and when this happens the mind becomes more single pointed and has greater ability to perform and action spontaneously. However the mind is a whole lot elusive as it has more than just four horses with four different temperaments.Hence it takes a whole lot more to understand how the mind functions and how to put it to better use. The mind can work for us or it can be our biggest obstruction in not understood. To recognize the fact that I am not the body, nor am I the mind is one of the keys towards working with the mind. I do not need to go any deeper into this profess that i have made to myself a long time ago although I had to struggle in understanding its significance in the beginning, but over the years i learned the truth of the matter. I am not saying that i have mastered or understood my mind fully today, bu suffice to say i can spot myself getting wrapped up in my thoughts more often than before. One of the causes of this is the distraction I allow myself from various forms of external stimuli. Some i got so attached to that i have a very hard time to detach from them and they intrude upon my inner workings and these are the stubborn horses that needs more than just the flick of the whip to get them to disappear and allow my mind mind the freedom to act with better clarity.
Fear and anxiety is a major cause for the mind to become distracted from its course and pleasure too can be a source of distraction when over indulged. In the practice of Satipatthana;
Satipaṭṭhāna is the establishment or arousing of mindfulness, as part of the Buddhist practices leading to detachment and liberation.
Traditionally, mindfulness is thought to be applied to four domains, "constantly watching sensory experience in order to prevent the arising of cravings which would power future experience into rebirths,"[1] namely mindfulness of the body, feelings/sensations, mind/consciousness, anddhammās.[2]
there is a practice called "bare Attention" whereby one simply observe without attachment to what one observes. To put simply, when you see a lady walking by do not add thoughts like she has nice piece of ass or nice this or that, (being a man that i am). One just notices a person passing by and is gone once she is out of sight. This practice in all its forms helps to decrease the activity of the mental state, like in judgement and making choices; I like what I am seeing or I don't. It is a good place to start making for less distractions and attachments.
It is in our human nature to collect knowledge from whatever sources that comes our way and of our interest. The mind has the capacity to accumulate information much greater than the computer is able to and its memory bank is limitless and to access the mind all one need to do is trigger a thought process, an idea or simply allow for it to materialize these information without your help as most of us are doing all through our lives. Thoughts arises like waves upon the ocean or clouds in the sky, they come and they go; you are the ocean and the sky; the observer. Science has proven that the observer has an effect upon what is observed and from this we get the insight that we the observer has the right over what we observe and can make or shape it as we wish. When the observer becomes fully present and aware of what is being observed there is no more observer and the observed; all barriers is removed and the they become one and the same. Creative people like musicians and artist become one with their creations, the instruments and tools merely transports this phenomena into manifestation.
In watching the Mind and understanding its functions and capabilities one can transcend all limitations the has been preconditioned into our lives from childhood till today; step back and observe. Drop all inhibitions and conditions and attachment or detachment and become one with the impeccable tool that we are endowed with; the Human Mind, HUMIND.
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Moaning and Groaning is part and parcel of life.
I need R300 to get my car paper works taken care of and till now am still wondering where it is going to fall from. I need money to fix my decaying teeth four or five needs to be removed as they are causing so much pain just about every day and night and I need money to get my eye sights fixed as i am beginning to see more haze even when it is raining and no haze is being reported in the area. I need money to buy some new art materials as i am scouring the last bit from my tubes of paint and no new canvases to work from. Last but not least i need money to pay for my loan of R5700 or be crucified in court financially and that is not taking into consideration of my daily subsistence. Yes I need, I need I need!
However, thank the good Lord for small favors in the form of relatives and friends who has made it possible form me to not just call it quit and hang myself. Such is suffering like it or not, just got to get it out and over with, so there is less pressure building up in the cooker which incidentally has been the cause of my
incessant migraine headache of late. I had not been writing much lately simply because... what is there to write about that would make reading a more pleasant and uplifting experience for others. Sharing one's dirty linen in public is frown upon by most, but I am sharing it anyway because not to is more destructive as it is my way of letting off the steam or trying to make sense of my life, my thoughts and my feelings and my Blog was started off with this intention in mind; it was not meant to entertain the general public. I chose to write my life out so that it can be sorted out through self discovery where errors made are mended and mistakes are learned from and changes made. It was not intended to have a following of readers but like everything that is kept on going for a long time, it is bound to grow and collect followers.
Hence this Blog has evolved into an open diary that hopefully will be of help to some who has taken their time to peruse and reflect upon what it has to offer in between the lines of hidden thoughts and ideas. For what it is worth this Blog has gathered a life of its own, for it keeps on demanding that i write like it or not; it has become another addiction. It is not as bad as it seems, truth be told and truth is the key to writing about my life as often, like it or not truth hurts worse than four rotten teeth, or loosing my sense of sight or the humiliation of having to beg for my daily bread. But, for as long as I am breathing and am able to get to this location to make my daily entry, I am not doing too bad as things could have been worse like trying to survive in Syria or forced to live the life of a refugee looking for shelter from the storm.
Thus I am grateful for what i have or lack thereof as my life is still a breeze compared to most and i am blessed with a beautiful and loving daughter who despite her own trials and tribulations is always there with a smile on her face whenever she sees me. I am glad that through all these she has grown into a strong and willful individual; another survivor. My three sons, well there is not much that can be said as each and everyone of them has their own life to traverse and it is doubtful that I am of any major concern in their itinerary at present. If one believe in Karma than Karma it is that I am being punished for, my past lack or reverence towards the family life and filial piety, but it is not worth regretting of water under the bridge as it cannot be made to reverse its course any more than one can undo what has been. So as i have often reiterated in the past, it is a matter of how do i turn shit into compost and grown new crops that can be of benefit to others yet to come; so making sense out of non-sense is perhaps my way of atoning for my sins. The physical and mental anguish over lack of funds and so forth are just manifestations of my inner state of being in this body and still breathing.
I feel Lighter already! Time to be creative, Time to paint.
