Good Bye 2012 - Hello 13

The year 2012 survived the Mayan prophecy and has managed to keep on trucking perhaps into the next millennium. I am still myself with my self doubts and perturbations, product of an ignorant dual thinking mind of which I have accepted as who I am. practice hard as I may in trying to come to understand who I am or what my potentialities might be i am still stuck with the same old rut of being caught in the routine of self doubts and low self esteem. i say this because i cannot give up in being subjected to this sense of comparing, measuring and adjusting my state of being to the next guy i confront. Its desire to be more than or better than or greater than the man who looked at me in the eye when he passed me by in the corridor. God help me, after all these years, the practices, the attempt at discipline the vows of celibacy and what not, look at where I am at.
 Yes another year is slipping by and i am one more year older in this physical form, one would think that i have learned something worthwhile about life, but no, all i know is that life is still suffering and suffering is even for those who think they are free from the trials and tribulations of life. I listen to so much pains, so much uncertainty and so much disconcerted state of being here and back in Penang that I am beginning to feel like there is no end to it. What is it that we are all looking for, what do we expect, what we do we hope for: why?
Yes the world is still spinning out of whack! look at it whichever way you like, unless you are totally blind to the suffering of those in Palestine and Iraq in Syria or Libia, then you deserve the medal for being a Buddha incarnate as Buddhas are beyond caring for these worldly vexations. But if you are human and profess to save human beings from the life of suffering then you have to still sit and contemplate the state of this planet as it is; not much to brag about really. As you are the universe, it is imperative that you carry the burden of rectifying the causes of  these suffering that has fallen upon humanity; unless you are ignorant of the fact that you are the universe. In which case then you look for a scape goat to take the fall for what is transpiring around you and God is a good place to start with.
The Creator, the One who made it all happen, the One you had been taught to place your trust, faith and believe in, how could he let humanity drift into such a decaying state where life itself has become a waste.
Yes there is always the scapegoat and why not? Are you not a product of this divine madness that has allowed for the chaos that is slowly engulfing this planet and threatening to exterminate humanity itself? Why are we allowed to exist amidst our greed, hate and ignorance so much so that we have become much worse than animals? Why are we exposed and possessed by so much delusions that we have lost our sense of being human, being compassionate, being caring and forgiving;are we merely tools for some experimentation, pawns in this game of life? Good versus evil? Light against darkness and positive as opposed to negative? Are we the guinea pigs for some extensive research into what makes man better or lesser than the rest of creation?
Make your fried rice, bake your beans and punch the clock so you are on time to be where you are supposed to be; is this why you are here? Is this all there is to your life after which you are hoping and praying that it will all end and you ending up in some more pleasant environment where you do not have to worry about the fate of this planet or humanity itself anymore? Heaven, that is your ultimate goal, the place you are aiming for and if you play your cards right the seventy two vested virgins is all yours for the taking; what a lame excuse to being a man! God would have expected more out of his prime creation than just being able to stay clean enough to qualify for a place of milk and honey: He created man to excel on His behalf against all odds but man has little faith in Him only seeking to save his own skin while the Lord's Creation falls into decadence.

‎"So long as there shall exist, by reason of law and custom, a social condemnation, which, in the face of civilization, artificially creates hells on earth, and complicates a destiny that is divine, with human fatality; so long as the three problems of the age—the degradation of man by poverty, the ruin of women by starvation, and the dwarfing of childhood by physical and spiritual night—are not solved; so long as, in certain regions, social asphyxia shall be possible; in other words, and from a yet more extended point of view, so long as ignorance and misery remain on earth, books like this cannot be useless."
- preface to Les Misérables by Victor Hugo

The year 2012 is coming to an end, the year of the dragon by the Chinese calendar, an auspicious year  where revolutionary changes was meant to take place and taken place it had in many countries especially the Middle Eastern countries. As we count the days and the hours towards the new year and as we add one more year to our ages, let us contemplate, let us meditate, let's stop for a moment and take a brief look upon how far or how near we have come into being able to self exterminate ourselves through our sense of self serving justice towards our fellow man. Let us not forget our children for they will hold us accountable for what is in store for them in the future. Let us make it our vision, our goal our aspiration to leave behind us a place worth living, a place free from all the strife and chaos that our present course is leading us to end up with. If change we must then let us change for the sake of humanity each and everyone of us or there will be no change at all. You are the world and the fate of this planet is in your hands like it or not. Look closely into the eyes of your grandchild or your children and say otherwise.
As the new year approaches on the horizon let us welcome it with a renewed spirit of faith and virtue in our self and our belief, let us propagate the sense of liberation from all our ignorance and negativity and embrace the sense of Love and Compassion that is the Essence of the teachings of all the religions of our forefathers. Let us all awaken from this slumber we call life and become enlighten like those who have gone before us in a blaze of glory not in infamy. For the sake of our future let this coming year be the year we make a collective pledge to heal our decaying planet and restore it back to its former glory. Let us renounce wars, let us purify our corrupted ways and let us abandon our thirst for power and self aggrandizement. Lets us look into our hearts or hearts and claim our right to being humans again.