However, thank the good Lord for small favors in the form of relatives and friends who has made it possible form me to not just call it quit and hang myself. Such is suffering like it or not, just got to get it out and over with, so there is less pressure building up in the cooker which incidentally has been the cause of my
incessant migraine headache of late. I had not been writing much lately simply because... what is there to write about that would make reading a more pleasant and uplifting experience for others. Sharing one's dirty linen in public is frown upon by most, but I am sharing it anyway because not to is more destructive as it is my way of letting off the steam or trying to make sense of my life, my thoughts and my feelings and my Blog was started off with this intention in mind; it was not meant to entertain the general public. I chose to write my life out so that it can be sorted out through self discovery where errors made are mended and mistakes are learned from and changes made. It was not intended to have a following of readers but like everything that is kept on going for a long time, it is bound to grow and collect followers.
Hence this Blog has evolved into an open diary that hopefully will be of help to some who has taken their time to peruse and reflect upon what it has to offer in between the lines of hidden thoughts and ideas. For what it is worth this Blog has gathered a life of its own, for it keeps on demanding that i write like it or not; it has become another addiction. It is not as bad as it seems, truth be told and truth is the key to writing about my life as often, like it or not truth hurts worse than four rotten teeth, or loosing my sense of sight or the humiliation of having to beg for my daily bread. But, for as long as I am breathing and am able to get to this location to make my daily entry, I am not doing too bad as things could have been worse like trying to survive in Syria or forced to live the life of a refugee looking for shelter from the storm.
Thus I am grateful for what i have or lack thereof as my life is still a breeze compared to most and i am blessed with a beautiful and loving daughter who despite her own trials and tribulations is always there with a smile on her face whenever she sees me. I am glad that through all these she has grown into a strong and willful individual; another survivor. My three sons, well there is not much that can be said as each and everyone of them has their own life to traverse and it is doubtful that I am of any major concern in their itinerary at present. If one believe in Karma than Karma it is that I am being punished for, my past lack or reverence towards the family life and filial piety, but it is not worth regretting of water under the bridge as it cannot be made to reverse its course any more than one can undo what has been. So as i have often reiterated in the past, it is a matter of how do i turn shit into compost and grown new crops that can be of benefit to others yet to come; so making sense out of non-sense is perhaps my way of atoning for my sins. The physical and mental anguish over lack of funds and so forth are just manifestations of my inner state of being in this body and still breathing.
I feel Lighter already! Time to be creative, Time to paint.
Thursday, October 13, 2016
The time To Wake Up is Now.
Perhaps it is just another passing phase in the history of the Planet, but the Third World War is looming in the horizon as a whole lot of saber rattling is going on between the Western Bloc and the rest of the world with the United States taking on the leading role as the instigator. Most of the lay people of the world are living oblivious to this impending major upheaval about to be unleashed by the powers that be. There is off course not very much that we the common folks can do about what is about to happen that will change our very lives for good if we survive the holocaust of a Nuclear War. The fingers triggering the buttons to let loose the many nuclear war heads upon the impending targets are itching to test their power at who can draw faster like in the good old cowboy movies. Who has got the guts to make the first move or who can stare down the enemy through shear guts like little boys in the playground.
Why should it concern me? I am old and am approaching the end of my days sooner than most, so why should i be concern what is going to happen to this planet in the near future. I have experienced the best and the worse that this life has to offer and then some; what is there to worry or regret about? But i do, i am concerned for the well being of my children and theirs when the time comes. I am concerned for those innocent would be victims that would have to endure untold misery on account of a few pig headed war mongers and self aggrandizing so called world leaders giving vent to their anger in ignorance. Most of humanity especially those who are living day to day eking a living and barely surviving do not know or much less care for what the so called super powers are up to in their war rooms, they are simply living like there is only one thing in mind and that is to seek food and shelter and hopefully some form of peace and comfort while at it. For those who are in the know, who make the effort to understand through whatever sources available, the picture is not good for humanity.
However all is not lost yet as there are counter measures that at at work in the form of peace loving movements spreading all over the world like the Human Rights foundation, the Isha Foundation, the many spiritual and religious bodies like the Buddhist schools and Christian and Muslim peace movements transcending all the greed and hatred that has been unleashed by those hunger for power and dominion over others. Humanity is resilient when its very survival is at stake and today with the spread of the information technology which allow for a better and more transparent exposure of what is happening, humanity will rise to put a stop to these war mongering entities once and for all; all good men will rise for the occasion. And for those who still live in denial and ignorance, the upheaval when it happens will be a wake up call that will shake their souls to the core; WW3 will make WW2 look like a child's play.
I hope and pray that it will blow away and the world will preserve itself from self destruction. I hope and pray that the blood thirsting madness will come to an end with not an incident and defy all the end of the world predictions and revelations even if the ball has be set rolling towards our demise. The All Mighty works in mysterious ways it is said by just every religious faith and i hope and pray that the Lord will intervene before it is too late. Working towards a peaceful coexistence is much cheaper than war and it can take humanity to a greater height and success if man can pull himself together and become what he is put on this planet for; to be the custodian of this earth.
To understand humanity, one has to understand one's self and come to terms with what is inherently our inner nature for as being told by great minds in the past; we are the world. We, each and everyone of us are responsible for the well being of this planet the only one we have. If not our voices, let our hearts be aware of what is happening around us and meditate or pray even offer sacrifices that the Universal Spirit is awakened from our Collective Consciousness to overcome the impending disaster that we are all facing. Mankind has to become more consciously involved in the affairs of the state and the world and each and every being alive must look deep within to recognize and utilize the powers inherent within us in combating evil. We were created not to just populate this planet and live off it like parasites or worse like cancerous virus living off its host. We have to stop eating and shitting on the same plate; we are far greater than who we think we are, if only we take the time to look within and contemplate. We have to do this not for our sake alone but for all those who will come after us.
Wake Up; before you are rudely awaken.
Why should it concern me? I am old and am approaching the end of my days sooner than most, so why should i be concern what is going to happen to this planet in the near future. I have experienced the best and the worse that this life has to offer and then some; what is there to worry or regret about? But i do, i am concerned for the well being of my children and theirs when the time comes. I am concerned for those innocent would be victims that would have to endure untold misery on account of a few pig headed war mongers and self aggrandizing so called world leaders giving vent to their anger in ignorance. Most of humanity especially those who are living day to day eking a living and barely surviving do not know or much less care for what the so called super powers are up to in their war rooms, they are simply living like there is only one thing in mind and that is to seek food and shelter and hopefully some form of peace and comfort while at it. For those who are in the know, who make the effort to understand through whatever sources available, the picture is not good for humanity.
However all is not lost yet as there are counter measures that at at work in the form of peace loving movements spreading all over the world like the Human Rights foundation, the Isha Foundation, the many spiritual and religious bodies like the Buddhist schools and Christian and Muslim peace movements transcending all the greed and hatred that has been unleashed by those hunger for power and dominion over others. Humanity is resilient when its very survival is at stake and today with the spread of the information technology which allow for a better and more transparent exposure of what is happening, humanity will rise to put a stop to these war mongering entities once and for all; all good men will rise for the occasion. And for those who still live in denial and ignorance, the upheaval when it happens will be a wake up call that will shake their souls to the core; WW3 will make WW2 look like a child's play.
I hope and pray that it will blow away and the world will preserve itself from self destruction. I hope and pray that the blood thirsting madness will come to an end with not an incident and defy all the end of the world predictions and revelations even if the ball has be set rolling towards our demise. The All Mighty works in mysterious ways it is said by just every religious faith and i hope and pray that the Lord will intervene before it is too late. Working towards a peaceful coexistence is much cheaper than war and it can take humanity to a greater height and success if man can pull himself together and become what he is put on this planet for; to be the custodian of this earth.
To understand humanity, one has to understand one's self and come to terms with what is inherently our inner nature for as being told by great minds in the past; we are the world. We, each and everyone of us are responsible for the well being of this planet the only one we have. If not our voices, let our hearts be aware of what is happening around us and meditate or pray even offer sacrifices that the Universal Spirit is awakened from our Collective Consciousness to overcome the impending disaster that we are all facing. Mankind has to become more consciously involved in the affairs of the state and the world and each and every being alive must look deep within to recognize and utilize the powers inherent within us in combating evil. We were created not to just populate this planet and live off it like parasites or worse like cancerous virus living off its host. We have to stop eating and shitting on the same plate; we are far greater than who we think we are, if only we take the time to look within and contemplate. We have to do this not for our sake alone but for all those who will come after us.
Wake Up; before you are rudely awaken.
Wednesday, October 12, 2016
The Refugee Woes in Europe
Europe is being inundated by refugees from all over the war torn nations of the Middle east and the poverty struck nations of Northern African countries. Again Islam is projected forward as the cause to all these instability going on in the European Union countries. Germany opened its doors to receive as many refugees as it could handle and several other nations followed but more reluctantly for fear of the repercussions of what will happen to their own security. The influx of refugees form the war torn countries in the Middle East carries with them Islam as a brand claiming their rights as Muslims and as refugees for a decent treatment from the host nations and the host nations are weary of the conflict that is being laid down at their door steps between their own citizens and the new comers. Ancient animosity and hatred flares up from fear and ignorance of what is being faced with by both sides. It is indeed a tragic state we are facing in the course of our human history.
It all hinges upon the three illnesses that i have often enough cited in my Blog and that being, Greed-Hate and Ignorance. Man will never free himself from the chains of suffering for so long as he does not overcome these three illnesses that is inherent within himself, be it as an individual or as a nation.
Oil is the cause of most all the conflicts in the Middle eastern countries and this black gold is both a boon and a curse to the nations that inherit them. The need for oil especially in the west has caused for more torment in the lives of millions of innocent man women and child throughout history since its first discovery; it was a battle between those who have it and those who need it at all cost. The story of oil and the development of industries and nations throughout the world is paved with so much waste in terms of wealth and decadence and it is also filled with so much bloodshed and misery, but man will live on in denial of any wrong doing for so long as there is fuel to move the vehicle and light up the cities. What is happening in the European Union today is the breaking of the dam of frustration and hopelessness among those who been living in the shadows of greed, hate and ignorance as manifested by those who are relentlessly pursuing the course of these three evils in order to line their pockets or position themselves to rule over others.
Power is the manifestation of hatred where armed forces are sent to every corner of the globe to subdue and demoralized all that stand between the power that be and what it is after and in this case;oil. All manner of pretexts and excuses are given or manufactured to convince the masses that the military actions taken were justifiable; the end justifies the means. The means has now become a disease that is corrupting humanity with endless wars and displacement of societies and reduction of life to discord despair among those who has become collateral victims. Those driven homeless out of fear for their very survival seek refuge in the very countries that had in the past sought to subjugate their homeland for gain and profit. This is the result of colonization and the West is receiving what it had sown. having stirred the hornets' nest now the angry masses are seeking retribution or at least a place to create its new hive.
It is sad that Islam has again been caught into this turmoil due to its oil producing nations being the center of attention. It seems like Islam will never be free from being the accused for all the violence that is being manifested all over the world when in truth the West has all along took for granted the fact that the wealth of the Muslim nation as being made available for their consumption and it is their right to take it at all cost by hook or by crook. The west through their might and technological advancement has assumed that all will be well at the end of the day when every oil producing nation comes under their jurisdiction. What they have failed to foresee is the basic human factor that refuses to accept defeat and subjugation, the will to survive and the fear of their survival being in jeopardy. Muslims that flocked towards the west en mass are those who are instrumental in this retribution and they have brought the wars and the miseries with them a laid it at the Western doorsteps. They have taken refuge from the very torment that was caused by the countries they sought refuge from. In the words of an eight year old boy in Syria,"Just stop the war in Syria, we Syrians do not want tot go to Europe."
Refugees are not migrants and they have special rights accorded to them by the United Nation Declaration for the Rights of Refugees in foreign countries. But refugees too have to observe the rights of their host nations, the respect and abiding by the laws of that nation and their citizens. Muslim refugees are being targeted by the Western media as causing so much discord and even violence and this is unacceptable by any standards. A true Muslim following the teachings of the Prophet of Islam would not behave unruly in their host country. They would behave like the prophet had dictated in the times of war, to not harm the innocent not even the trees and landscape. The true Muslim refugee would behave like a true Muslim and act with patience and dignity in the face of hardship. To share the teachings of the Prophet by action and not by invoking violence in the name of the religion. Those who take the opportunity to incite chaos and violence in these times of tribulation are not Muslims and do not deserve the same refuge accorded to those who follow the Way of the Prophet. Islam is and was never a violent religion; a great many deluded Muslims are.
It all hinges upon the three illnesses that i have often enough cited in my Blog and that being, Greed-Hate and Ignorance. Man will never free himself from the chains of suffering for so long as he does not overcome these three illnesses that is inherent within himself, be it as an individual or as a nation.
Oil is the cause of most all the conflicts in the Middle eastern countries and this black gold is both a boon and a curse to the nations that inherit them. The need for oil especially in the west has caused for more torment in the lives of millions of innocent man women and child throughout history since its first discovery; it was a battle between those who have it and those who need it at all cost. The story of oil and the development of industries and nations throughout the world is paved with so much waste in terms of wealth and decadence and it is also filled with so much bloodshed and misery, but man will live on in denial of any wrong doing for so long as there is fuel to move the vehicle and light up the cities. What is happening in the European Union today is the breaking of the dam of frustration and hopelessness among those who been living in the shadows of greed, hate and ignorance as manifested by those who are relentlessly pursuing the course of these three evils in order to line their pockets or position themselves to rule over others.
Power is the manifestation of hatred where armed forces are sent to every corner of the globe to subdue and demoralized all that stand between the power that be and what it is after and in this case;oil. All manner of pretexts and excuses are given or manufactured to convince the masses that the military actions taken were justifiable; the end justifies the means. The means has now become a disease that is corrupting humanity with endless wars and displacement of societies and reduction of life to discord despair among those who has become collateral victims. Those driven homeless out of fear for their very survival seek refuge in the very countries that had in the past sought to subjugate their homeland for gain and profit. This is the result of colonization and the West is receiving what it had sown. having stirred the hornets' nest now the angry masses are seeking retribution or at least a place to create its new hive.
It is sad that Islam has again been caught into this turmoil due to its oil producing nations being the center of attention. It seems like Islam will never be free from being the accused for all the violence that is being manifested all over the world when in truth the West has all along took for granted the fact that the wealth of the Muslim nation as being made available for their consumption and it is their right to take it at all cost by hook or by crook. The west through their might and technological advancement has assumed that all will be well at the end of the day when every oil producing nation comes under their jurisdiction. What they have failed to foresee is the basic human factor that refuses to accept defeat and subjugation, the will to survive and the fear of their survival being in jeopardy. Muslims that flocked towards the west en mass are those who are instrumental in this retribution and they have brought the wars and the miseries with them a laid it at the Western doorsteps. They have taken refuge from the very torment that was caused by the countries they sought refuge from. In the words of an eight year old boy in Syria,"Just stop the war in Syria, we Syrians do not want tot go to Europe."
Refugees are not migrants and they have special rights accorded to them by the United Nation Declaration for the Rights of Refugees in foreign countries. But refugees too have to observe the rights of their host nations, the respect and abiding by the laws of that nation and their citizens. Muslim refugees are being targeted by the Western media as causing so much discord and even violence and this is unacceptable by any standards. A true Muslim following the teachings of the Prophet of Islam would not behave unruly in their host country. They would behave like the prophet had dictated in the times of war, to not harm the innocent not even the trees and landscape. The true Muslim refugee would behave like a true Muslim and act with patience and dignity in the face of hardship. To share the teachings of the Prophet by action and not by invoking violence in the name of the religion. Those who take the opportunity to incite chaos and violence in these times of tribulation are not Muslims and do not deserve the same refuge accorded to those who follow the Way of the Prophet. Islam is and was never a violent religion; a great many deluded Muslims are.
Monday, October 10, 2016
Still trying to make sense out of Non sense.
I am addicted to the collecting of information in whatever form that it comes in and I will be spending the rest of my day analyzing or entertaining these collection like a drifter sifting through the garbage bins for tit bits of collectibles. Gossips, a passing comment, all manner of videos there are being uploaded into You Tube books, ant he list is endless, my mind is insatiable when it comes to filling itself up with what is out there. Conspiracy theories, the Roman Catholic Church and its woes, the mind and its extent of consciousness, movies, and last night it was all about the Anti Christ and all that is connected to this Biblical Prophecy. I cannot recount how many videos i watched all through the night trying to decipher the whole phenomena trying to make sense out of non-sense on the the subject of the Anti Christ and the End of Days. What else can one do when there is a long sleepless night ahead of you?
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning.
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.
The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.
By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world. - Wikipedia.
And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In Hinduism, Kalki (Devanagari: कल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga.
And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.
Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.Then again being an atheist all these means nothing to one and life is made simpler with less to worry about.
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning.
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.
The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.
By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world. - Wikipedia.
And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In Hinduism, Kalki (Devanagari: कल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga.
And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.
Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.Then again being an atheist all these means nothing to one and life is made simpler with less to worry about.
Still trying to make sense out of Non sense.
I am addicted to the collecting of information in whatever form that it comes in and I will be spending the rest of my day analyzing or entertaining these collection like a drifter sifting through the garbage bins for tit bits of collectibles. Gossips, a passing comment, all manner of videos there are being uploaded into You Tube books, ant he list is endless, my mind is insatiable when it comes to filling itself up with what is out there. Conspiracy theories, the Roman Catholic Church and its woes, the mind and its extent of consciousness, movies, and last night it was all about the Anti Christ and all that is connected to this Biblical Prophecy. I cannot recount how many videos i watched all through the night trying to decipher the whole phenomena trying to make sense out of non-sense on the the subject of the Anti Christ and the End of Days. What else can one do when there is a long sleepless night ahead of you?
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning.
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.
The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.
By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world. - Wikipedia.
And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In Hinduism, Kalki (Devanagari: कल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga.
And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.
Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.
The Muslim version as I have read about the subject claims the Dajal, or the Anti Christ was found stranded on an island off the coast of Yaman somewhere in the Arabian sea. He was held in captivity and the details I cannot remember, being cared for by one of the Angels. According to my reading, (some time ago), the dajal is an Immortal and has been with us all along in one form or another throughout history/ One of the accounts told of the Dajal being confronted by Moses who smacked him with his staff and blinded him in one eye. he later was accosted by the Prophet of Allah who threatened to smite him but was warned not to by the Angel Gabriel saying that only the Messiah Jesus Christ can destroy the Dajal at an appointed time in the future. In the mean time the Dajal exist among us carrying out his schemes against the sons of Adam with the aid of Satan and his hordes that plagues the earth since the beginning.
Stories abound of the Anti Christ and many movies are spun of from this prophecy that would herald the End of Time fo the Planet and its denizens. What a lot we are, we the thinking so called humans, how we can evoke into our psyche so much intrigues and chaotic archetypes who fills our lives and the lives of our fore fathers with such foreboding threats and delusions that till this day we are still manifesting so much fears and anxieties over matters that were foretold to happen by those who came before us hundreds of thousands of years ago and based on this we have created schisms and differences between that have untold millions of lives of the innocent and the ignorant. The last video i watched and listened to at 4 am this morning connected all the dots in history and the Biblical prophecies to point the finger at the Pope as the potential Anti Christ! I will not elaborate on this, but suffice to say that from what i hear the theory put together on this video is most convincing of all so far, at least to my limited knowledge on the subject. I must admit thought that this is a matter of great interest to me even when i was young. In Malay society you call someone you don't like, a Dajal, so you got to know the Anti Christ at a very early years of your life.
The word Dajjal in Arabic means Deceiver or Liar. The emergence of the Dajjal(AntiChrist or False Messiah) is the most dangerous among the signs that indicate the Day of Judgment is approaching, even people with strong faith will be shaken. Allah created the Dajjal to test people's faith.
By this you know the Spirit of God: every spirit that confesses that Jesus Christ has come in the flesh is from God, and every spirit that does not confess Jesus is not from God. And this is the spirit of the antichrist, of which you have heard that it is coming; and now it is already in the world. - Wikipedia.
And then there is Kalki in Hinduism, how does he fits in with this whole matter?
In Hinduism, Kalki (Devanagari: कल्कि; lit. destroyer of filth) is the tenth avatar of the god Vishnu in the current Mahayuga, foretold to appear at the end of Kali Yuga, the current epoch. The Purana scriptures foretell that Kalki will be atop a white horse with a drawn blazing sword.he will be source of everything good like it was happened during every avatar .He is the harbinger of the end time in Hindu eschatology, after which he will usher in Satya Yuga.
And how about, the Buddha Maitrya ?
According to Buddhist tradition, Maitreya is a bodhisattva who will appear on Earth in the future, achieve complete enlightenment, and teach the pure dharma. According to scriptures, Maitreya will be a successor to the present Buddha, Gautama Buddha (also known as Śākyamuni Buddha).- Wikepedia.
Try fitting in all the puzzles if you have nothing else to do. Ignorance is no excuse when your faith if not your souls are at stake here.
Wednesday, October 05, 2016
Making Sense out of Non-Sense - 5
Kitaro to me is perhaps one of the great Masters of musical compositions in our musical history, he has mastered the Art of blending the sounds of the East and the West like the flow of a stream that transports the consciousness of the listener through time and space effortlessly. Yeah I decided i miss the sounds of Kitaro and so Kitaro it is.
My friend Ah Huat has given me RM200 for me to buy cheap frames that were sold near my home the 99Ceria Mini Market which actually is right across the street from me. So i bought 20 pieces A4 frames made in China as all products sold at this Market is made in China and that is why they are cheap. Yes, economically speaking , China is beginning to own our country. But that is another story, my friend's intention is to get me into the business mode as far selling my works goes. I am as bad a salesman as I am at my math and it seems like making a living out of selling is not my cup of tea even if the tea is from China. However who says i am not open to new adventures, perhaps this is just what i need to keep my mind from wandering, and so I have my work cut, out for me and now to choose and mount the drawings and sketches to fit the standard sized frames. I might as well accept the fact that i have a potential business manager, an atuo-air conditioning center owner, manger, superb salesman and Master mechanic; a Zen master...Jackie Chan.
The Japanese people in my opinion are the among the most focused and disciplined workers in the world and they handle their National disasters with the most efficient and collective manner as a result. It is in Japan that we find the potential for natural disasters to occur, here one can expect and earthquake a Tsunami, a Typhoon or a Hurricane and not to mention the most often hit by volcanic activity and severe winters in some area. This perhaps has made the Japanese as the most resilient nation that can rise out of a Nuclear Holocaust and lead the world as one of the most industrialized nation today. I study Zen Buddhism for many years ever since the book "The Way of Zen' landed in my lap while i was shelving books at the University Library of UWGB. I became a Zen student through Alan Watts and his Ways. I would hereby recommend all Artists interested in what the Philosophers have to offer to the Arts and spirituality. to read Alan Watts or at least listen to his talks on You Tube; keep your mind open and allow for what he says to become your Koan as you seek for better and more complete explanation of who you truly are. Art and Aesthetics are best described by those who don't paint or draw. I almost surrender myself to the care of yet another friend, a fellow Bodhisatva who have awakened at an earlier age and am my present Guru; Ah Huat just like i surrender my thoughts and beliefs prior to meeting the "Way of Zen" and embarked upon a pursuit of becoming a Zen -Mind - Beginner's Mind. And now here I am trying to make sense out of non-sense a not so Zen like practice of looking back in time while reflecting the future while keeping close balance between what is and what should have been.
Look around you and Love Life and that is all the conclusion that you need to come by after all these years, be positive and express your feelings when necessary and keep to your silence whenever and however possible; this is your pit stops, the space you are in between your thoughts and the space between the two notes in a tune. Look around and accept that life out there is about how you relate between one and another, about interpersonal relationships and the sharing of being who you are. There is no trick or mystery about life other than the fact that you will have to come to an eventual understanding that nothing of all these are real in the true sense of the word. Seeing through the veils of illusions before us we can live a more fully involved and caring an entity midst the rest of humanity. Being awakened alone is no fun; we will have to all of us awaken ourselves and make our choices whether to stay on this course of action or change the Collective Spirit from its destructive mode to one that heals and regenerate. "You are the World!" as another of my Guru said, I found both Alan Watts and Jedu Krishnamurti's works on the same shelf at the library at UWGB and it is also here that I discovered the two volumes of Hokusai's Mangga.
To one who seeks eventually the Universe provides. It may not be according to the time you hope for, but it happens when it happens and when it happens be present to celebrate it. WOW! This is about as close as I can express within my heart in joyous gratefulness every time a small miracle like finding the perfect parking spot or being there at the right time or being able to sit and watch the latest Godzilla about to destroy Tokyo with my two children at the movies. When my son Karim asked me what i thought of the movie I told him that there was too much dialogue and for me to read English subtitles which is stuck in between the Chinese and the Malay subs., I was beginning to fall asleep. I told him that the movie was done as a message to the Japanese people if not the world on how or what can be the impediment to a good Emergency Response in the event of a Natural disaster, like Earthquake and Tsunamis and Nuclear breach and so forth. It was an environmental message as to what we are doing to our natural environment and how we are willing to take these chances simply to stay ahead of our neighbors; politically, National and International. Nowhere more so than in Japan is life being seen as Impermanent, hence precious, that nothing last forever and what is created will be destroyed, what has come into being will cease to exist; hence rejoice in the moment before the next comes.
My friend Ah Huat has given me RM200 for me to buy cheap frames that were sold near my home the 99Ceria Mini Market which actually is right across the street from me. So i bought 20 pieces A4 frames made in China as all products sold at this Market is made in China and that is why they are cheap. Yes, economically speaking , China is beginning to own our country. But that is another story, my friend's intention is to get me into the business mode as far selling my works goes. I am as bad a salesman as I am at my math and it seems like making a living out of selling is not my cup of tea even if the tea is from China. However who says i am not open to new adventures, perhaps this is just what i need to keep my mind from wandering, and so I have my work cut, out for me and now to choose and mount the drawings and sketches to fit the standard sized frames. I might as well accept the fact that i have a potential business manager, an atuo-air conditioning center owner, manger, superb salesman and Master mechanic; a Zen master...Jackie Chan.
The Japanese people in my opinion are the among the most focused and disciplined workers in the world and they handle their National disasters with the most efficient and collective manner as a result. It is in Japan that we find the potential for natural disasters to occur, here one can expect and earthquake a Tsunami, a Typhoon or a Hurricane and not to mention the most often hit by volcanic activity and severe winters in some area. This perhaps has made the Japanese as the most resilient nation that can rise out of a Nuclear Holocaust and lead the world as one of the most industrialized nation today. I study Zen Buddhism for many years ever since the book "The Way of Zen' landed in my lap while i was shelving books at the University Library of UWGB. I became a Zen student through Alan Watts and his Ways. I would hereby recommend all Artists interested in what the Philosophers have to offer to the Arts and spirituality. to read Alan Watts or at least listen to his talks on You Tube; keep your mind open and allow for what he says to become your Koan as you seek for better and more complete explanation of who you truly are. Art and Aesthetics are best described by those who don't paint or draw. I almost surrender myself to the care of yet another friend, a fellow Bodhisatva who have awakened at an earlier age and am my present Guru; Ah Huat just like i surrender my thoughts and beliefs prior to meeting the "Way of Zen" and embarked upon a pursuit of becoming a Zen -Mind - Beginner's Mind. And now here I am trying to make sense out of non-sense a not so Zen like practice of looking back in time while reflecting the future while keeping close balance between what is and what should have been.
Look around you and Love Life and that is all the conclusion that you need to come by after all these years, be positive and express your feelings when necessary and keep to your silence whenever and however possible; this is your pit stops, the space you are in between your thoughts and the space between the two notes in a tune. Look around and accept that life out there is about how you relate between one and another, about interpersonal relationships and the sharing of being who you are. There is no trick or mystery about life other than the fact that you will have to come to an eventual understanding that nothing of all these are real in the true sense of the word. Seeing through the veils of illusions before us we can live a more fully involved and caring an entity midst the rest of humanity. Being awakened alone is no fun; we will have to all of us awaken ourselves and make our choices whether to stay on this course of action or change the Collective Spirit from its destructive mode to one that heals and regenerate. "You are the World!" as another of my Guru said, I found both Alan Watts and Jedu Krishnamurti's works on the same shelf at the library at UWGB and it is also here that I discovered the two volumes of Hokusai's Mangga.
To one who seeks eventually the Universe provides. It may not be according to the time you hope for, but it happens when it happens and when it happens be present to celebrate it. WOW! This is about as close as I can express within my heart in joyous gratefulness every time a small miracle like finding the perfect parking spot or being there at the right time or being able to sit and watch the latest Godzilla about to destroy Tokyo with my two children at the movies. When my son Karim asked me what i thought of the movie I told him that there was too much dialogue and for me to read English subtitles which is stuck in between the Chinese and the Malay subs., I was beginning to fall asleep. I told him that the movie was done as a message to the Japanese people if not the world on how or what can be the impediment to a good Emergency Response in the event of a Natural disaster, like Earthquake and Tsunamis and Nuclear breach and so forth. It was an environmental message as to what we are doing to our natural environment and how we are willing to take these chances simply to stay ahead of our neighbors; politically, National and International. Nowhere more so than in Japan is life being seen as Impermanent, hence precious, that nothing last forever and what is created will be destroyed, what has come into being will cease to exist; hence rejoice in the moment before the next comes.
Monday, October 03, 2016
Making Sense out of Non-Sense 4
Silencing the dual thinking mind is the key, in my opinion, towards self liberation; it is the key towards breaking through the illusory world of Maya. We are living in our dreams most of our lives an extension of our sleep state dreams and reality is when we awaken to our external senses, we see and hear, we touch and taste what is reality as our mind is conditioned to understand and accept as the truth. But the reality we live and experience daily is just one dimension of reality and it is when closely observed lack any permanent identity other than thoughts and imaginations that we carry with us about what is before us. Scientists has proven to us now that none of this is what it is, what is real not even who you are in the physical dimension. You are not your physical body as it is ever changing and never the same moment to moment. We eat, we shit and we spend the rest of the day trying to make it all more easy for us; we work. Most of humanity has made this our 'human' way, to think otherwise is heresy or at the very least taboo. So we believe what we see, touch, taste and so forth Salt will always be salty, but what is the saltiness of salt that you taste? Is it similar to mine? Can you taste what i am tasting without thoughts and imagination. Can you feel the burning sensation that I am feeling from this fire?
And so the Buddha said, "Unto no man do you depend upon your own salvation, I have to strive on my own and come a conclusion within myself as i have realized that the external phenomena is all an illusion. Our Collective Consciousness has made salt as salty and sugar as sweet, we are all now living in collective grid that has been conditioned into our consciousness and most are for our benefit in ensuring a harmonious coexistence. This comes from the same food we eat and the same water we drink day in day out and not to forget the same air we breath, as is said we are a product of our environment; what if you move allot?
The answers i have time and time been told by my Teachers, Gurus and Friends, lies within and i have to mine it like i would be looking for that precious Pink Diamond in the Heart of Africa; deep within my heart of darkness. There is only the now to be concerned about and the moment of truth is always in the present moment and not five seconds before or later, it's always there lest you miss it. To be in truth is to be anchored in the moment without being conscious that you are and effortlessly proceed fully aware of you breath in and out. In this state truth manifests itself and nothing out of the ordinary happens except you are aware that white is white and black is black and this is the law of the dual thinking dimensional existence. It is the Collective Consciousness of the Dharma realm or Shakyamuni Buddha's Nirmanakaya Loka that manifests as a guide towards humanity making its way through Life...Life is Suffering...Suffering Is....None who Suffers. You suffer for as long as there is a you, as long as you are this conditioned who you think you are or supposed to be.The closer you are attached to this understanding of who you truly are, the more harder it would be for you to give up this phenomenal existence, thus clinging on to life is the ultimate form of suffering and especially when the end of our days approaches. The most Hottest of all Koans that i have been carrying in my guts is; "Who am I?" and i hope that before i die i will at least have a glimpse of Nirvana or have one foot in heaven.
And so the Buddha said, "Unto no man do you depend upon your own salvation, I have to strive on my own and come a conclusion within myself as i have realized that the external phenomena is all an illusion. Our Collective Consciousness has made salt as salty and sugar as sweet, we are all now living in collective grid that has been conditioned into our consciousness and most are for our benefit in ensuring a harmonious coexistence. This comes from the same food we eat and the same water we drink day in day out and not to forget the same air we breath, as is said we are a product of our environment; what if you move allot?
The answers i have time and time been told by my Teachers, Gurus and Friends, lies within and i have to mine it like i would be looking for that precious Pink Diamond in the Heart of Africa; deep within my heart of darkness. There is only the now to be concerned about and the moment of truth is always in the present moment and not five seconds before or later, it's always there lest you miss it. To be in truth is to be anchored in the moment without being conscious that you are and effortlessly proceed fully aware of you breath in and out. In this state truth manifests itself and nothing out of the ordinary happens except you are aware that white is white and black is black and this is the law of the dual thinking dimensional existence. It is the Collective Consciousness of the Dharma realm or Shakyamuni Buddha's Nirmanakaya Loka that manifests as a guide towards humanity making its way through Life...Life is Suffering...Suffering Is....None who Suffers. You suffer for as long as there is a you, as long as you are this conditioned who you think you are or supposed to be.The closer you are attached to this understanding of who you truly are, the more harder it would be for you to give up this phenomenal existence, thus clinging on to life is the ultimate form of suffering and especially when the end of our days approaches. The most Hottest of all Koans that i have been carrying in my guts is; "Who am I?" and i hope that before i die i will at least have a glimpse of Nirvana or have one foot in heaven.
Making Sense out of Non-Sense 3
Listening to "Asian Spirit" from a video on You Tube while making the entry for today, a good discovery made this morning. Chinese songs and modern compositions featuring classical instruments alongside a modern orchestra; When east meets West. Within me I am struggling to find my footing still, what shall i write about that is pertinent to my effort in self discovery, what am I missing? Where do i head from here on, why am I so uncertain and anxious to get things done and often not being able to attend to what is right before my eyes that needed tending to. On the other hand I am finding it getting easier to handle the daily ball game, like things are less tougher than i I always assumes, like bad things are always lurking around the corners and so forth. i am less concern about the things around the corner bad or good, i am finding myself more in the moment in time..the Now. Perhaps my meditation practices incomplete and haphazard as it may seem, is paying off.
I find myself looking more and more within even when I am not sitting in meditation, like while waiting in line to pay the bills or as i am doing now, looking within to find the answers. It is perhaps part of the aging process that a man my age would look more and more for that quiet spot to chill, listening to Modern classical Chinese Music while writing about it. I am getting up there in age as they say and my moods and temperament shifts a little slower of late and it seems like it does not really matter much any more most of the stuff that comes my way. Perhaps i am loosing my warrior's edge and being endowed with the monk's beggar's bowl. The Buddha lived most of his awakened life moving from street to street, forest to forest, villages to villages and cities to cities, he was a beggar. What am i missing, what is not enough? I live a much more sheltered life than the Buddha did after he gave up being one of the most revered and loved prince of a great Indian Kingdom. It was hell to give up one's palace life in search of Truth,; Gautama the Shakya Prince of Kapalivastu did it some 2500 years ago or so they say. In the galaxies of the universe he would have shone out like a Sun among other stars and planets. They gave Him the title of "The World and Time Honored One."
The Buddha's quest to unravel the mysteries of life or untangle the web and chaos of life was a stepping stone in the path of humanity as it marches towards its final destination - Liberation or Nirvana. I was born and raised a Buddhist as well as a Muslim in my childhood years and this conflict or religious interest in me has caused for many an untold sleepless nights and agony of the soul. I twist and turn over in my mind and in my soul as to who I am, a Muslim or a Buddhist, and now i can safely say that I am both and then some more.. It does not make me rich or famous in discovering this but it has allowed me to choose my own grounds, my own dharma Position, my own "Pendirian Mutamad.' I am s spiritual entity seeking to become free of his past present and future mental delusions and physical impermanence. I seek to become liberated from this circle of life -death and rebirth, just like Shakyamuni Buddha did. Failing this i would like to be as wise as J.Krishnamurti or Sadguru or Alan watts and failing this i would like to aspire to become as creatively alive as Hokusai and Rembrandt the older i grow till I die...
Insha' Allah all will come to be as it is His Will to make it happen. I am a Muslim but not by practice, I am a Muslim in my Heart of hearts, within the confines of my soul and in my emotions when they express themselves; I cry, laugh, sit or stand as a Muslim, it is my personal path, I chose to walk. I practice the Buddha's Way of understanding Life and thus making it less oppressive than it is, less suffering and more joy in all humanity, rich or poor, wherever they may be. I too seek to awaken and awaken the Universe along with me even if it is just for a split second of a moment in time. At the beginning of the Epic course in Buddhism written in the Abidharma, the Buddha asked as question, "Who untangle the Tangle," and the question is aimed humanity itself. The Abidharma is a text of Buddhist practice towards becoming a monk. This very same question has been my Zen Koan when i first heard it while at the Zen Center at the Tassajarra Zen Mountain retreat in the Big Sur Mountains of Carmel Valley, California - 1985? . I have been carrying it with me like a ball of fire in my belly.
"What is the Imperturbable Mind, Bahari!" my former teacher once asked me and it become my Koan for sometime.
"What is the Buddha's Mind, Junpo Kelly San?" I found the answer while sitting s Sesshin at Green Gulch Zen Zenter and it set me free from my aches and pains of my seven days of sitting was all it did, I am forever indebted to my Teacher, my first Zen Roshi - Junpo Denis Kelly.
Although our parting was rather dramatic and uncool, I still maintain a great respect for the man who got my life started in San Francisco. I would like to take the opportunity to wish if not remember Mrs. Rosella Kelly, Junpo's Mom, who was the catalyst got i all started. It happened while we were polishing copper printing plates at the Fine Arts Studio at the University of Wis. Green Bay. We were members of the printmaking club lead by Prof. Timothy Josephs. Rossela elbowed my and whispered in my ear, "Sam, it is time for you to leave!" and the rest as they say is written somewhere in my Blog if you can find it.
The Buddha's quest to unravel the mysteries of life or untangle the web and chaos of life was a stepping stone in the path of humanity as it marches towards its final destination - Liberation or Nirvana. I was born and raised a Buddhist as well as a Muslim in my childhood years and this conflict or religious interest in me has caused for many an untold sleepless nights and agony of the soul. I twist and turn over in my mind and in my soul as to who I am, a Muslim or a Buddhist, and now i can safely say that I am both and then some more.. It does not make me rich or famous in discovering this but it has allowed me to choose my own grounds, my own dharma Position, my own "Pendirian Mutamad.' I am s spiritual entity seeking to become free of his past present and future mental delusions and physical impermanence. I seek to become liberated from this circle of life -death and rebirth, just like Shakyamuni Buddha did. Failing this i would like to be as wise as J.Krishnamurti or Sadguru or Alan watts and failing this i would like to aspire to become as creatively alive as Hokusai and Rembrandt the older i grow till I die...
Insha' Allah all will come to be as it is His Will to make it happen. I am a Muslim but not by practice, I am a Muslim in my Heart of hearts, within the confines of my soul and in my emotions when they express themselves; I cry, laugh, sit or stand as a Muslim, it is my personal path, I chose to walk. I practice the Buddha's Way of understanding Life and thus making it less oppressive than it is, less suffering and more joy in all humanity, rich or poor, wherever they may be. I too seek to awaken and awaken the Universe along with me even if it is just for a split second of a moment in time. At the beginning of the Epic course in Buddhism written in the Abidharma, the Buddha asked as question, "Who untangle the Tangle," and the question is aimed humanity itself. The Abidharma is a text of Buddhist practice towards becoming a monk. This very same question has been my Zen Koan when i first heard it while at the Zen Center at the Tassajarra Zen Mountain retreat in the Big Sur Mountains of Carmel Valley, California - 1985? . I have been carrying it with me like a ball of fire in my belly.
"What is the Imperturbable Mind, Bahari!" my former teacher once asked me and it become my Koan for sometime.
"What is the Buddha's Mind, Junpo Kelly San?" I found the answer while sitting s Sesshin at Green Gulch Zen Zenter and it set me free from my aches and pains of my seven days of sitting was all it did, I am forever indebted to my Teacher, my first Zen Roshi - Junpo Denis Kelly.
Abbot Jun Po Denis KellyWisconsinJun Po Denis Kelly, received his Zen Masters recognition in 1992. He was Vice Abbot and head monk as well as resident yoga teacher at Dai Bosatsu Zendo Kong Ji in the Catskill .. Full Bio |
Although our parting was rather dramatic and uncool, I still maintain a great respect for the man who got my life started in San Francisco. I would like to take the opportunity to wish if not remember Mrs. Rosella Kelly, Junpo's Mom, who was the catalyst got i all started. It happened while we were polishing copper printing plates at the Fine Arts Studio at the University of Wis. Green Bay. We were members of the printmaking club lead by Prof. Timothy Josephs. Rossela elbowed my and whispered in my ear, "Sam, it is time for you to leave!" and the rest as they say is written somewhere in my Blog if you can find it.
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Do not become attach to this state of mind and move on to the next dimension of your practice, if you are a practitioner, and continue to harness the silence that you have brought forth. Maintain the awareness of being in the moment and anchored in the present, there is sounds and noises from the outside, you recognize some and the others are just like 'rain drops falling on my head'. Expect nothing and cause for nothing to come into being. resist the temptation to control your state of mind; just let it be, just observe. Become more and more aware of the changes that takes place in the mind. What rises and what dispersed and how long did they stay and what makes them leave - this is how you watch your mind. Slowly but surely you will come to recognize each and every thought process or as the Buddhist teachings calls them Mental Formations., all the ideas, and fears, the dramas and dogmas; all the daily experiences you had and plus more, this is the power of the mind over you. With age it grows much more as you as you are making your final approach before you hit the hole in the ground; you become aware of the past present and future of your existence.
Cluttered and chaotic as the mind is, it can be pacified and brought to slowdown if not come to a halt every now and then; remember who is the boss. If you are the maker of the final decisions if you are the owner and master of your own body and mind, then you know you have the Birth right to make things happen as you will, at least within your own dimensional experiences. You are the Artist, paint what you like and imagine all you want; this is Creativity. Liberation is the Key factor in the final analysis of Buddhism, as I see it, seeking to free oneself from the torture of being poor and ignorant, deaf blind and dumb, or even being filthy rich but riddled with the problem of wealth or fame; it is in Liberation that the Buddha set out to discover what is Enlightenment. Gautama performed the longest and most arduous journey of self discovery in his adult life such that He can liberate humanity as a whole, " I am Awakened! The Universe Awakens with Me!"
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